jetsam

last night i played the hard puzzles on websudoku.com and really solved one of them by myself, although i took 14:17. websudoku.com says 70% are faster. but this is the first time i completed it, and i must tell shanghui!

i did a lot of the maths revision worksheet; finished summation and mathematical induction, vectors, complex numbers, and permutations and combinations.

and i missed you, but it's been only two days. i love you too.

minami - piano piece of sena

i need a 長假 too.

孫燕姿

i ate at the shanghai restaurant again, and went to school to return a book to jeffrey before he returned to malaysia. then i spotted teckming and anna in an air-conditioned classroom, so i did maths there.



true, i didn't lose much this time. but i don't know if you would even get to the heart-shaped cookies. they probably wouldn't be nicer than betty crocker's or famous amos, but they have my love.

i just need to say

我遇見你是最美麗的意外。

leftovers

this morning i ate the cookies i made two days ago. they still taste really nice.

小天使

had the super long psychometric assessment thing in the afternoon. but the patterns test was quite fun, except that i couldn't do a few at the back. and then the hall was so freaking cold. i didn't complete the maths test, back shanghui was left with only one question! they gave us a brownie for break time.

waited under the new ri block for jeffrey to pass me the violin. it started raining. and then i gave him the super nice cookies i baked yesterday. we were talking about lots of things, like how his brother's name was supposed to be 'jerry' but became 'jason' instead. then jeffrey was throwing some pebbles. i tried, but i couldn't catch it back each time. oh no very poor psychomotor =( then he taught me to throw it straight up, and i really caught it back! he tried juggling the pebbles, and they almost dropped on me.

on the way to s11 for dinner, jeffrey was telling me about lee kuan yew and singapore's merger and separation with malaysia. but i would probably forget by tomorrow. we shared a chicken rice like the last time. omg so economical, because students get free rice, and just have to add more meat for $1.

went for the hwa chong concert and saw genesis! ended up sitting between ruolin and shanghui; felt like some light bulb. ruolin rewarded me for that with some sunflower juice on my trousers. and she couldn't bear to do it to shanghui's t-shirt because it was too nice. or rather, because it was shanghui.

last round was super nice! but i think tchaikovsky serenade was the best, because it brought back lots of memories. i remember hearing joel first play the semitonal parts in the waltz and finale. i really like the waltz! and the last part of the elegie, with all the clashing of triplets in the bass line and semiquavers in the violins. rise played it before, and the first few times at figure C in the first movement i was always afraid of playing wrongly and getting scolded by mr sze. and then rise played it for the teri murai masterclass. we weren't supposed to play the fourth movement, but then mr murai insisted that we play it! omg it was such a screw-up.

if i could, i would fly to america now and find joel.

i walked home from victoria. i risked the tiniest chance, and lost. today is about chances and hope. hope is an underrated thing. there is nothing after death, after finality, after the end of the dance. nothing, perhaps, except hope. hope. that is all there is to everything else.

陪我去走
自昨日盪韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
全也是你兩手 無聲卻在背後
能贏盡多少豐收
遍踏地球 難及這份愛直到永久
從前伴著盪韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
全也是你雙手 默默在我身後
能贏盡多少豐收
遍踏地球 難及在你身邊更富有

i will never bake cookies for money.

felicity

i didn't use to believe in love at first sight, but now i do.

one last try

last night i dreamt of going to a big house by the sea. a spherical cloud over the sea caught my eye, but when i went over i realised it was a pinkish balloon hanging over the sea. it had weird inscriptions on it, and it was evil. ran through the house to get out, and all the doors were translucent.

i woke up at 8, but kept falling back to sleep and waking up until 11. if i paid $20 for your prepaid card, will i get to talk to you for $20 worth of time?

today will probably be the last time i bake cookies. i will do it perfectly, completely from scratch and no betty crocker.

比賽慘

today i spent my morning at esplanade park watching the roadshow for d-act's reversathon. waited super long until the rjc street dance came on, and there was jeffrey, looking all professional and like a star.

i took lots of cloud photos today. should have taken more, but it's ok; everything's in my memory.

you shake your head.
i shake my head.
you shake your head.
i shake my head.
you shake your head.
i shake my head.
you shake your head.
it's how i try to get you to go out, and how you try to reject.

bishonen

love that lives in the heart cannot be so easily terminated by time. even though the encounter is brief, its impression shall last a lifetime. no one can change the direction of love that lives in the heart. if you have loved, that in itself is the answer.

am i supposed to feel sad that he died or happy that he was loved?

solar

i've gotten lots of sleep recharge. today we went with weiyang to botak jones again. at first only yiyan, weiyang and i were there, because the rest were so late. then we had the cheese fries, which made everyone so full that when the real food came we couldn't finish the fries anymore.

i showed weiyang the exothermic reaction between chilli sauce and ketchup! then we tried to show beejuan and genesis, but they didn't believe! and omg why does genesis remember everything about kindergarten?

weiyang brought us to bugis because he anyhow say.

jeffrey's dancing tomorrow!

6:30am

21st may 2007

22nd may 2007

25th may 2007

145-410

jeffrey's.

shanghui's.

mine. but i really don't think that the wasabi cheese is nice.

weiyang's star cookie

tom na h-iu

joel's birthday is one day after pi approximation day.

anachronism 2

hmm i think term 2 passed quite slowly because some things seem to be very far from my memory now. i survived the common tests in week 1 and started teaching jeffrey some music. and then in week 2 everyone was rushing for postsecret, and i baked for the syo violas for their concert, which i watched with jeffrey. and i taught him how to hold the violin haha. in week 3 i bought donuts, and cleaned the classroom. oh then in week 4 i queued for donuts again! and it was the rainy day which i spent with gordon and jeffrey finishing like 20 donuts at one go. then we went to the shanghai restaurant. week 4 was also art week, and i drew some nice postcards for postsecret. week 5 was syf week; gold with honours! in week 6 i finished the entire week's work on monday, and our last chemistry spa was in that week. cleaned the classroom again in week 7 (maggots!) and amanda asked me to play in dvořák. in week 8 i baked cookies for the chamber gathering at remus' house, although the peanut butter ones turned out weird. but jeffrey liked them when i gave them to him during our violin lesson =) in week 9 i went back to syo because mrs wong wanted more violas for the syf recording, which was quite fun. watched harmonica concert and stayed back to see jeffrey practise violin. and week 9 was also the piano ensemble concert. went to amanda's house and fell in love with it! survived the gp test in week 10.

pancetta

it's the last day of term 2! played some gentle handball during pe today. and then we were helping to trash some rubbish for the pe department. mr seah gave me an unwanted shuttlecock haha.

but the last day always feels so lethargic. had lunch with yiyan, beejuan and seibu at pastamania. i was so broke today because 40% of the money i took out today went to photocopying funds for h3 maths =( ate carbonara on seibu's credit, and i was reminded of a time when i shared carbonara with someone.

bumped into weiyang at the basement, and then all of us went walking around j8. saw some really cute things.

i fell asleep on the train home. and finished the last quarter of my tub of ben and jerry's.

cuticle

brought the donuts for shanghui and jeffrey. but shanghui's stupid classmates ate his double chocolates =( i did so badly for the chemistry test. had laksa for lunch. and the h3 maths test was so difficult; i did only 19 marks worth of questions, out of 35 marks. went home and slept from 6:30 to 9.

if you feel that you've taken too much from me, then love me back.

i'm watching edward scissorhands.

一路向北

don't like the gp test. the comprehension questions were quite ok, until the stupid application question. i had lunch at kfc =( my palms were not sweaty for the entire paper. but it did when we walked past at the 1M staircase; walked past without acknowledging each other.

i went to queue from 1:45 to 4:10 for donuts. there were nice clouds when i went home.

sick leave

i'm so tired today. last night i was trying to do some maths revision worksheet, and i was looking at the photocopied scores that i was using as rough paper. remembered that when i was in rise i always wrote the names on the scores before giving them out. and i always wrote some nicer than the others.

oh we found out about ms law's big secret today!

the chemistry test was fiendish. i wrote something wrongly in the first question and got stuck for a long time. never managed to do the question on apparent molecular mass =( it was raining during our chemistry test.

watched a rugby dvd during pe. sat at the stadium steps with amanda. waited till the rain stopped and then jogged for four rounds, but mr seah said it wasn't enough. h3 maths ended early. why do the clouds look so static after a rain?

why didn't you catch up today?

(o'.')=O (27/3/06)

a thought crossed my mind yesterday. do you think news publications are ever thankful for things like the virginia tech shooting because they boost readership?

yesterday i was at hotel phoenix for a buffet dinner. created my own ice cream with prata dessert. the bread and butter pudding was very nice too, like egg tarts. this morning i was still very full.

there were big cushion clouds today, but the sky over bishan was overcast. leaves were falling and they gave a false impression that the rain had already come. dvořák was playing through my head all the way from j8 to school.

omg jia en thinks that tortoises can crawl out of their shells. but it's ok; people get away with things sometimes. i got away with mr lee's economic geography mind map. only did it last night till 1am, and finished it before maths tutorial today. and then the rain came.

rushed back home early and started getting the last episode of desperate housewives. the downloading rate actually reached a high 465kb/s! but then unpleasant things happened and i went to sleep for a few hours.

i don't understand. why do i still get treated by you in this way? it's almost as if 195 days wasn't good enough for you yet. i thought everything was back to normal. i guess i thought wrong. everything's still fucking unchanged. maybe 195 was not enough. and now i regret agreeing to play in dvořák. it's probably going to be one of my best memories, but also one of my biggest mistakes. if i see you again i will push you down the staircase.

puffy eyelids. oh, rise is really going new york, and joel is really going to play with them in carnegie. now i wish dvořák would stop playing through my head.

maybe 365 will be enough this time. alright, then we'll meet again on 21st may 2008.

vibe

one of them i believe is haojin, and the other is jeffrey.

心病

sue me for slander; sue me for being slender
jargon; 扎根

happy

it's been such a musical day it amuses me too!

woke up real early to go for syo's recording of the syf piece. omg mr lim finished so quickly, like within one hour plus, and he finished the basses in fifteen minutes. i wanted to do periodicity tutorial but i only barely managed to complete half a question and the basses were done.

waited at the bus stop for 156 and then suddenly stupid shanghui was there too. that stupid idiot said mean things. and later adriel and jinghui were across the street rushing to cross the road because they were going to miss the 156 bus. but i flagged it and made the uncle wait for them.

the rain that i was counting on last night never came, and so today i felt extreme urban heat island effect. by some fated coincidence, i found the hokkaido chocolate at action city. it was the chocolate i bought in hong kong for shanghui's mum, and i couldn't find it in singapore until today.

met amanda for lunch. she said my shirt was nice for the concert. (shanghui said 'floral?!') walked in extreme heat to get to her house, which was omg such an architectural artwork! i like the way the house isn't rectangular and rigid-looking. there was a big clock on the wall that was so cool; it had no numbers, but just the hour and minute hands. and the wall had pablo picasso posters. fishy pond! and the piano room was so cool. basically, the house looks like one of those 'green' houses mr lee mentions in the urban geography notes.

we ran through dvořák once, and then played some disney songs. omg this is the life!

we missed one train so that we can get onto the same one as shanghui's. and then all of us walked from dhoby ghaut to yms. actually it didn't seem very hard to find after shanghui led the way. on the way there were many smokers, and shanghui kept avoided walking behind them. but i liked some of the cigarette smells.

didn't get to run through the entire quartet because we were late. auntie ruolin also came late. ended up doing a little periodicity tutorial. rushed out for dinner and finished eating really quickly. rehearsed the willy wonka fantasy, and found out that they were going to have a willy wonka (zhaofeng) running around.

the hokkaido chocolates kept melting because it was too hot. paul was doing some usher work i think. and then jeffrey finally came. he was so late i thought he wasn't coming. did some last minute practice with shanghui outside the auditorium for the last part of dvořák.

omg the actual performance wasn't too bad. i was playing a little sharper then usual because ruolin said i had a tendency to play flat. and shanghui said that the thing sounded quite ok! but that stupid idiot said next time i should just tune my strings sharp.

during the intermission i went down and met jeffrey. he said he liked the viola, which means i must have played quite nicely, or at least to him i did haha! but that dumb jeffrey was holding flowers and pretended that they were for me. make me happy for five seconds only. and then i was helping to take lots of photos for many people that i didn't even know. i think i took some nice photos of the quartet too. and ruolin got a really unglam shot of shanghui, although he posed for that one willingly. ruolin gave out chocolates! so did willy wonka; the candy he gave was some cool hershey's chocolate-coated and strawberry-filled marshmallow!

oh no i came in wrongly on the willy wonka fantasy. so pissing. a really nice day ruined by that stupid mistake.

met jeffrey after the concert and i showed him the studio with the double doors, and he trapped himself between the two doors haha. walked to city hall. it was drizzling slightly. i gave him the hokkaido chocolates, but he didn't really like them because they had too little chocolate. maybe someone else would have appreciated them more. we went to burger king for free water. not very cheapo; all the other shops were closed.

i am truly happy today, but i need a kitkat too!

我们来(交)往

omg weiyang took a blue slip because he 'couldn't breathe'. but sometimes i think we all get that kind of stuffy feeling.

pe was bad and scary. two injuries; one with lots of blood. i think alcohol would have calmed me down.

mount alvernia was the hospital from which joel once called me when he was hospitalised. he was too bored staying in the ward. i think we talked for hours on the phone.

it's been a day of cold air-conditioning. i got 29/35 for physics test; bet shanghui got full marks. i went to the mural and stood there for a while. the chinese dance girl is still not complete. but that way i can still see the paint strokes made by jeffrey using the roller. now when you think about it, working late to do the mural wasn't so bad. or at least others worked even later.

went home quickly, and i was really early. earliest this year i think. slept till 5pm. omg so nice!

i was reading some of my old messages, and they made me feel really happy. went to ccab for the first time in half a year because mrs wong needed violists for the syf recording. the piece sounds like some final fantasy thing. so nice.

there were pink ixoras outside ccab.

tonight, i prayed. but i'm not a toy to be used as a substitute. aren't we all waiting for that one love?

honeymoon

yay finally finished the last physics spa for my life. oh no i scored quite low for maths test. it started raining heavily during maths tutorial. and the thunder was really loud. during h3 shanghui prsented one question and he was deliberately saying 'here in this case' to imitate ms koo, which was so mean because she was sick.

oh no dvořák was bad, and my intonation was all wrong (as usual). after correcting some rhythms at the back, it suddenly sounded sweeter. i think i can't do well enough for it.

i had kfc for dinner and the evening sky was a velvety blue. slept till ten when i got home. and got force-fed with tonic soup that's supposed to make me grow taller.

paper umbrella

last night i killed a giant flying ant and it was full of yellow juice. this morning i accidentally stepped on something and felt it crack up completely. when i looked back, it was a snail, and i felt sad for like ten seconds, and then i moved on.

during mr lee's lesson we were trying very hard to watch some catherine tate videos but the download speed was too slow. but we watched an extremely cute panda video!

played respighi during lunch break with dawn, joy and ruolin. omg passacaglia was so nice. it's so tragic and painful. the chamber room wasn't open when some of us went there. and then shanghui went to the pull-up bars and i watched him do ten pull-ups. played wiren's serenade during chamber today. omg it's so cheena, and i was the only violist there.

after chamber i went to classroom to find seibu who was mugging for tomorrow's physics spa. jeffrey was practising street dance across the block again haha. went out for dinner, and when i came back i found the dried up snail that i crushed in the morning. i played passacaglia in a classroom again because dawn's scores were there. omg so nice. gleeful!

i watched my first-ever harmonica concert. the emcee was trying very hard to sex up everything she was saying, but i think it kind of backfired. just didn't work well with the audience.

met jeffrey again after the concert for a violin lesson. once again, i was reminded of how my own fingers used to be slow and recalcitrant when i started learning the instrument. haha jeffrey was making excuses that we had different finger shapes. he wanted to go to the 7-eleven at j8, but it was too late, and the inflexible security guard locked the side gate, which forced me to take a big detour back to use the main gate.

on the train home i received an sms from mrs wong, and i thought she smsed the wrong person. but she didn't. i'm going back to play for their recording.

so now, i should ask: why do you treat me this way?

palindrome

cold, rainy morning. pe lesson was so wasted again. and i had my personal encounter with dumpling girl. but i'm so tired today and after h3 i was completely falling apart, even though the lecturer ended much earlier so that people could go to some US universities admissions talk.

i missed one weight loss session. slept til 7:30pm when i got home.

when i read about the people who died in the virginia tech shooting, i felt sad. for one minute. when i read about the jewish teacher who died protecting his students, i felt sad. for two minutes.

i know we've seen the postcard, but you still treat me like dirt. or at least that's what i feel. and suddenly, everything seems as though it wasn't worth it. you're still so cold.

the dalai lama

today i received a comprehension and it was the first comprehension i ever got an A for. probably wouldn't happen again for a few months; hope it happens again during the 'A' levels. seibu's friend played some face recognition thing on the web, and it was quite funny.

are you nice to me again? everything must be worth it.

practised dvořák today. for some reason, i couldn't stop smiling. i played 'bounce' on ruolin's handphone and finally got pass the third hoop and even went on to level 2! my score was 23400 when i died. when i played it on shanghui's handphone a long time ago, i kept dying before the third hoop, and my score was always three-digit. so there, an improvement.

you don't like my face ar?

mcbothered

不必再搶

the nice smell on my violin case is wearing off. i finally got passed kreutzer study 12. the hot and stable weather gave way to some rain. there was a boy flying his remote control plane, and then i wanted to fly a kite. my only memory of flying a kite was very long ago. the kite didn't even fly into the sky; it flew into the sea. i managed to do almost the whole of the ceva tutorial!

it's mothers' day again. my sister was making another photo collage (for a guy).

waltz

amanda's piano ensemble concert will be at the young musicians' society, which is a place that holds some memories for me.

i think one of the first concerts i went to was at that place. it was a christmas thing; weicheng and joel played in it too. oh yes, the ensemble called themselves 'string toots'! at that time, i thought the name was really cute.

and once i went there with shanghui to watch a masterclass for the winners of the national piano and violin competition. we meant to watch the session in which ike played tzigane, but then due to some mix up and stupidity, we missed that one and watched the next session.

then another time i was there for my viola grade 8 examination, which was very badly done. it was also on that day that i went to buy my new viola. or was it a few days later that i went to buy?

rise also had a chamber concert there once. i played a movement from brahms' viola sonata with ruiheng, and i was trembling on stage. the long note sounded like a tremolo because my hand kept jerking. i think those in the audience who knew what was happening were laughing. then i also played in an arrangement of bach's chaconne for viola quartet.

now, i will be playing there again with amanda, ruolin and shanghui. probably for my last time.

evil

i had a dream-in-a-dream again. in the dream, i dreamt of toddlers climbing along the outside of railings on the balconies of a building. i was watching from below and then the toddlers all said something before they all jumped down and died. then i woke up from that dream to realise that everything did actually happen. and then other things which i can't remember happened, before i woke up from the whole dream.

thank goodness you were standing beside me in the dream when the toddlers jumped.

last night i was sent an sms that sent me over the moon.

pongo wongo

it's been a gloomy morning. pe today was wasted. i went to mr seah for some weight loss thing and he took my weight on this really cool machine that apparently sent an electric current through me to measure my body fat percentage. so, i'm 60.9kg and 17.5% fat.

i was doing work in the music library and listening to chopin's cello sonata by du pré. chopin's sonata reflects the general mood when trying to do electrochemistry tutorial. part of the scaffolding of the new boarding block has been taken down, and i think the new building looks quite ugly. oh man it looked nice on the drawings we were shown a few years back.

vivocity! i wanted to take a look at the vinco donuts. went with weiyang and jia en. omg weiyang bought this korean chicken thing that was so uber nice. chocolate factory has some new products that looked so tempting!

the queue at vinco was quite short, but the place didn't smell nice like donut factory. and i think the donuts at vinco were super oily, but flavours sounded quite interesting. i bought cinnamon caramel, chocolate cinnamon, chocolate delight, mighty almond, mochattio, mon cherie, sky berry, stormy peanut, smiling nutz and sa-shi-mi. their glazed donut was not as nice as donut factory's. oh yes mrs chan walked past and saw me queuing haha.

today i was at the dhoby ghaut station, the link between north-south line and north-east line. i remembered the first time i was there was the second day the north-east line opened. i think we chose not to use the travelator because it was jammed pack on that day.

auntie ho brought us to giant supermarket to do market study for the class chalet. omg took so long la. do until the sky turned dark and merlion's eyes glowed red. there was a stupid bitch who pushed me onto the train because she was afraid the door would close on her.

lost in translation

非洲难民

stupid chemistry lecture on periodicity was completed within one lecture. omg la i couldn't follow the notes. beejuan is some impossible noise-maker. she gets her energy by sucking it out of other people.

physics practical today was quite fun. did the maths test wrongly =( i had a mega ulcer, but i still bought a big bag of potato chips to eat. ceva's theorem is so irritatingly complicating to apply.

the plan to walk back together failed. you didn't seem to want to talk, but there were silver lining clouds again. they were attracting a lot of (my) attention. dinner was at the shanghai restaurant.

i'm not a klutz.

dishwasher

mr lee showed us an ultra funny 'catherine tate' video on youtube. the very much long-needed rain finally came. the weather's finally cooled down again.

i bumped into jeffrey in the library. poor j1s doing project work. he showed me this weird chute in the library that looked so cute. he was looking for 'to kill a mockingbird', but didn't know the author. i thought it was by shakespeare.

the walk to remus' house from novena was so far! omg but the house was big. i think the front porch is just about the total floor area of my house. i hope everyone liked the cookies, just that the peanut butter cookies tasted like 豆沙饼. even ms ku said i should make it during chinese new year to sell. played some asshole daidi and never made it to royalty, but i was never the asshole!

i was trying so hard to get them to play 'pomelo', but no one wanted to =( until i finally grabbed the card deck. but it was so fun. i really liked the game, and i hope everyone did too. i was 'mama lemon' again haha. then they were all playing captain's ball. it was fun to watch the game and getting excited from the sofa.

went back to school because jeffrey wanted a violin lesson. the air-conditioner in the classroom was on, and so yay. the tables were all in a mess. i think some people didn't like curved rows, so i straightened everything out.

the bottle of cookies i left aside for jeffrey kept him distracted. but surprisingly, he liked the peanut butter cookies more than the oatmeal ones. everyone at chamber liked oatmeal more. even i didn't like the peanut butter ones.

dinner was tutu kueh. i fell asleep on the train home and woke up only just in time.

dust and ashes

we talked today, so that's good. finally got the graph theory notes from shanghui. but i'm so lost when i read through them. today, i made a mad dash trying to get something i really needed. but i wasn't fated to get it.

went home on an empty train and baked cookies for chamber celebrations tomorrow. i got really hands-on with the peanut butter cookies. thanks to the sweaty palms, the cookies are really nice. no la, i used a plastic bag to roll the dough. but i think i used a wrong oil to make the cookies; they smell like cooked vegetables now.

i burnt my finger slightly when i was making stupid weiyang's star cookie. so pissing. i was so careful all the way for every single batch, and then i got burnt on the last one.

-

draco took several steps forward, and harry tensed, a defensive spell on the tip of his tongue -but to his utmost surprise, draco dropped down on one knee in front of him.

with both hands, draco carefully laid his own wand at harry's feet, and then straightened in a single, swift movement. he stood in front of harry, his eyes of silver flame burning like the sun across arctic shores; harry found himself frozen to the spot, unable to do anything but just stare, enthralled.

draco's lips parted to utter two simple words: 'i concede.'

to a better place

playing dvořák gives me very mixed feelings, but it's not so much the music that makes me feel confused. i know that everything's over and everything's ok, but some part of me just got woken up to something else instead.

when you walk alone in a group, you seem to become more aware of the things happening around you, the connections that form.

i realised that i never wrote about the virginia tech thing. i was looking at one of the websites with the photos of the 32 victims. some of them weren't any much older than me. that's quite sad, isn't it? i hoped not to live past 35.

choreography

the sun rose early today. we're approaching the summer solstice right? ie. the subtropical high is moving over us. ie. the sir is sinking. ie. the atmosphere is stable. ie. it's damn bloody hot. and it was! omg it's been such a hot day, such a stark contrast from the rain a few days ago.

hmm, yishi said that jeffrey's dance at 'vibe' was funny. i like the new classroom arrangement, but some didn't. gp essay test today. i read a school newsletter that had dawn, me, zhichao, huixing, yihui, jia en and stephanie inside.

i have dvořák later at 2:30pm.

amusing alliterations

last night i dreamt that my teeth were falling out. some of them slipped out of their sockets. maybe it was the ben and jerry's ice cream the night before. yesterday, when i was at watsons the woman behind me in the queue bought a pack of ribbed condoms. maybe her man isn't satisfying her enough. oops.

last night, i took out a score of britten's simple symphony and played with my cd recording. then, the memories came back. i think rise played this in a 2002/2003 concert, when we played our syf pieces too. i remember the first time we saw it, i was amused by the titles of the movements. i love the beauty and beast thing in the saraband, where mr sze told the violas to play on C string. and in the finale, the slap pizzicato at figure 5 always had a tendency to be played arco. i think i was sitting beside joel in that concert.

boisterous bourrée
playful pizzicato
sentimental saraband
frolicsome finale

concierto de aranjuez

this time i really tried. and i could do much of the ptolemy tutorial!

invierno porteño

oh amanda got me into the mood!

scoop on the CBD

spot your house?

i found mine already!

learning point 1.

learning point 2.

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bigger than kids central's big in the city.

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i tried the deus pill, but it didn't work. instead, it cause drowsiness and i never woke up on sundays anymore.

death of the koalas

when you assert your presence you may lose your existence.

security council

it was a very cold morning. i got a bag from sonya! so now i don't have to buy a new one; why didn't it occur to me earlier to just get an unwanted bag instead of a new one? environment tip: using second-hands or hand-me-downs can help save the environment by cutting down on demand for production!

i was at the 7-eleven store today and when i came out i bumped into jeffrey. one of the rare occasions, now that j1s are getting busier with project work (ha!). he had a little break because he finished spa early. anyway we bought a cadbury bar each because it was a two for $3 offer. omg this is my second bar in two days.

stayed back to clean the classroom. oh but before that beejuan, seibu and i were trying to find a new funky arrangement for the classroom tables. anyway, didn't get to clean until 7 because photog was using the room. something disgusting: there was a packet of leftover food and when i opened it there were freaking maggots inside.

cleaned all the tables and chairs today. i promise to clean the walls next time (even though that was the plan for a few months now)! and the air-conditioner was on all the time i was cleaning because the school management left it on haha. so there, i made good use of the resources.

jeffrey and the street dance people were on the opposite block practising. haha it was so amusing to watch the dance moves. i guess i don't need to watch 'vibe' anymore. i suppose he's working really hard for street dance, after two tries to get in. they were still practising after i was done cleaning at 8 plus.

my hip hurts now. ate the cadbury bar while walking to the mrt. so happy today; i think cleaning's therapeutic. bamboo rustles.

what was lost has been found again. what was diluting has been rekindled.

slobber

this morning i was extremely tired and lethargic even though i slept for one hour more last night, and still the prospect of physics test loomed ahead. i only got reminded of it yesterday when i met teckming at the lecture theatre where he just finished it. suhui told me she saw the first page and flipped to the second, and decided to flip back instead.

however, the test wasn't quite as hard as i expected. got lucky again? i could remember much of what was taught. in fact, the test woke me up slightly. physics mock spa woke me up completely. the bloody experiment was so confusing i kept taking the wrong readings for three tries.

it's been a day of heavy rain, loud thunder, wet staircase, fogged up windows and winter sun. i had a bar of cadbury chocolate today.

got home and slept for two hours. kept drooling in my sleep.

we haven't met in a long time and i think nothing ever meant anything to you. but thanks for all the best memories. this lack of you has changed so many things it scares me too. sometimes you will hate the thing you see in the mirror, because you know it's not you. but you wouldn't care because nothing meant anything to you.

do you believe in love? i still want to. and i need you so much.

sluts

last night i dreamt that mummy gave birth.

my hands were smooth and sweatless the entire morning; maybe for some reason i was at peace with the world. it was a rainy morning. took a bus from j8 to school.

i had laksa for lunch. so cheap, but had to queue for so long.

the painting during art club was terrible. didn't know how to mix paints and so constance did some skin tone for me. i think i've made the ugliest painting i've ever seen. and gordon tricked me into staying back so late, only to dump me when he went the other way home.

it drizzled in the evening.

had fatty butterfly pastas for dinner. hotmail threw me a hideously, hideously, hideously ugly new interface.

what is gender, really?

elephants

i did the binomial expansion revision worksheet last night, and got everything wrong on the first try. slept for a good twelve hours, and did more poisson distribution tutorial. i dreamt that i vacuumed the house.

happy labour day!

things left to do: hurricanes essay and mr lee's revision plan