nidl

i think butterflies are red-green colourblind, but they are able to distinguish colours in the blue to ultraviolet part of the light spectrum. would you believe that humans are born colourblind? 1 out of 40 000 babies never develops cones, so they never see any other colour but black and white. i think it's sad to see nothing but black and white, and equally sad to be able to see all the colours but not see the truth. but then again, maybe it's just another case of one-or-the-other.

gloaming

i've got three tests next week, but there's holiday on monday. and we shouldn't labour on labour day. oh yes and there's project work to be done! little children count to ten. can you count to infinity? i watched hotel rwanda today and cried.

有情人终成眷属

microcosm

today's tag-cutting cip was some bomb! ok first we had breakfast at mcdonald's, then we were lost for super long and then we went super late. the place was really like some sweatshop! it was very hot and very claustrophobic. i teamed with jia en and siuchu. we practised division of labour (revise geography!) and slogged and slogged. somehow our production rate was quite slow compared to weiyang's team, but eventually we knew why they were faster tsk. there was pizza for lunch.

then the final lap was to clear the entire of the biggest crate. haha so clara, yiyan and weiyang came to join us. we divided the labour so nicely and effectively, and it looked even more like a sweatshop. i was passing the clothes out with yiyan, then clara and weiyang were cutting the tags, and siuchu (the sweatshop auntie) and jia en were folding the clothes. we were working at our fastest rate, not drinking water (and going to toilet) and the supervisor still hinted to us to do faster!!! and he implied that jia en and siuchu were redundant to the production process because we didn't need to fold the clothes so nicely! so sweatshop-py!

i was at phoenix hotel for dinner. had the buffet and i really feel like the buffet now. i thought i saw joel when i was on the car back.

kaleidoscope

i'm scared of balls.

seaside

you're not waiting?

spastic

go ahead and laugh. chemistry spa is over, and this crazy week is over! but, next week there's geography test, maths test and physics test! and next next week there's gp comprehension test! i ate like a pig today. i had laksa again. i don't really care about the fats now. because you don't care either.

i'm looking for it too...

harridan

i saw you in the canteen today. you were with shaun again and therefore i gather that he's bad. you see, if i learn to love, then theoretically it is assumed that i've also learnt to hate, for where is love without hate? where is bliss without despair?

project work is going nowhere sigh. nadz and yiyan weren't here tsk. stephanie said something that was quite true. she told me that by trying to give you pooh i was merely letting you have another chance to laugh at me.

i didn't stay for hot chick. i thought it would be sad to go alone. went to mac's with weiyang, beejuan and aminah. on the way, the driver of vehicle SDT77A was behaving rudely. he sounded his horn at us for nothing, and still had to cheek to shout at us, but not as though we could make out the rubbish he was saying anyway.

i hope you're happy.

cello

'when change is applied to a system at equilibrium, the equilibrium shifts to counteract the change.'

le châtelier's principle. simple in concept. so common sens-ical it's amazing no one discovered it before him. doesn't it all make sense now? some things are meant to be messed up, and if you so choose to organise them, one way or another they will jumble up again. just like you and me.

why didn't i see it before?

bitchy

i really love geography. we walked to the canteen from the side staircase and there you were again. i don't know why i just keep seeing you everywhere no matter how much i complain about how big the college is.

something nice happened today. russell actually said 'hi'. perhaps that was a mere reflex upon seeing someone familiar. maybe he didn't intend to be nice, but maybe not everyone who knows you is a bad person.

i saw you at your chinese class again, and i really hate it. i hope you just die tomorrow. you should go to hell for whatever you've done to me. like, really hell, so that the devil can torture you. i will curse you until the day you die. so you must live as happily as you can.

kar mun and michelle say i'm really bitchy. oh well.

equilibria

dumb

furry animals was so boring. i saw you walk past the staircase, and you just walked on. i felt so lonely. went to gym after pe again. i couldn't taste the sweetness of sugar. some people in the canteen like to play the staring game, so i'll stare back from now on. and i dare anyone to continue staring at me for five seconds after i've started to stare at them.

what hurts the most is being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away. God places unlovely people in our midst so that we can love them.

it's been a week since your birthday, and pooh has been sitting in my cupboard ever since.

wrong

paul lost his voice. gp essay test was crappy. and i saw you hiding behind shaun. have we reached such a stage where you don't even want to see me? i felt so crappy after walking past your class.

i can't force myself to hate you, so i cried again. i had stupid physics olympiad training. and i hated it because i couldn't do integration. i even gave jia yun my notes. the weather was freaky and i took jia yun's car back.

i don't know how to hate, and i haven't had dinner.

leftovers

something must be wrong, because i was jealous.

i was taking the taxi this morning to kallang indoor stadium. i realised that i had grown to like the singapore skyline. are you talkative because people don't listen to you? do you bully people because you feel vulnerable?

the church function was quite a success, although the sermon was super long. shanghui fell asleep haha. there was the holy communion. we got the pay. and so boon hua is my sister's kindergarten friend. a group of us were walking to the kfc, and it started raining. argh it was such a sissy rain that went off and on. and the raindrops were so heavy they hurt when they hit your head.

crazy? i was crazy once.

chunky monkey

it was chamber elections this morning. the lecture theatre was so super cold. yanci was shameless and i didn't vote him. syo rehearsal was on gadfly suite. it was nice! went to jon lim's house later to kill time, and managed to get chocolate from him yay. rehearsal for the presbyterian thing was at kallang indoor stadium. there was like some long queue for food, then i helped shanghui take because he was on the phone, then he was still so bad to me =( jinghui also kept bullying me. oh yes shanghui is a rice bucket and is very cretinously cute when he is hungry.

i don't feel anything for you anymore, and i'm sitting here eating chunky monkey by ben and jerry's.

six

today's 2.4km was some bomb. i completed six rounds in 12:01. and that's a pass! it's a c grade! oh but i was so dead after that i almost fell asleep during chemistry practical. i saw you walk past my classroom during physics tutorial.

watched alfred hitchcock's movie 'rope'. the lecture theatre was so big but only a few people were there watching. the murderer in the movie was quite sick. i just don't understand some people.

went to sakae with jia en, beejuan and siuchu. we went for the buffet and ate soooo much. oh my goodness it was really a lot. we took like 16+2+4 colour plates and 4 udons. oh but the udon really sucks. i think we managed to exceed the $13.90++ with the food we ate. yay i felt so much better after eating a lot of gyozas, tofus and tako yakis. and the soft-shell crab makis and unagis!

i think i've put back what i burnt during the 2.4km run. and i'm sitting here staring at pooh still wrapped in the yellow paper.

oddball°

i think it's over because i don't feel anything anymore. chemistry lecture was fun, and shanghui's always with liben. mr sze's the new lecturer for physics! yay no more spirits! physics mock spa was quite simple. project work groups were announced. i'm in the same group with as stephanie, yiyan, siuchu and nadz. i see disappointment.

took this out of beejuan's book:
he's got hands so long and white and dainty, i think they carved each other out of soap, and sometimes they get loose and glide around in front of him free as two white birds until he notices them and traps them between his kness; it bothers him to have pretty hands.

still friends?

surprisingly, i didn't feel anything last night. i thought that something must have been wrong. theoretically, i should have been crying and crying the whole night, but i didn't. i simply didn't. siuchu told me that when that happens, there are two possibilities. one is that i didn't love you from the beginning. the other is that the pain has been etched too deeply.

beejuan met ms law today. i had laksa for lunch, and beejuan was super sour-grape about it. chamber rehearsal was so draining as usual. daniel's a meanie. had dinner at beppu with mummy and sister. bought my grey contacts, and two tubs of ben and jerry's!

it's like the ash and dust that settles after an eruption.

kthnxbye

how apt it was last night, that i was to read 'birth of isaac' in genesis on your birthday. today was the day. i was prepared for whatever reaction you had, but everything simply fell apart. it took me so much to walk up to you, and you avoided me. i pulled your hand, but you swung my hand away, saying 'get away from me!' that was all you said, before you ran away.

it hurt a lot, because i let go. plan b would have worked so much better. so, today's the second day i'm bringing pooh back home. i failed my standing broad jump, and thereby failing napfa too. i was happy to have a new toy. (not talking about the stikfas, but the pooh bear.)

speaking of stikfas, i spent some time with beejuan playing with your stikfas toys, and waiting for the rain to stop. i don't think you would care whether i have an umbrella in the rain right? i saw you again at the amphitheatre. and i let go. stop ignoring me please.

flip flop, i need time.

maze

i was walking with kenneth to school. we saw a cat sitting quietly on the pavement. there was a boy talking to that cat, but kenneth wouldn't believe me. he said there wasn't any boy standing there.

geography lecture test was crappy.

today has been a tiring day. and ms hor is right - h1 biology is held at a really unearthly hour.

tomorrow's the day i'll (probably) make my choice.

stutter utter

omg today was such a bad day. the rain was so bloody heavy, and i still had to go for the church rehearsal. then then then... i got splashed by a car when it drove past me! then then then... my hand got squashed by a door when i went to the toilet and it hurts now! but but but... shanghui sat beside me today! but but but... he was sooo bad! @#$@! then then then... there was not much food left during the break by the time we reached the table. but but but... never mind, i wasn't hungry. then then then... tiapyang, jon lim and shanghui all bully me together, make me feel so dumb. so bad! then then then... i had to go home alone.

i still have to study for tomorrow's geography lecture test. and and and... i miss you.

easter

it's the eggy festival again. it's when you get to eat chocolate eggs by cadbury. i'm sad to say that my pimple has swollen to epic proportions and therefore i shall hide at home. but there's rehearsal tonight at the church.

i was up till quite late last night, thinking about what i really wanted from you. to be honest, i don't know. at this point in time, i really don't know. perhaps it's not so much 'because of this point in time' - it's more of 'because after so long'. maybe i don't want you to love me after all. maybe it's just that i really love you. i was presented with two choices last night. it was almost like those 'would you rather...' games that people play. i haven't made my choice yet.

angels and demons, God and the devil. do they exist? God knows, i have my demons.

i've got a geography lecture test tomorrow.

glamorous

this post is dedicated to glamour queens jia en, beejuan and siuchu!

siuchu looking very v!

let me think, i think i don't miss you.

this photo is a bit imbalanced.

jia en, siuchu and beejuan.

unglam jia en!

unglam siuchu!

i feel so tall!

oh my mama this is really funny!

she's lovin' it.

they're lovin' it.

and i'm lovin' it too.

oh look, same height!

i didn't take this photo, siuchu did. i must qualify that this does not accurately reflect who i love. it is merely a bus stop advertisement.

another vignette

more photos to tantalise your art farty taste buds. i think the painting on the left is a bit moody, and possibly even mouldy. the painting on top is quite a bloody trilogy.







this may be an awfully clichéd pose, but heck. my toes are really long like my fingers are!





can you imagine the girl in the poster behind blinking when the camera flashes? i think jia en will scream!



this looks techno. you know, there's something i've never understood. when we read about two parties fighting, we can tell which party is good and which is bad. but for the bad party, do they themselves know that they are bad?

a vignette

photos from yesterday!

glowy glowy thing at marina square.

i caught a star on camera!

my hand's bigger than ronald's.

completely inelastic collisions on a ballistic pendulum.

starry, starry spikes.

afraid of the crowds?

arty farty works of arty fart!

flower power!

i'm facing some freak weather here at tiong bahru. i think it's global warming. it's forcing the atmosphere to regulate the temperature more often now. maybe we could even get bigbigbigbigbig storms in singapore.

chain

it wasn't a botched attempt down the aisle.

this glass shoe costs $590. and i'm not even sure about whether it comes as a pair.

regenerate

yay i've finally finished the sweets that beejuan gave me for valentines' day. there was some big downpour this afternoon. it was almost like some monsoon season raining cats and dogs and cows and sheep. today, i went out with beejuan, siuchu and jia en. we walked around esplanade because we were feeling arty farty.

i tried the banana dipped in chocolate topped with almond thing from chocz. we also looked at the arty farty furniture designs at the jendela. those were really some arty farty stuff man. we went up to the roof terrace and both jia en and siuchu did some really unglam shots. took many many photos.

jia en taught us jia yun's crazay thing. it goes, 'crazy? i was crazy once. they sent me to a home. i died there. then, the worms came. worms? i hate worms. they drive me crazy. crazy? i was crazy once. they sent me to a home. i died there. then, the worms came. worms? i hate worms. they drive me crazy. crazy? i was crazy once. they sent me to a home. i died there. then, the worms came. worms? i hate worms. they drive me crazy. crazy? i was crazy once. they sent me to a home. i died there. then, the worms came. worms? i hate worms. they drive me crazy. crazy? i was crazy once. they sent me to a home. i died there. then, the worms came. worms? i hate worms. they drive me crazy.' and so on.

jia en also had funny riddles. when is a door not a door? when it is ajar! when is a car not a car? when it turns into a parking lot! oh my goodness it's so funny!

we walked around esplanade's eating places and found the arty farty makansutra glutton's alley. but, we chose to go marina square for dinner. wanted sakae sushi at first, but later we went to changing appetites under siuchu's recommendation. hmm it was quite nice just that it was quite expensive and the strawberry oreo cheesecake was so nice but small =( we played siuchu and beejuan's 'guess the story' game.

scenario 1: a man was driving a car and listening to his radio. suddenly there was a click on the radio and the transmission stopped. then he stopped the car and got off. he shot himself. what happened?!

scenario 2: two men walked into a restaurant and ordered meatballs. one man bit into the meatball, immediately ran out of the restaurant and killed himself. what happened?!

haha the stories were so oh my eew. oh yes and then we were talking about physics. you see, tensional force is like facing examination stress. compressional forces is when someone crushes (on) you. friction is when your body brushes against the other's in close contact! magnetic attraction is when you two people fall in love at first sight. magnetic repulsion is when you see ********. electric force is when someone shocks you with some static. gravity is when you are standing beside someone of planetary mass. upthrust is when you are thrown into the sky. viscous forces is when the atmosphere forces you back down.

we walked back to esplanade after dinner. the sky was quite dark, but the lights were on, and they were so nice. we went to the roof terrace to take some night photos. the place was full of snogging couples! more importantly, we were devising plan after plan for the delivery of your present.

it was time to go home. siuchu made me go with her all the way to braddell!!! so bad =( we saw some ufos while waiting for her 851 bus. argh i burst the pimple on my back. in the end, i think siuchu delayed me by like one hour!! finally got onto my 851 after being half-eaten by the mosquitoes at the braddell bus stop.

today has been an arty farty day. i like to stand on someone's left and therefore i like to be protected. today's a good friday.

new acronyms:
omy (oh my yuck)
ome (oh my eew)
omc (oh my crap)

downpour

it's been raining, raining in my heart.

where's my umbrella?

eew

this is a photo of the view out of my window. it's a blue sky over tiong bahru. it's where i sit beside everyday and look out, hoping to find you somewhere.
i was in the canteen bingeing again. then glen was there. his eel was very small. don't think sick, i was referring to the unagi he bought. but, glen was sick! was late for syo (again) because i missed the bloody 156 and the next one took like twenty minutes. surprise surprise, i saw alex training for hockey at ccab. rachel was back. rehearsal was quite fun, although i don't really know what was so fun about it. talked to alex, boyle and mun hay during my break and after my rehearsal.

the moon tonight is so nice. perfectly round, albeit small. it had a misty glow around it, and it reminded me of the last sms joel sent.

i think i saw mdm yang cai mei on the train home.

blood on the moon

i'm sitting here in the library alone. it's so quiet. jeremy and his friends are at the far end of the library. i think they're gossiping.

i didn't bump into you this morning. it seems that when i don't expect to see you, you would turn up. and when i desperately want to see you, you're nowhere to be found. i sat at the assembly area. assembly was cancelled 'due to the overcast sky'. actually, the sky was very blue, and there were beautiful clouds, just that some ominous dark ones approached from behind. black met white, the way complete opposites attract. but black won.

it rained during chemistry lecture. the weather was nice after that. because it was not too hot and not too cold. and there was a light breeze throughout the school.

i'm right here, but you can't/don't see me.

turtle + ratty

i think the water polo team didn't win =( i'm so physically, emotionally, mentally tired again. joel ong, where are you? you haven't been online for such a long time and you've probably forgotten me already. you, meanie who left for america and never came back, i miss you a lot.

i was standing alone in a crowd today. and the pressure was overwhelming. i'm lost in this big, big world and i just need a teddy bear to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be ok. it's going to take another few more years to forget you.

sometimes i would see you beside me, and you would hold out your hand. i would take it, and you would lead me out of this human jungle. we would go to a quiet place and watch the sun set. we would sleep together and wake up early next morning to watch the sun rise. sometimes i would wake up from that dream and realise you're not really by my side. i would cry. and i would pray that you are happy.

let's see if i'll bump into you tomorrow.

consume

mozart requiem really sucks. jinyong manhandled me today. it hurts now.

the train i was on this morning broke down temporarily. there was a burning smell. i think we're really fated to keep meeting each other. when i reached school, i went to the music room to put my instrument down. i was delayed when i had to take out my magazine from my case. then, i went to the toilet to use the fan to cool down. i waited for the lift for a while, and subsequently lingered at the amphitheatre for a while. and yet, regardless of how much time delay there was between my reaching school and going to the og table in the canteen, i still bumped into you at the canteen entrance. just like yesterday, i was walking behind you. at the exact same place as yesterday. not forgetting that the train broke down, it seems that heaven was simply stalling for time so that i could meet you again.

the burning smell was ozone, not the emily rose thing.

plead

the mushrooms under the bougainvillea plants are almost gone. jia en brought roses from her baptism for us. mine was the yellow rose with a funny smell that just got better the more i sniffed at it. i saw you the moment i reached the canteen this morning. it must have been fate, because if i didn't talk to jia en at the amphitheatre first, i would have gone to the canteen earlier, and i wouldn't have seen you.

my shoe @ my space has reached its 400th entry.

the rose wilted over the day. i scored one at floorball during pe. time to celebrate! shanghui was sick =( kelly broke the stalk of my rose, but jia en saved it! i've seen the smoker again. sigh. you better not be a smoker, because i'd really hate you forever.

i think paul's tired of me. who isn't? i spent like two hours in the library aimlessly doing the tutorial on differentiation. did u pick up the rose i left in the library for you?

i took a lonely ride back home. just don't seem to fit in anywhere.

roses have thorns, and i hope they pricked you when you picked it up.

sospiri

i'm feeling groggy from sleeping too much. i've got gp project to do and 3 lectures to catch up on. rushed rushed rushed. desperate housewives! the second-best thing that can happen is to spend 45 minutes in the bathroom and exfoliating. the best thing that can happen is that you tell me that i haven't waited in vain.

it's quite aimless/mindless/useless, isn't it?

sepia

bbq at jia en's house was so fun. i ate more than i cooked, but never mind. who cares about napfa on tuesday? my chocolate-marshmallow-banana was so nice. the beef ws absolutely delicious. there was a halo around the half-moon. we kept telling each other ghost stories which were so freaky. jia yun had a funny answer to the papalapapa riddle. singapore has no nightlife.

for where your treasure is, there your heart will be.

matthew 6:21

perspectives

i've sinned a lot. i'm mean a lot. i haven't gone to church for a long time. i went today and cried during worship, because i'm going to forget you. eelin brought us to olio dome and treated us! the tiramisu was soo nice! jityew says i'm getting big, which is a good thing but i don't like =(

yesterday one of the teachers (i think it's mrs perry) asked me whether i had gone for the finger prick. i said it hurt a little, and she said, "well think of it this way: it probably doesn't hurt as much as having leukaemia."

loquacious

you bossy pig.

love me, love me not

no, i'm not plucking the petals of the dying flower that jia en and beejuan gave.

i took a taxi ride to school this morning. the uncle drove through orchard. thought there would be a jam along steven's road, but it was a saturday so it was quite empty. i expect the city is quiet at certain times. it has to be - how can anyone live in so much noise and dust?

i cut my hair last night so today it looked dumbdumb, but then i got pass the hair/attire check and made it to the stage for the opening ceremony. i think we played well, and regardless of how much i disliked 'auspicium melioris aevi', i couldn't help but love it when we performed it.

jia en smsed me saying that you were in the audience at the tentage, and i did see you. i think heaven's playing me again and again. i mean, with majority of the school in the lecture theatres watching the live feed, what are the chances of you being in the tentage? and, amongst so many other guests from the public, what are the chances of you being so visible to me? i choose to believe in fate.

your classmate probably deliberately made you walk pass the physics laboratory. you were so clearly at the back of the tentage that your route of exit should have been the foyer. and yet you walked past when i came out of the laboratory. what are the chances of that? jia en and siuchu are so friendly with your classmate.

i registered for the bone marrow donation. it was quite painful when the lady squeezed and squeezed for the blood to come out. went for the art exhibition and saw beejuan's work. omg 10% of it is so mine lah.

didn't eat much for lunch. rushed like crazy to syo rehearsal due to unforseen circumstances. today's rehearsal was really short because there was the annual general meeting. much of it was spent playing the games and rachmaninov's second piano concerto is in c minor!!!

there was free dinner after the games. omg the laksa was so hot. i still finished it yay. justin ong violated me many times on the bus back to the mrt, but i'm still v!

i'm a bit claustrophobic in the lifts.

artsy

fatigue has basically caught up with me. i overslept on my train and missed my stop at bishan. i woke up and saw the light, and realised it was actually ang mo kio.

rehearsal again today. at least it didn't rain. teachers were trying to make me to cut my hair and change my spectacles. opening ceremony isn't making me feel more like a rafflesian. instead, it's making me feel bullied. i fail to understand my purpose in chamber, and even in rjc.

i saw you under block A today. can you please outrightly dislike me, because your indifference and neglect is hurting me more than ever?

went for lunch with siumin, amanda and dawn at pastamania. gossips shh. walked back with jinyong they all. jinyong ran across the road to me with his arms open. yay that's so romantic, but if only it was you.

paul's still neglecting me. but then again, like he said, his world doesn't revolve around me. instead, everyone revolves around him. i took the train with ben lim.

hit my bed the moment i reached home and slept till 10pm. i've been reading all the sweet emails that the chamber people have been sending out. sadly, i don't feel the love at all. maybe it's just that i've become unreceptive to any expression of amore. i can't feel the love no more.

i've neglected the flower that beejuan and jia en gave. the fragrance is gone and it's losing its pink. the stalk's turning brown =(

i'm tired. i need water. i need my dinner. and i need you.

it's a different kind of loneliness.

contemporary

ma chaussure @ mon espace,
it's french.

parlez-vous français?

manipulate

i was walking to school from j8 today. the bougainvillea plants along the pavement had wild mushrooms growing amongst them. hope the mushrooms would be antagonistic towards the flowers.

went straight to the tentage for the opening ceremony's rehearsal. sigh going to miss classes. jinyong made me take chairs =( in the end i took one only. and he used the bloody lift to go from level1 to level1m (and even sat on the chair in the lift). but never mind i did the same too. well done, the stage didn't have the fans and it became some oven. it'll be quite a miracle if you can see me (a)live on stage on saturday.

we had a short break (yay!) during which i saw davidson and had teh peng. i'm so nice i gave my ice to shanghui. i only have ice for him, you see. then i saw tamie and i complained and complained about the rehearsal. but hey, jia en, beejuan and siuchu came to support during the subsequent rehearsal.

then there was another two-hour break. haha i went for physics practical... see i'm so hardworking ok. but i forgot to bring down my stationery from the stage... so pissing. the practical was quite simple. and my results were very nice, with a very clear anomaly. yes i see myself being a physics pro someday. i had cookies(!!!) and soyabean milk for lunch.

back to rehearsal, and we were going to do a run of the items in sequence. glen is some racist! but but but, we waited so long for the items in front until the bloody rain came and i was scared of the thunder. i was so tired by then. the weather really sucks. first the heat, then the rain. my viola is like so gone lah. in the end, i had to leave it open in the air-conditioned music room to dry. oh yes i took the lift up, and the people pushing the stand carts were in there too. haha i suddenly became claustrophobic so i screamed many many times.

was going back to the mrt with mui kee and june, then they decided to go back to music room to put down their violins because it was raining. had to wait for them so i decided to call jinyong a mugger because he was reading maths notes at the tables under block B. then later the bloody weather tried to play us again. it stopped raining, then they decided they wanted to go back up to bring down their violins. so i went to bug jinyong again.

ok i was so stressed! by the end of the day i was tired, hungry and i needed my beauty bath. oh my goodness i was in school like 8-5.30 doing nothing but rehearsing for 7.5 hours. that's almost some 9-5 working day minus the salary.

i missed you today. i don't see you anywhere anymore, but i keep seeing your classmate.

children will forget unhappiness easily, because children will listen. but children are children.

bayonet

we went to the gym for pe. my hands were like in complete shock. chemistry practical was damn bomb. the mock spa was so unfamiliar in process and concept. i couldn't stuff the rubber bung into the flask, so i had to ask mr gwee to help me, and in the end i couldn't pluck it out. oh wow mr sze wasn't here today, so no physics! i was so tired during maths.

i know already. you will be at the last classroom on level 7 every friday when i'm having physics and maths tutorial.

i'm beginning to dislike chamber. i'll have to miss class tomorrow and on friday for the opening ceremony's rehearsals. and i'm so completely unimpressed with the way this has been organised. hear me roar.

everyone likes to play the 'pretend' game. the make-believe world does have its attractions. but whilst many people fantasise their happy ending, most never get them. we could do with more smiles.

after all, the most meaningful things in life are said softly.

maestro john farrer

cat

the school is being repainted this entire week in preparation of the opening ceremony. i'm not pleased with chamber's arrangements for letting us miss classes. not pleased at all. did five stations for pe. oh wow i can actually pass pull-ups with just one. but i'm 6cm away from passing standing broad jump. the sky was gloomy again. amanda was so stonily scary today. i stood on the seventh floor and looked out into the rain. wong li was playing uno stacko with his friends. council interview results were out. paul got in, and he was neglecting me today.

i didn't get to see you today.

under the love spell

beejuan's hocker friend rachel had a mean practical joke. but i didn't do it. i've finally found 'global shift' and i'm so not lending it to anyone else. i saw you today and everyone was staring. i ran away again. you were a complete fucker. i've got a new biology lecturer.

i was walking beside you today. we were walking down the stairs from the library together, and we were holding hands. you stopped us at level 1M, told me you loved me and hugged me. we continued walking down to level 1 and you brought me to raffles 6 for my biology class. then you were gone.

shanghui pushed me today. he was training for cross country.

today is the second time i had an oreo crush in two days. i've got gp debate tomorrow.

9"

whee i had ikea for dinner yesterday. spent my afternoon at siu chu's place doing geography project.

i'm in this 125th presbyterian anniversary thing. walked to jubilee presbyterian church for the rehearsal. jonathan was mugging maths trigo! yay and i got to practice some trigonometry too. if A, B and C are angles in a triangle, prove that tanA + tanB + tanC = tanAtanBtanC. ike explained what ezra is about.

a hamster died.

apartheid

if i had a million,
i would buy a house.
but do i have a million?
no.
so i don't have a house.

if i had a pair of wings,
i would fly to and watch over you.
but can i grow wings?
no.
so i can't be your guardian angel.

if i had courage,
i would hug you the next time i see you.
but do i have that courage?
no.
so i can't feel your warmth.

if i poured out an entire ocean,
i wouldn't be able to put out my flames of passion for you.
but can an ocean be emptied of water?
no.
so i don't love you.

euphemism

i woke up with a flu. i got it from either syo or my viola.

i'm like rushing the gp project and debate now.

i imagined you beside me today.

you've won again.