dependent

stormy night again. i woke up in the middle of the night to close my windows. freezing morning. i'm in a sleep debt again. luckily it's labour day tomorrow.

practised with amanda, ruolin, shanghui and rayner for some dvořák quartet that was so difficult =( ruolin had brownies! a group of us were in the canteen eating it, and soon they became a jukebox, singing everything that came to mind. amanda was also in a mood for harmonisation.

i was too tired to clean the classroom. felt so useless and wasted. did my accounts today and found that i spent $196 this month =(

the moon tonight is nice.

urge to splurge

the storm last night was so kickass that it woke me up. i vaguely remember flashes of lightning followed immediately by roaring thunder. and the thunder was scary. it was a cool and damp morning. my violin case has a nice smell!

at the aljunied bus stop i saw two cats in a bush. they were gazing into each other's eyes. then suddenly they were fighting, and one was chasing the other down the gutter.

turns out, my violin teacher wasn't at home =( the only time i didn't confirm with him a lesson and he really didn't schedule my lesson. went to raffles city instead for some shopping.

the donut queue seemed to be much shorter! and it was before 12:30pm but they were already open! and i think the queue moves faster now, because i recognised a familiar face at the end of the queue, and one hour later that person was already at the shop. hope they didn't further limit the order quota.

got some cookie mixes from the marketplace, and i noticed that ben and jerry's dublin mudslide is now out in pints! met yihui at raffles city, but i went home first to dump everything down before coming out again for mr lee's performance.

bought an irish cream ice blended so that we could claim seats in the cafe. and omg mr lee's performance was so nice. and his children are so bouncy! stupid seibu got a chance to pick a song because mr lee thought she bought two drinks. it was actually clara, yihui and i who bought the drinks >.<

i think it's so nice to have such a perfect life.

dinner was at kenny rogers roasters. and i didn't feel guilty at all for eating all that high-fat, high-carbs meal now that my napfa is over.

burgess

marcia cross has two twin girls and that's so cool! but rostropovich died yesterday.

did some maths revision worksheet today, and finished the tub of ben and jerry's =)

went to elspeth's church today. took the train to newton, and went to the same bus stop that i went to when i had syo. it was my first time in months going to that bus stop. and then it occurred to me that earlier in the day shanghui was too busy to talk to me on the net because he was rushing for syo rehearsal.

elspeth and i were both reading 'time' magazine when we met, but our magazines were set apart by two weeks.

drama mama panda gamma!

ended up sitting alone because elspeth got caught up with something else. the church service was making me sleep somehow, even with all that noisy band thing. maybe it was the dim lighting. anyway, i left early because it didn't seem like it was ending. wanted to go to island creamery to try it, but it was so crowded. went to mcdonald's instead.

when you call your old house from your new house, you can talk to yourself from the past! but you mustn't let your past self know that it is yourself calling. anyone who calls you and says it's a wrong number they dialled is definitely your future self.

i suddenly had the urge to listen to our 2003 syf performance. but there's no recording anywhere =( it would have been a very nice memory.

i think i'm done with this whole thing.

坏了

jeffrey broke my berkeley cd case. but he likes prokofieff's fifth symphony. gordon did two essay outlines today. ate the chocolate fondant. i think jeffrey liked it too. we were playing all sorts of music from his laptop while doing work.

somehow, i felt some disappointment.

gordon walked me to the mrt, but i had a leg cramp on the way. the guy sitting beside me on the train had a scar on his wrist, like a slit. there was a blind woman selling tissues at tiong bahru mrt station. i just walked past her, but when i turned around, i saw another woman giving her money, without taking any tissues.

honestly, i'm really tired. i'm so tired, but i'm stuck in a house with a daddy who's watching a leonardo dicaprio movie that has 'fuck/fucking' and shooting every few seconds.

gone

bright morning with fish-scale clouds. but turned rainy again. i had two chicken wings from the malay stall today. omg so nice. the last chemistry spa was quite easy, and there was so much time that i drew a really perfect picture on the question paper. but i couldn't keep the picture because the question paper had to be handed in.

went on the geography field trip to our CBD. visited the URA which had lots of cool models of the singapore landscape! i found my block of flats on one of them. and then there was a larger model of the CBD district and i traced the route from city hall back home. turns out, i've been walking for a really long distance everytime i do it.

then we went to chinatown to do some walking around. walked so little only. then i bought some dim sum from some stall somewhere. after that some of the people took the bus back to school, but i went to city hall to get beardpapa's fondant chocolate again. and this time i tried the cheesecake stick too. but everything's so expensive =(

back in school now for gordon's gp lesson. so tired this week.

why can't i live (in) my dream? 平安符也有 expiry date? my affection for you is very deep. how deep? skin deep.

sugee

it's been a rainy day. i brought some sugee cookies to school and everyone loved it. except ruolin. stupid auntie didn't like the butter taste. the sun after rain was like a winter sun again. i slipped on a drain cover but didn't fall. took an empty train home.

you deliberately set out to bully me, but i accidentally let you win. we didn't talk for about 40 days the last time. we didn't talk for 195 days this time. don't want it to happen again.

lotus mocha

the latest episode of desperate housewives is so nice!

it's clear blue skies today. my back and legs are in pain though. the moisturizer that sonya bought for me does work! my hair has been down the entire day. finished watching the video on global dimming today.

you like grass jelly?

gordon and elspeth did a christian fellowship today.

i don't know why it keeps raining nowadays. the lightning was very scary too. and the thunders were really loud. i was in the art room doing the self-portrait thing. omg so difficult to draw myself. mr chia edited my photo and removed the pimples on my face haha. i was doing some mathematical calculations to scale my drawing. got stumped by 42/6, and i used a calculator. the answer stumped me even more because 42/6=7! omg so dumb.

i had kfc for dinner! and then i went to city hall on impulse to get some sweet thing from beardpapa. haha omg i bought the fondant chocolate that was damn nice! the queue at donut factory was still very long.

photos:

the perfect pimple-less photo haha.

the first pencil drawing. omg i realised it looked like some betty suarez. eee the teeth are like so weird!

the scaled drawing on canvas paper.

bright red nightmare

it's been a drizzly day. for today's recess i went to the chicken rice stall that seriously overcharges with amanda. haha we exchanged our food too, because amanda must have her veggies.

there were two cakes during civics. i like the cheese one.

it turned rainy over the day. but not sad. quantum physics is still so disgusting. chemistry lecture was so terrible because of all the noise around. i'm surprised how shanghui remains unaffected by the shit that happens around everyone.

sat at one side during pe so that i didn't have to play. because i had to do napfa in the late afternoon.

omg i actually got silver for napfa! barely scraped a D for standing broad jump. did my four pull-ups! and for some reason for shuttle run got an A (i don't remember getting higher than D for it at all). and then mr seah made me do 43 sit-ups. but the 2.4 run was a close shave. omg i almost didn't get a D. almost lost it within five seconds. didn't really expect to get silver today. but oh well, now i don't have to go to tekong right after prom =)

i was like so out of energy after the run. but the sky was nice. there was a very uniform cloud cover, and the sun really looked like a winter sun. soft glow and cool air! it's really been a nice day today.

met gordon in the evening for some revision. shafali was in the next classroom doing organic chemistry. omg i think i need to start revising too. exchanged violin cases with jeffrey because i needed the more portable one. haha i think the black case looks like a gun! but my blue one is so furry/dusty now. i think he's been kicking it in his sleep >.<

passion - it's a force so potent we still remember it long after it's faded away. a drive so alluring it can push us into the arms of unexpected lovers; a sensation so overwhelming it can knock down walls we have built to protect our hearts; a feeling so intense it resurfaces even though we tried so hard to keep it buried. yes, of all emotions, passion is the one that gives us a reason to live, and an excuse to commit all sorts of crimes.

bard

oh it's shakespeare's birthday today. so, happy birthday, i guess. actually, i knew it was too good to be true that i should receive the nice sms on syf day.

the postcard's missing now.

i finished my entire week's work in the library with seibu and friends. it was raining heavily outside, and so the library became really dark. but after the rain it was cool and nice. i was going to run at the track, but then there were so many people i decided not to.

took an empty train home. then i wanted to walk back from city hall. omg i had this brilliant plan to walk to maxwell food centre and have dinner there. but i fell asleep on the train. didn't know what to eat for dinner. wanted kfc, but decided not to. didn't want to eat anything, but decided not to. ate at burger king in the end.

looked at stars tonight. no, i don't have the courage to tell you.

yo-yo ma

quaternary

woke up near twelve again! i was trying to find articles about the typhoon that blew over singapore in 2001, but i kept searching 'equatorial cyclone' on google. forgot that it should have been termed 'typhoon'. but now i've found it. typhoon vamei!

i was trying to do the chemistry tutorial on solubility equilibria, and i got stuck again and again. =( must use the lecture notes to do. then i also did the maths revision worksheet on functions.

the sky's very dark now because the environmental lapse rate was very steep. parcels of air were rising rapidly to condensation levels to form cumulus clouds. i suppose wind speed hasn't reached 61km/h, and so this is just a tropical depression!

the lonely hearts club

whoo just came back after watching seibu's concert.

today, or yesterday rather, i did so little work! h3 was just too tedious, although i think this latest tutorial is the one in which i completed the highest percentage of questions ever. in my rush to go out, i misread the clock and ended up twenty minutes early at orchard. went into a bookshop and read some of the humour books. omg so funny, especially great lies to tell small kids by andy riley!

here's one from one of allan pease's books. quite sick. confucius say 'it is good for girl to meet boy in park. but better for boy to park meat in girl.'

dinner was at food republic. bought curry rice again yay. and honey dew sago omg so nice. i saw mrs yeo too! then we were all rushing around trying to get a present for seibu. at the florist's, i saw a big cute teddy bear.

the concert this year was better than last year's. but omg some girl is still damn funny. ayawaha balamana! seibu's makeup is like the kind that's used to ward off evil spirits haha, but from far away cannot see. some songs this year are so nice! and xiaoxue played flute.

met jeffrey and annong after the concert. waited at the postsecret board for seibu. read all the postcards again, with some new ones. oh haha there were some funny but restricted ones that beejuan took down, and i kept them. weiyang, beejuan and i have observed couples connection. it's amazing what it does to walking speeds, like, totally.

supper was at mcdonald's. omg weiyang bought kfc. so fattening la. die already, i still have napfa on monday, for which i can't pass. and for today's dinner, weiyang's going to bring us to eat some cajun chicken at clementi!

sometimes it seems that we're just so unfated. but if we were, why did we even manage to meet in the first place? i've found the word to describe your smile. it's 'sheepish'.

with much viola power

there's a secret that lies right in this photo, but i'm not going to tell you. one day, i'll be able to remember the names of the j1s.
this is the real viola power, but vivian left early i think.

doink doink

i just woke up.

the original sin

this morning we went out of school for mcdonald's! i got weiyang to try the hotcakes with ice cream. and then we were walking around ntuc looking for sushi and i got a salmon handroll. omg so nice. all this while, jia en was taking her time to finish three hotcakes (42 minutes).

i was reminded of how old my black shoes were when i put them on today. they're peeling like crap, and i never got round to throwing them away. i always kept telling myself at every syo concert that i'll soon stop using the black shoes, so i shouldn't throw them away to buy a new pair. during the rehearsal today i received an sms that made me so happy. and i got cards from ruolin and annong!

famous amos cookies for everyone! omg i even had to feed amanda and zhaohan just because they didn't want to get oily fingers. surprise surprise, weicheng was outside when he reached the singapore conference hall (ugly building façade in the CBD area). eh so nice i got chocolates for helping him get the ticket to watch the syf.

listened to acs play respighi just before us. then we were on. the actual playing was, on my terms, bad. elegy threw me off-guard when something was very wrong somewhere in the counting in the first few bars. and then i really couldn't play verdi properly. on both times, i never got the quavers at figure D. i could even hear myself playing out of time and that was bad. but eight minutes just passed so quickly and we were out.

omg i felt quite shitty for a while.

as shufang said, syf is like a gathering party for musicians, because you can always get to see all the long-time-no-see friends in the musical world. i saw lenard! and he liked the cookies too i guess. everyone loves famous amos. we went back in to watch the harp ensembles. omg so nice. they all looked like floating fairies.

and the long wait for the results, during which ruolin and suhui's vjc friends behind us in the hall took my cookies too. sigh.

we all held hands just before they announced our results. omg chamber got gold with honours! which was so unexpected for me. but, oh well. that's great, right? everyone kept screaming; i guess it was like that two years ago too. we took photos at the balcony, and sang the school song.

and so that was my second last day with chamber. but i'm happy i got to play again. it's also probably the last time i'm putting on the all-black attire.

went all the way back to school to meet gordon for a gp lesson. today i learnt some quotes on socialism and communism. let's see, ronald reagan said 'how do you tell a communist? one who reads marx and lenin. how do you tell an anti-communist? one who understands marx and lenin.' winston churchill said 'socialism is the philosophy of failure, the creed of ignorance, and the gospel of envy.'

the moon's so cute tonight. i'm feeling quite dazed, because it's shocking how the exact same person can make you feel both extremes of the happy-sad emotional continuum.

i think i can finally throw away that pair of shoes.

wushu

i went to buy more cookies for chamber tomorrow.

of no-nut chocolate chip cookies

this morning i bought a starbucks frappuccino from the 7-eleven in school and sat in front of my locker again to drink it. i think it was too sweet. but it was drizzling in the morning, like nothing wanted to get too happy.

sonya brought some american chocolate whee! i had the pack of cookies in my bag too, but i never ate it until the end of the day. even then, gordon took so many from me =( i like the h3 maths lecturer. she's so slim!

i know someone who went for a nose job. tsk! so 爱美.

i was standing in front of the postsecret board again, looking at the new stuff. the big red postbox kept toppling over. it simply reminded me of how we were trying to tape everything down to the floor. well, the cardboard base hasn't moved since the day we taped it down, because we placed double-sided tape under it too!

omg almost got trapped in the lift today. clara and i were using it to get to h3, and then it suddenly stopped and everyone was like 'oh crap.' the number showed '9', which was spatially impossible. then, it started moving down and opened at level 2, and we all ran out. omg i don't trust that lift anymore.

after h3 i was carrying my cookies around. gordon took train with me, but he kept eating my cookies =( to be honest, i really wish i met you today. you keep hurting me, but you don't seem to care.

dance?

來到這禮拜更加諷刺

appreciation please?

today's a nice day. my back pain's gone. there were many ripple clouds in the sky. during ms law's lesson i sent out an sms, and got back a nice reply. before chamber, i was in a classroom with suhui, dawn and ruolin. they were trying to film some 'pink panther' thing. so funny, can get ruolin to do everything unglam in front of the camera.

but sectionals was bad. once again, i couldn't hear any intonation imperfections at all. for quite some time, i felt that this is going to be the first syf for which i'm not prepared (at all). i need some trevor-training again. it gets me perfection.

there were some more new postcards on the postsecret board. just wish you saw everything i needed you to see.

i went up to my locker after chamber. finally got down to opening the big pack of famous amos cookies that i had been keeping inside for a few days now. just sat down and ate the cookies one by one while i watched the sky turn from purplish-blue to grey and then to black. i'm left with half the pack now.

it really is just cookies. what's wrong?

ms ku: are you getting used to it already?
me: i'm getting sick of it already.

i wanted to treat myself to a really expensive dinner, like sakae or din tai fong, then i decided that i wanted kfc instead. but i thought of the puke, and then i decided to starve myself, but in the end i went for breadtalk and got cheated of twenty cents.

i'm lost today. i was being surrounded by weird people on the train today. there was a man who wasn't very discrete when talking on the phone. there was also a woman who was freaking out to her friend about a lesbian. i was playing my handphone games.

you probably don't know that you've made me cry again. you probably also don't know that nowadays you're the only reason why i use a double case that so bloody heavy it almost broke my spine a few days ago. you also wouldn't know that today's a nice day.

compete

on 30th september 2006 i was introduced to websudoku, and then i stopped playing it after a while. but last night i went on again, and i couldn't solve any of the 'medium' puzzles.

this morning, ms koo's maroon car drove past me. i often wonder what a teacher would do if i suddenly just hopped onto his/her car in the middle of the road for a free ride into the school. today's sky was a clear blue, so we should have enjoyed this beautiful day.

toffa got me into the mood for cadbury boost. omg it was the first time i had it in years. and it contains 18.1g of fat =( today is also ben and jerry's free cone day. omg we were rushing to united square to get the free ice creams! the queue was so bloody long! but it moved really fast. i think we queued for less than half an hour. but there were some shameless people who got the ice creams and came back to cut the queue while still having their ice creams. bitches! *slapz* oh yes, the queue was much longer than the donut queue. maybe at raffles city there could finally be a queue long enough to rival that of donut factory's.

i had an oatmeal cookie chunk ice cream. stupid seibu copied me. if i could, i would have queued again until i had all the flavours. there were five other flavours: fudge brownie, !chunky monkey!, sweet cream, chocolate chip cookie dough and strawberry cheesecake <3 but no, had to rush back for h3 maths. if i could, i would have brought back an ice cream for you too, because you like it right?

this whole ice cream thing has reminded me of the italy trip. because my group won the intergroup competiton, so at rome, we got treated by the teachers to gelato. and because the shop was very far from where everyone was eating, so only a few of us went to get the gelatos, and we ran back to deliver them to the rest. omg so fun, the gelatos were all melting as we ran.

i'm down for napfa on monday with mr seah. sigh.

i turned on the shower with my clothes still on. so nice, it felt like standing in a rain. this is my dream:

bacon

i didn't paint this picture. but it's nice, don't you think?

today, i found the joel-look-alike again. but this one is much taller than joel, although maybe joel has grown taller.

i feel lonely when i queue by myself in the canteen. what about you? it seems, i need to be beside someone so that we could discuss what we wanted to buy, and bitch about each other's food choices.

gordon has been shouting at me today, and when i left school it began pouring. bumped into haojin at the bus stop. rushed to cmpb to return the form, and they didn't say anything, so i presume i won't get sued. however, the staff there could try to be a little more friendly.

postsecret is back up again, after a brief moment of controversy, and so is my postcard. once again, i hope you see it. we didn't talk today and i miss you, but everything will be better tomorrow, because i'm on medication that causes drowsiness.

do you know why some photographers take the nicest photos? because they take those photos with love. that's why mothers produce the best photos of their children.

happy days

this is the moon of 2nd april 2007. it was bright and glaring. on the following night, it had a much nicer yellowish glow. doesn't this photo look like a place in vietnam/cambodia? it's actually just the bus stop outside my house.
fat koalas =(
lots of mail. in the future, i'll receive many mails each day too.
elspeth and 'i love you so much but can't tell you!'
tall crane! taller than gordon and jeffrey, who are both 180cm.
it is said that every cloud has a silver lining. so, here's the proof. taken on 7th april 2007, which was a happy day. actually, i also have silver lining photos in my handphone, but i don't know how to upload them.
amongst the three of us, we ate up 20 out of 24.
so colourful! this photo is my desktop background now. however, the lotus mocha one looks a bit like poop.
tiny donut!
rainbow day! this was 9th april 2007. can you see the double rainbow? i think this was the third time i saw double rainbows. i vaguely remember that the first time i saw a double rainbow was in primary school.
geography lesson on transport problems.
slave driver! O=('.'Q)

gantry

i think i got cheated at burger king. shan't patronise them for the next 5482046 seconds. i was early for my violin lesson, and i finally showed my teacher the results slip for the atcl examination. i think i've been disappointing my teacher and myself. he says he taught ms ku too.

it's a sunny day!

滋味

my medication causes drowsiness and it's a painkiller. so, my back didn't seem to hurt today, but i felt very tired. managed to stay awake for the whole of chamber this morning, and when i got home i slept for four hours.

evening showers. still waiting for your replies.

你印在我唇边的吻 谁都不可以带走
你渗入我怀中的暖 谁可抢到手
世界就算沦陷了 这些都会是我的存在理由
灭绝我的玉身 松不开我手

你种在我眉稍的笑 谁都不可以抹走
你注入我人生的爱 誓死不放手
我有没有留住你 这些都已是我的没法偷
完全是我独有 谁也不可跟我抖

chiropractor

it was a cool morning, but i couldn't do napfa because of my back pain. xiangjun said it could be a slipped disc which would compound over time =( so i'm going to see a doctor tonight. oh the project work results came out. everyone got a B. weiyang also got silver for napfa, so we should be getting a treat soon.

left school early for the ns medical screening, which was super long. really wished there was a car to drive me to cmpb because my back was in pain. but no, no car. on the bus there i realised that i didn't check for directions to get back home. there was a pee test! omg it was so dumb because i simply had no pee for like ten minutes. the officer just look at me and tell to go piss, like what the hell la. piss doesn't come on demand, that's why there are emergencies right?

then there was a blood test. omg needles. i think gordon will die. but the person who did it for me was quite nice. there was also a pyschometric test that was so bloody long it took like forever. i got a pes B after everything, which means trouble =(

light drizzles.

omg i only just realised that i missed one station at the medical screening, which means i didn't complete it! argh have to go back again on monday since they are probably closed on weekends. omg hope i don't get sued. but it's not my fault. the officer at the psychometric test station said i 'can go already' when i came out from the room, and by that i assumed that i could go home.

today's friday the thirteenth, just like last year's open house at rjc. ben and jerry's marsha marsha marshmallow and magic brownies.

okay

my back feels so weak. it feels as though it just wants me to lie down and sleep. surprisingly, i received a very sweet sms last night. this morning i was one train later for school. it was an entirely new group of people i saw on the train. there were big candy clouds in the sky, but i didn't have time to take photos of them because i was rushing to school.

it rained over the day. i had two difficult quizzes in one day =( and there was a very bad smoky smell that kept coming from the columbarium. oh ms koo lectured for h3 maths today, and she released us so early.

i had my first chocolate bar in months, while walking alone to the mrt in the rain. so nice. i haven't gone home so early in a long time.

my bloody computer could not be switched on for three times. i had the urge to walk over and sit with you during recess.

see if it comes true

wednesdays are always so long. it's supposed to be the shortest day in the timetable, but there's always chamber. sigh, and syf is coming so soon. tired during rehearsal as usual. we ended at 6.30pm. then i had to rush to get pooh bear mailed out, so that you can receive it in time for your birthday. now, it's finally out of my cupboard. i hope you haven't moved house.

i made this entry on 13th august 2006.

nope, it didn't come true.

看不够

no it's all gloom. i got mr lee's cd today. he signed on it and left a message too (keep smiling!). i couldn't sit with the class in the canteen because of don't-we-all-know-who. and then it started raining when assembly talk started.

you look tired today. but no, we can't talk to each other anymore.

chamber sectionals was terrible. my playing is just not good enough. in fact, everything that has happened today has made me feel like i'm not good enough for anything or anyone. i'm quite tired of trying too. my hearing isn't good and i can't hear pitch difference that is smaller than a semitone.

it was a gloomy evening too. found out from ruolin that bad things happened at her sectionals too. my three postcards have already been put up for postsecret. hope you see it soon. i also wrote a new one for joel.

went to the art room to watch jeffrey make his acrylic painting. just sat and watched because i was quite tired after everything that happened in one day. and then suddenly he was done with the painting. he couldn't put the painting down; he kept staring at it because it looked so pretty and so he 看不够.

we went to the canteen to look at the postcards that have already been put up. some of them were quite scary. we were trying to guess which ones were real. i wonder if anyone found that they could relate to any of the secrets posted up.

walked to the mrt alone. i felt a bone slip when i bent over. it hurt for a while.

cry because the person who makes you happy, the person whom you like so much, cannot like you back at all. cry out loud when you're alone, but cry silently when you're beside him. no, you didn't notice me crying because you were too engrossed in your work.

(id est) X 17

i counted many 'ie's in 28 minutes today. the air-conditioner in my classroom has stopped working. it was raining in the afternoon during pe. oh yes i think i finally jumped past 220cm, but i fell backwards. the lecture for h3 moved very quickly. the rain had stopped by the time i finished h3. stayed back to do cutting for art club. omg the scissors gave me a blister. then it started raining again, and i was in the mood to make two cards for postsecret. left you a note.

我會在沿海地帶,等著潮汐更改,試著忍耐。

pot of gold

i think the trains got rescheduled, and so i was in school earlier than usual, but i saw a rainbow in the morning. i think i was lucky. there was even a reflection of the rainbow. the rainbow in the dark clouds was juxtaposed against the bright skies over ri. yes no assembly for rjc because there was a shower of joy.

amanda was practising verdi and i could hear it from a few levels up the stairs. brought her to see the rainbow, and she started playing la vie en rose.

lessons weren't nice, except mr lee's and ms koo's. *cough*gp*cough*

my afternoon was spent doing lots of art club stuff. first we were under block B doing monsters. beejuan got almost the whole class to go down and paint monsters. i was doing up the postsecret board. then i was looking at the film editing.

jeffrey bought rice from the vegetarian stall at ri, which i heard was very nice. but he got me all the vegetables that i don't like! all the non-leafy ones =( he also got another pack for gordon, but picky gordon didn't want it. then i was going round the school with jeffrey and seibu, putting up the postsecret boxes and envelopes. omg i think the one in the canteen is super nice! and there were already posts inside after like ten minutes.

i was watching as jeffrey did water colour painting. omg i never used water colour the correct way. i've always used it like paint. sigh. the painting he made was nice, but he didn't think so. anyway, he gave me the painting!

the last pack of rice which we were saving for dinner went sour by the time we finished =( we were still putting up envelopes along the corridors on the upper levels. ok, so dinner was at s11, and jeffrey put chilli into the noodles we were sharing =( daggers! we went spinning on the wheel at the bishan playground. omg so fun. didn't spin so fast this time, so no puking.

'cocoa' is the new 'brown'. if you don't finish your rice, your wife will have pockmarked face. i remembered people's birthdays hoping that they wouldn't forget mine.

黑黑

i woke up at 1pm today, and i've got a very bad feeling about something. it's a very dense feeling inside, and it's pulling me downwards. maybe it's just the weight i gained from the donuts.

exfoliated today, and i think i've lost quite some skin weight.

it's easter sunday. even dogs are getting married!

graduation

omg this photo makes me laugh.

sapphire

omg i woke up early to get donuts again. this time it was for the two that i owed gordon. i was fourth in the queue, and i was doing my chemistry tutorial. realised that i haven't been concentrating during lectures, because it was showing through my tutorial work. so many mistakes =(

i think the 'spicy' in spicy cheese may not have been referring to the chilli kind of spicy, but the spice kind of spicy. anyway, i bought all the flavours today except strawberry white heart and peanut butter glazed. there was a nice lady behind me in the queue whom i talked to quite a lot. she was telling me about how when she was young there was dunkin donuts in singapore. i want to try it!

rushed to school to meet gordon and jeffrey who were doing filming work. omg we shared eleven donuts at one shot, although gordon didn't like many of the flavours haha. (in effect, he ate more than two donuts, so he owes me more walks to the mrt.) but jeffrey liked all the flavours. i tried the wasabi cheese, which was so omg can die la, but the other two didn't find it very pungent.

we were doing homework under the new ri block, and i was still struggling through the chemistry tutorial. it started raining =( jeffrey was emo-ing on my unwanted music scores, and gordon was trying to teach of words of the day. and we were eating donuts once in a while. then gordon was teaching jeffrey how to sing in opera-style. omg so weird.

we went to the dining hall because gordon wanted to play the piano. jeffrey was still trying to sing opera. omg so weird. the rain didn't want to stop. brought them to tiong bahru to try the shanghai restaurant opposite! eh gordon likes the tea. next time we should sneak some red meat into his food. shh! i like the 小笼包! hope jeffrey liked it too, but gordon is no red meat >.< gordon didn't know that all his life he has been consuming soap from refreshing towels at restaurants.

omg i'm so smart. jeffrey asked me for 'kyoto protocol' in chinese. i searched the whole net but was lost. then i searched wikipedia, and used wikipedia's own translation and got it immediately! it's '京都議定書'! and then i realised how cool wikipedia's translation tools are. it can translate it's own websites into languages that even read from right to left, and then the web browser also switches to a mirror image so that the scroll is on the left. omg so cool! omg, sound so bimbotic.

left behind

this photo was taken on 13th february 2007. notice the nice curved boundary that the green makes with the white in the background. it represents the hard work i put in the day before that; it took me about seven hours to do because i was doing it alone =( in this photo you see that elspeth's shirt is not tucked in properly, and you can see the chinese dance girl's hand that kinkit drew after i gave up. you can also see jeffrey on the scaffolding using the roller to whitewash the wall. at that time, we were up there thinking what the people down there were doing posing in front of the chinese dance girl. i think, it would be even more interesting if the real people were painted onto the mural, so that what you see in this photo is actually the mural itself.

諷刺

i slept for about 12 hours last night. ate a lot of 74% chocolate. i know a sweet person who likes 85% chocolate. but do we like 99% chocolate? no. pourquoi? because it's so bitter it can kill.

i did my h3 tutorials today. tutorial 2 is so much easier than tutorial 1. sigh i ate kfc for dinner. feel like puking now. i also have ben and jerry's in my freezer. but i could do with a little you.

geminian leo

i'm so very tired today. omg luckily it's good friday tomorrow. oh jeffrey got into street dance. i think he must really happy; he's gotten into everything he wanted to get into. argh h3 maths is so difficult again. don't know why, but i can't absorb what i learn at h3 maths the way i absorb things i learn at the other h2 lectures.

elspeth has really sweaty palms too.

i missed an empty train. 整理一下感情。i ate a lot for dinner. i still want to think that 22nd november is scorpio. but i read a website that says it's sagittarius. not only will you have to contend with the grand square today, but also with the moon in scorpio, and the planets are suggesting that you’ll feel quite introverted and withdrawn. communications are unfavorably aspected, which means that you’ll need to wait till tomorrow to get things off your chest!

i suppose i'm happy for you, but i miss you today and it made me sad. have a good friday. don't bother (about) me.

娜娜.奈奈

this morning the HOD of maths convinced me not to drop h3 maths. so, i've picked it up again. omg i don't like the (h2) maths lectures now. probability was so easy at the secondary school level, but now it's full of jargon. shanghui gave me back my tzigane scores. chamber practise today was so tiring. it's all 6.30pm again. tired, but everything feels like it's going to be better.

wah ruolin the auntie got A for gp. and amanda told me that shanghui got 69/70 for maths.

dinner was at thai express. i ate alone, and i think i saw gabrielle there. eating alone has its advantages too, but i can't find any now. i ate the fried rice that seibu had at city hall when mr tham treated the class. i stuffed my face like a pig; ate two donuts after the rice. at the train station, two policemen check my double case because they thought i was carrying bombs. hopefully i spread some of the mould in the case to them >.<

got plans on good friday?

路上小心

puffy eyes this morning. the classroom windows were all fogged up because for some reason the air-conditioning was on early in the morning. it was 'show and tell' for civics today. i think toffa's video was very memory-invoking. if there was a show that i kept watching when i was young, it must have been 'duck tales'.

it was raining. got back gp results. omg i got a D again. i think, if anything at all, i'm going to fail gp at the 'A' levels =( school is getting tiring. however, attending an h3 maths lecture knowing that i didn't have to take the paper anymore is quite relaxing. i'm no longer having to stress over trying to prove anything by mathematical induction or by contradiction.

stupid seibu made jeffrey and i sit down to stamp on all of her concert tickets. but it was quite fun, we set up an assembly chain which moved quite fast. we finished within five minutes. the funniest thing was that jeffrey was whining for sweaty palms because his fingers couldn't pick up the tickets fast enough. he used mine >.<

i think gordon managed to piss mr chia off in the future today, if it makes any sense to you. well, seibu, gordon and jeffrey understood it.

i cleaned the classroom again. fans, tables, chairs and white board. must do the walls next time. cleaned till like eight plus, and jeffrey was still in the art room doing his t-shirt printing. now i know why he didn't want to make an extra one for me; because they make sense only if they exist as a pair, and only as the pair he made. and now i know why he took so long to make them. i helped to clean up the art room. well, maybe i could work as a school cleaner in the future.

but anyway, he was going to give me chocolates. we were eating his cadbury chocolates on the way to s11. omg the moon tonight was nicer than last night's. it was, as i said, the soft-toned one with a yellowish glow! but i had no camera on me =(

we had chicken rice for dinner. omg so fattening la it was how late. but i had fun because we were playing with chopsticks to compete who could pick up the smallest spring onion slices haha. and then he was telling me about why he preferred vegetables over meat. never really thought about it the way he explained. ok, i shall try to go veggies next time.

i saw raywen at the bus stop at j8 on my way back. oh no, he may not be moving over to tiong bahru after all =( by the time i reached home, the moon was blaring white again. it seems that i'm simply not fated to take a photo of the moon when it looks nicer. another of my sister's hamsters (finally) died.

still, 路上小心.

photo essay (to 150110)

some photos from everywhere.

抱拥

this is a translation from seibu's blog. mummy once said that good-looking boys cannot be trusted; there's no such thing as a kind-hearted and good-looking boy in this world anymore. so, i must have met an angel. but angels cannot understand our kind of love. chocolates and donuts make up their overly-sweet world. it doesn't matter who bought them or how much they cost, because they cannot see beyond chocolates and donuts; they simply do not see any intention. they are unable to detect any form of love that is hidden in intentions.

i got 68/70 for maths, but that never seems enough. but nowadays, nothing i do seems to be good enough for myself or anyone.

i was sitting at the tables under block B doing some art club work after school. there was a guy at another table (i think it's adriel's friend) and i watched as he solved a rubik's cube. that was quite cool, because i never actually got to solving one even though i was looking at the instructions on the net.

i don't know, i just felt a little emotionally tired today. the day sure started out fine, but something just happened and things changed. maybe i just tried too hard again. i went for commodity shopping with elspeth at giordano. she was trying to buy clothes for the silk screen printing. we chose a gaudy pink for gordie and white for jeffrey. it was a one for $9, four for $5 each offer.

the moon tonight was very round. but it was a glaring white colour. i like the soft yellowish ones more. bumped into mr gwee on my way home again. i was still in improper uniform again, but this time i had pocky sticks in my mouth and was unable to converse. so i was only able to wave and make some unintelligible noises and walk on. i took photos of the moon as jeffrey said i should.

strong winds and clichéd excuses.

right now i just want to be a kid again, when i understood no love. but then again, who am i kidding? 'kids' and 'lies' are derived from the same key-presses on the handphone. buy a happy meal?

i don't want to look into your eyes anymore. you can't see my feelings for you anyway. or rather, i will continue to try to look into your eyes until one day you suddenly realise that i've been looking at you the very same way we first met.

donuts make me happy. you?

今晚的月色好美。

stuck

i watched nana last night. omg so touching. i slept a lot today and made up for the sleep deficit of the past week. yay. now, i would very much like to buy a happy meal from mcdonald's.