bestest best friend

today was an extremely cold day. the fucking j2 is fucked up. i hate you too. nobody likes to sit beside me in the lecture theatre during maths. i think it's because i'm too smart. i saw you in the canteen, and according to stephanie, i was staring at you too much. ms ooi closed the door just as i saw you walk out of your classroom.

there aren't any koalas in singapore. it's monday, but i'm tired. i've been in a bad mood today. it was as though i was looking at myself becoming so violent, and not being able to stop. i don't know what i'm doing, but i miss you. now i need to read my lecture notes on halogenoalkanes again.

the past likes to linger.

amandine

sleep is the last thing you should deprive me of. or else, i'll become so angry you don't want to see me in that state. i sent an sms to the wrong person, and it's so super embarrassing. i had queer dreams.

toujour

i've got a haircut that i think others would like me to have. but honestly, it's not a haircut i would like myself to have. i just don't understand the concept of conformity. i need a teacher like ms koo to explain such concepts.

i've spent the past 2.5 hours doing the china case study for my human geography term paper. i'm so glad that it's done, but i haven't fulfilled the three-page requirement. i think it's because i expanded the borders of the document, so it should be fine. shanghui is irritating because every time i wanted to type 'shanghai' in my document i end up typing his name.

rings

no! you're superman and i'm spiderman!

dramafeste 2

i wore my sunday best on a saturday. i would like to thank God for keeping the rain back while i was on my way to syo. syo rehearsal today was so nice. i love glazunov (again). there were two adults arguing at the door out of the ccab building. the problem wasn't that they were arguing. they were blocking my way. so childish, they even wanted to fight.

today was dramafeste at ri for morrison, bayley and results. dumbdumb boonping asked me whether i was going to him buy flowers, so i couldn't buy it anymore. i bought him food yay!

it's been a long time since i went back to ri, even though i'm next door every weekday. i think the writing tablets in ri's lecture theatres are nicer than those in rjc. they're bigger. i got a 'raffles players' stamp on my hand now. can't wash it off.

morrison's play was about what's at the end of a rainbow. it was so funny at some parts. boonping's play was about a poor boy that i almost cried for. i thought i wouldn't cry, but i almost did. see, i'm older now. last year, wangting's play made me cry, but now i don't/won't/can't cry anymore.

there was a short intermission while the results of dramafeste were being churned out. two alumni students were hosting some very lame/sick (but funny) games. because the following are some really sick jokes, viewer discretion is advised. someone came up with a pick-up line that goes, 'are you a chicken farmer? because you sure can raise cocks.' omg! it was so funny! then walter made fun of ms low's size/shape. oops. oh and when someone talked about 'walking down memory lane', he pointed down his chest as though to say 'walking down mammary lane'. eew! have you also noticed that 'anal' and 'cock' are derived from the same key-presses on a handphone?

i'm happy to see you smiling again. i look sad? oh it's just that i'm tired. this week has been so slow. i walked on the dark streets. there's nothing scary really. it was another starless night. honestly, any singaporean would think twice about whether there really are stars or not.

physical

mr tham turned up in school in bright orange. he said it was to bring us some cheer. the day started off with pe. it was another shit training, but not so bad as last week. i've jumped many times today. maybe i'll catch a shooting star one day.

we received the ri yearbook for 2005. omg it's of such poor quality. many photos were so blurred, and the expression pages were so pixellated =( almost had to do chemistry practical with james. he didn't like it, so we didn't. i take it that it must have been a terrible prospect on his part. i saw you walking across the corridor today. it felt quite nice.

went to ikea with beejuan, jia en and siuchu for lunch. spent a bomb on food! omg and i finallly got to try the ikea ice cream after such a long time. beejuan bought some photo frames, and when we were in the queue there was some rude uncle behind us. i hope his pot plant dies. i crossed a busy road illegally (and didn't die).

i'm glad that this week is over. then again, i'm one week closer to the promotional examinations.

i've been liking the wrong people. for you own safety, please stand behind the yellow line (on the escalators).

quotes

i remember learning how to use 'mail merge' in sec1. we used to laugh at how ms xu pronounced 'mail merge'. the first lesson she taught us, i couldn't understand and stayed back to ask her. so, i was late for first english lesson with ms pereira. she asked 'why are you late?' in that witchy drone.

i'm worried. i remember ms huang scolded my classmate in the physics laboratory. she was so funny when she said 'you only shout when your life is in danger and you need help.' i'm incapable of talking to you. go wash your face.

i saw a really beautiful cloud on the way to syo. glazunov's 'valse de concert' is so cute. i do love you a lot. does that make me a terrible person?

congratulations! you've won!

pixels of rain

i plucked up the courage to send the email last night. but there won't be a reply. i remember some really nice ikan bilis in malaysia. i was at my auntie's place, and we had white porridge with ikan bilis for dinner. the ikan bilis was so nice i had three bowls of porridge with it!

today was chamber's cip. we went to a home for the aged sick in yishun. i didn't feel very warm in that place. i felt quite helpless because i didn't know how to interact with the people there. honestly, i didn't feel any sense of accomplishment after doing everything there was to do. i don't want to grow old. singapore's going to face an ageing population problem.

new zealand natural ice cream came to rjc. i tried the butterscotch walnut flavour. i also bought a ben and jerry's ice cream outside. it was yummy - cookie dough ice cream on a cookie base and drenched in chocolate fudge. a long-lost friend said 'hi' today. i took a photo of a cat sitting on the stairs.

i miss you, and i'll make a wish for you.

i've read that mother teresa once said, 'i have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.' of course, she's talking about God.

written

i wasn't ok last night. there were thick fluffy clouds over bishan this morning. they were really so thick and fluffy i think you could even bounce on them. today's the first day of the seventh month according to the lunar calendar. it's the time when the gates of hell open and spirits come out to play!

i'm starting to get sick of that same j2. and looking at his face makes it worse. he looks like edie after she got stung by bees on desperate housewives yesterday. seriously, i hope he doesn't think that he's good-looking.

i didn't feel like doing gym. i know there will be dire consequences to face since amanda has been trying so hard to make me go. i didn't even feel like playing during pe. anyway, boyle was off-form during floorball, i think. our class was playing against teckming's.

i was thinking a lot about last night. i think that everything i've heard is true. and i'm really heartbroken now. one minute you were there in the canteen, and the next you were gone. why was it one-sided and unrequited? i was going to cry during h3 maths, but there was sonya. sonya makes you smile. i think i could have been on the verge of a breakdown. i binged today.

amelie's not around to cheer me up now. she's with jia en.

tryst

i think i've irritated boyle today =( bad karma. some j2s were being extremely mean when i walked down the corridor after maths tutorial. never mind, there's always clara! clara's funny, especially when you threaten her by saying that you'll wipe out the koala population!

i know why they like to label terms in arithmetic and geometric progressions using 'n'. that's because the definitions for these progressions must extend to 'any' term(s)! i saw you in the canteen today. and then i saw you outside the lift later. i don't think you saw me, but your friends sure did.

just realised that the soundtrack from 'amelie' is so popular. i've been told not to imagine things about people far away, out of the painting. instead, focus on those around me. i had new zealand natural ice cream today. the tiramisu flavour didn't make me feel loved.

i'll parcel it over next year. some people like to death-glare me. you know, i wouldn't mind if you did death-glare me the entire day. at least you would be looking at me. after watching 'amelie', you'll just feel so so so nice, as though you know that you'll do well in gp.

mordantly morbid

i'm so glad that my human geography term paper finally has some progress, although finding information for china is rather difficult. singapore's statistics was so easy to find i can't believe why i didn't start with singapore first. hope some miracle happens, like the website for china statistics falls from the sky!

i was counting the coins in my piggy bank. remembered that i used to hate twenty-cent coins because they always screwed up my counting.

paper flowers and candy clouds

it doesn't really matter whether it was a dare or not. fact is, you've already won. i woke up very early today for violin lesson. screwed up the vivaldi, but beethoven was ok. and yes, i can play ravel for the examination too.

i saw a white butterfly dancing amongst the bougainvilleas. even bougainvilleas have thorns. what has changed? i happened to play pinball on my computer today. haven't played it for so long. your name's still on my high score board. in fact, yours is the highest. you've won me again.

it's joel's birthday today. technically, he wouldn't celebrate it until fourteen hours later. got to go, the bus is coming.

le pétition

spot the error: i like tomatoes. i hate fruits.

i like biting my fingernails. can't reach my toenails (anymore). i like pressing the button at the traffic light. i stood at a junction pressing the button continuously for at least twenty times. it was quite fun. i like you.

i pseudo-binged on mcdonald's today. i spread out the heavy meal that i bought over a long period of time. basically, i bought the grilled chicken foldover meal and six-piece nuggets.

syo today was quite fun. there were students from the hong kong children's orchestra who came. some of them were like our age, but there were many young ones, especially the cellos! the young cellists reminded me of joel's younger brother. and they played so well. they performed parts of butterfly lovers concerto, new world symphony and yellow river concerto! but where is joel?

oh jonathan was laughing at how lenard's vibrato is so wide and big. haha all the series of sick jokes that came from that topic. lenard says he likes it big and asked jonathan whether he needed help. oops.

there was a funny boy on the train today. when the train was moving through the tunnels, he thought that's because it was night. so, he thought that in the day, the train would be moving in light. his mother nonchalantly agreed with him.

tugged at my shirt. it's the thrill of the rare contact. even my handphone can encourage me when i play a game of 'puzzle' well. apparently, more than two people know that it was a dare. so it was only i who didn't know until two years later.

by the way, there's a new background music on the blog. just wait (long enough) for it to load.

je ne sais pas

this morning i was going through the messages in my 'sent folder'. i realised that i've been replying many messages with a simple 'no', very much like shanghui, except that he bothers putting in full stops.

today's pe was super-high-intensive training (shit). it really was quite bomb. i thought of you while i was running and running, as though you were beside me all the time. at the end of it, the teacher sounded quite tired, the way he dismissed the class. i thought i felt terrible during the training, but then i thought maybe the teacher felt just as terrible. he didn't get to play the games with the classes like the other teachers did, but had to take us for shit.

i had lots of liquid during the break. the soya bean milk gave me a brain freeze i think. i saw the biggest envelope i've ever seen in my entire life today. jia en, beejuan, sonya and i were talking about our dreams, as in the sleeping kind of dreams. i recalled my recurring dream, in which i would be trapped in a room filled with water. i would try so hard to swim upwards for air, but never being able to get it. then i would jerk awake. i also remembered a continuing dream, in which i was captured by a witch! oh, i cut yiyan's queue to the toilet by dashing in front of him before he reached it.

on the way to junction 8, beejuan and i saw a tree stump on the pavement on the opposite side of the road. we wanted to count the number of rings in the trunk. it was a rare sight. i never saw a tree stump before. it wasn't easy to count the rings, but we could see them. i noticed that there was sap leaking out from the sides of the trunk. maybe the tree was crying/bleeding.

was at pastamania with yiyan, siuchu, jia en and beejuan. i discovered that i enjoyed breaking the pastas on display at the counter. most of the time, penne would be difficult to break. fusilli is easier, and then spaghetti and linguini are the easiest ones. i had the fattiest foods today. i think it put back everything i burnt during shit, and even added in more. amelie likes cracking crème brûlée with a teaspoon. i tried doing the same with my coffee crème brûlée, but the layer of burnt sugar on top was so soft it didn't crack.

there was a couple sharing pasta. aww so sweet. actually, when people run out of money, they do that too. oh but that couple was quite irritating. they kept looking this way. it was ratty's classmate. i think they liked looking at the terrible state of my hair (after shit).

i've been told that everything you did was a dare. so, what else do i still have to know? i don't think knowing it before the common tests would have affected my results. i refuse to believe that it was a dare. besides, it may not be true after all. i choose to believe that you did what you did because you meant it. and if you meant it, then everything's not over yet. if it really was a dare, then i've found out only today that i've been the subject of a (sucessful) dare made two years ago.

people seem to like to make me the subject of dares, just like when mingkiat popped my balloon during orientation2. pooh bear still isn't opened yet. i'll probably need some alcohol. so much for thinking that you were beside me when i ran and ran during shit.

i'm dehydrated (from shit and crying). just tell me everything at one go.

windmills

moody swings today. i didn't know that physics spa was today! so my graphic calculator was reset again =( but never mind, there's always sonya haha! james mouthed the f word when i passed him his h3 maths notes.

my napfa retest was today. pull-up posed a bit of problems. i do think that i've gotten fat. my standing broad jump improved, but i still failed. now i'm only 9cm away. but by next year i'll have to do even more. weiyang told me that you were at the place where my bag was. i didn't see you eventually. don't know whether i should be happy or not. about you and the napfa test.

i was early for h3 maths. oh there was something else to be happy about. today is thursday. it's the day i get a free ride to ccab on shanghui's car! i like looking into the sideview mirror. the syo orchestra was tiny today. gone are the days of astronomical-sized strings section. today's orchestra was so empty. and genevieve pointed out that for once the horn section was complete, but the rest of the winds were missing.

i bought a packet of milk from 7-eleven. it reminded me of the packets of milk that we used to buy once a week in primary school. when my sister was in primary school, she would keep the milk and give it to me. (i wasn't schooling yet.) when i was in primary school, i never gave any of mine to her.

up where they walk
up where they run
up where they stay all day in the sun
wandering free
wish i could be
part of that world

i like peeping at the sideview mirror. i choose to believe that my language is good. it was just the content that pulled me down in gp.

redécouverte

the last time i wrote about bougainvillea blooms was 6th april. today, i saw the blooms again. they're beautiful. today was an uneventful day. the new lecturer for maths was quite funny. i saw you today at your chinese class i think. beejuan lent me her 'amelie' soundtrack!

i've just remembered that ruolin still owes me a postcard. anger management! kelly's the new general in the cip play. and i get to kill her yay! it rained in the afternoon. mr lee thinks that my common test grades were good, but laughed when i said that my gp was E.

the rain destroyed some of the bougainvilleas. you're my scuttlebutt and i miss you.

cognac

i saw james' paper today. he has nice handwriting. today was a plain day. arthur was back, but we didn't talk much. i joined beejuan and jia en at art club to try painting. it was so difficult. i think i'll stick to the computer.

ben thinks that he's really hot. i've considered leaving. maybe that way you don't have to see me anymore. that's good, because i can forget you. you want me to leave? 'belle' is a nice name.

sucks

i've been in a terrible mood today. it just sucks. elgar sounded horrible because i was such a bad mood. i've been rude to grandma. i've got grades that spell 'A BABE'. and i feel so weak for having cried over you again.

desperate housewives was so sad.

maybe she tries hard to fix other people's messy lives. but what about her own? who's going to fix her messy life? maybe's she's thinking about a boy she met and felt an affinity with. she would rather imagine herself relating herself to an absent person than build relationships with the people around her. she's devising her stratagems. yes, she's fond of stratagems. but she's cowardly, that's why you can't capture her face. it's time she took a real risk.

lay's

i got B for geography. that's not too bad. paul was bald, and his classmate drew red spots on his head. i saw you in the canteen during recess today. jia en pointed out that i looked sad. maybe i was in need of some toffa-laughter.

the sky was bleak today. results for the gp common test were out. james did so well. i got a D for essay and an S for comprehension. so, my overall was an E. talk about 'university-bound students'. then again, like what sonya said, maybe it's just me.

i think ms ooi should stop discussing about homosexual marriages because james dislikes it. he kept saying 'yucks' super loudly. i lost a game of 'puzzle' on my handphone with a score of zero today. that was terrible. then later, i set two new high scores.

it seems that no matter what i do, i can never get it. i've tried my best, but i didn't try enough. i do miss you. last night was terrible. i dreamt of you again. it's still the same silent dreams. i think i'm hooked on you.

i was sad, but amelie cheered me up. i ate lay's potato chips and chocolate fanfare. siuchu commented/commended that paul had nice hair. i was wondering, 'what hair?'

skip

go http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.asp?u=341762356772 and complete a simple survey of six questions only! (this is for non-rjc students) haha rjc students can wait for the paper version of it.

was back at the old market today. i used to be there when i was very young. now that it's been renovated, i was standing at the same place, but elevated one floor up from last time since it's multi-storey now.

i miss you. i bought a 'chocolate fanfare' from breadtalk. it was an irresistible 50% offer.

acrostic

a beautiful day.
because i woke up late,
church was missed yet again.
definitely have an indefinite load of work to do,
especially for chemistry.
french movies don't kill.
go not for action films,
hot love scenes, nor silly comedies.
instead,
join amelie in her little world!
keep a box of treasures, so that
losing your memories wouldn't hurt.
most of your precious items are in your box of treasures.
no one knows where you keep it.
of course,
pray that no one finds it.
quietly stash it away at night.
remember where it is.
so that you can always look at it when you want.
touch the music of ravel, and
unravel the secrets within.
voluminous hair detests me.
wish i had it.
xenophobia seeks me.
yearn to keep it away.
zodiac signs in the sky.

treat

amelie poulain is so sweet!

palate

yesterday was the stayover at beejuan's! but before that, we were at nydc! omg i loved the mudpie. we were talking about monsters under the bed. i used to have many soft toys to block off the gap that peeks into the darkness underneath the bed at my old house.

beejuan's room is so nicely decorated! no wonder she's of brain-gender 270! we stayed up quite late playing bridge and cluedo, in which i was clueless. then when jia en fell asleep, we played weboggle! haha i think i got addicted to it. we were trying to find organic compound words too!

'nen nen' is milk.

i woke up early this morning because her air-conditioner was drying me up. today was a hot day.

trampoline

i felt so terrible last night i had to use alcohol. it helped me sleep. there was a heavy rain after pe lesson today. i did many jumps. broke a measuring cylinder during chemistry practical and had to pay fifty cents.

met alex and davidson after my last lesson on the seventh floor. they were in the lift. i think they took the lift from below so that they could take it down, if you know what i mean. so cheapo haha. i bought a ben and jerry's 'wich!

need to focus, the television was switched off.

interlude

chemistry lecture today was much better. i was quite lonely during physics practical, and the two students from some other class using the same bench as me didn't know how to dismantle their set-ups after the experiment. but it's ok. i'm ok. as beejuan said, i like to help (some) people clear their things.

oh yes we got to skip ms naidu's lesson to go kuo chuan presbyterian secondary school for interview. it was so fun. we were rushing like crazy to go buy the tape recorder and make it there on time. haha we ended up waiting for the school counsellor. the interview was fun, but it took quite long.

ended up late for h3 maths lecture. had dinner at mcdonald's with kelly. so fattening! oh dear it's so guilty.

i saw you in the canteen today. it's two separate worlds apart. it's a barrel organ waltz. i miss you. what was the point of everything?

jump

today's timetable was the same as yesterday. can you imagine having gp in two consecutive days. oh dear, it was so terrible, especially chemistry lecture. i couldn't understand anything =( but shanghui does =)

the syo concert today was a success! i didn't play anything out of time, only some bowing mistakes. we played 'romance' from 'gadfly suite' again at the end! i received a rose today. oh yes lenard got a flower, but he put it into his shoe bag haha. tonight's a clear sky and a beautiful almost-round moon. it didn't look good on my handphone camera.

i've got another 'hi who's this?' sms =( and urgh, there's chemistry tomorrow again!

tutor

my standing broad jump training today was damn bomb. i walked past you, and i must say it was such bad timing, because i must have looked terrible. you were with so many people, and i was all alone. i don't like you.

shanghui's so smart, he's in top 20 for chemistry common test! and his maths is so good, it's no wonder everyone was asking him for solutions to every question in the 'permutations and combinations' exercises in the canteen.

i sat beside shanghui for h3 maths lecture, hoping to benefit from the effects of diffusion. we were going to be so late for syo rehearsal, so shanghui's mum was driving top-speed. anyway, we reached on time, but mr lim started with gran partita! haha all the petrol wasted, and oil prices are still rising (right?).

glen's so sweet, he gave me a sweet.

certificate

i think that today has been a terrible day even though i got 64/70 for maths test and scored the same as shanghui. yes, ms ooi is right, i ought to start listening more during gp lessons. you just have to make me start listening. and yes, ms ooi is right, sonya is the rose.

the rehearsal for the play was terrible. honestly speaking, i dislike being forced to do what i don't want to do, even though it's 'for the good cause'. and i can't believe that jinyong threatened me with an 'at most i'll ask malisa to mark your attendance as 69%'. it made me just want to walk off because i refuse to be spoken to like that, and anyone can testify that i've been to every rehearsal i could be at. and yes, i do expect an apology should he read this.

is there anyone who's not going to attack me today? i think i've done terribly terrible for the human geography test after mr kamal went through the paper. i kept seeing you everywhere today, and i miss you terribly. paul is hiding something!

i've used 'terrible' five times in this post, including its adverb form 'terribly'.

scant

met genesis today. i think sunday mornings are terrible. my eyes just can't open. i'm surprised my violin teacher said i improved even though i was practising cello more than violin. of course i didn't tell him haha. i suppose most people like music, but dislike the music-making process. i saw an extremely cute baby on the train today.

i missed you last night. my auntie was so beautiful when she walked down the aisle two weeks ago.

had ichiban boshi with sister for dinner. the tempura was so cheat-money. then we went to spinelli and i had tiramisu again.

the botched attempt.

sandy

i woke up near 1pm today! i think msn and studying are mutually exclusive events. i don't approve, but go to www.youtube.com and do a search for 'elgar concerto' and watch du pré! yizhe turned up for syo with a dislocated shoulder. such a bad timing. mr lim says that music is present tense.

oh yes very funny, a few people were trying to tie up shanghui to the railings around the hockey pitch. he was half-sitting on the gate, and when jonathan opened and closed the gate, half of shanghui's butt was squashed hahaha!

the truth is, i still love you.

getaway

gender issues in human geography! mr lee's so funny. mr ohno! brought my cello to school today. shanghui thinks that my elgar is not nice =( i shall have to practise more. had bubble tea with amanda today! today was also 'milo day'. i had three cups of milo in school.

i've been so sleepy the whole day. i fell asleep on the train home, but a nice lady woke me up at raffles place. and then, i almost didn't get off at tiong bahru.

dominion

oh my mama we got back physics and chemistry paper today! before getting physics back i was telling beejuan that i hoped the score was 60 plus, and in fact there was a counting error of 10 marks less haha. then i got 54 =( but haha there really was a counting mistake of 10 marks! i got 64!

yay i got A for chemistry. shanghui said his score was 10 marks more than mine. but shanghui's nice, he asked me whether i had dinner haha. because i was taking his car after h3 maths. omg the lecturer ended at 6.45pm! so late, but we still got to ccab on time. anyway i didn't eat, and then i had bad pains =(

buy tickets for 12th july syo concert! tickets for circle and stall seats are all $5! i helped a certain someone take graph paper and throw away the used string today at physics practical.

the sky was dark this morning.

mine

i'm so stuck trying to do h3 maths homework. wasted one set of pe attire. anyway, james used the f word on me today. chemistry practical was so crappy. the wind was so strong it crumpled my paper. the titre was so yellow i was afraid it would stain me. and the colour change of the indicator is so ambiguous that i don't think i've got accurate results. surprise surprise, yiyan did so well for physics mcqs.

i didn't dao daniel when i saw him outside the chemistry laboratory, but i think he thought i did. i saw you four times today. i think you saw me twice, because you were hiding away twice. i remembered a caterpillar incident. there was once a caterpillar on my back very very long ago. mummy was scared of it. i got rashes the next day.

greener

we got back the physical geography test paper! i'm so glad i passed! we got a mother-big booklet of notes for population geography, and my money has been depleted due to all the class funds. i still a napfa test to pass for.

i saw you today. i guess you didn't see me.

there was a super long break between pe and h3 maths, and i can't believe that for every tuesday and thursday from now on i have to attend h3 maths at such an unearthly hour. it appears that i'm in the same tutorial group as james for h3 maths. he wasn't happy about it, and was being mean. i just don't understand, does he hate me?

i needed you. but i'm used to it.

unravel

ok this is it! it's really easy. all you need is to listen to ravel's 'la valse' and follow through the pictures. the timings are written there. my recording is by orchestre de paris, but i expect that for other recordings the timings should be around the same. i think it's such a fun way to listen to a piece of music! personally i love the fifth and ninth picture. fifth and thirteenth took such a long time!

hundred

last night there was a big-assed storm that woke me up in the middle of the night. my door was banging against the door frame. it was like 'exorcism of emily rose'. i checked my alarm clock. it was 9:30, so that meant that my clock was broken. so, i didn't get to know if it was indeed 3am.

almost went to crystal jade again for lunch, but went to kenny rogers instead. the ribs were yummy. i'm working on a set of pictures drawn to ravel's 'la valse' haha. mussorgsky wrote 'pictures at an exhibition' after seeing some pictures at an exhibition. i'm doing the reversed process now, just like differentiation and integration.

dew

i saw an american monk on the train. a product of globalisation? beejuan, jia en, siuchu and i were at bugis today, then we went to suntec city. oh, i bought 'amelie from montmartre' from hmv. we tried this lychee ice cream, and it was so nice! dinner was at crystal jade, because jia en had to have congee, and was on beejuan's parents, because they were there too. so nice haha.

i recalled my psle index number. it was 35783H. last night i dreamt of a rainy day. ran in the rain to the piano in the middle of nowhere. someone was playing on the piano, and you were standing there too. it was like a painting.

oink

something's wrong with my viola. my new handphone is so complicating.

ingest, digest, egest

omg so sad, yesterday when i wanted to practise my viola, my C string was broken. i didn't have a spare so i couldn't practise =( so, today i went to the esplanade shop to buy viola strings. omg i can't believe that frank brothers marked up their prices to match synwin's. in fact, i think they're using the same catalogue. on top of that, they didn't have stock of the one i wanted. spent a bomb on larsen in the end. then, i went to synwin to try to get the pirastro permanent, but no they didn't have stock of it. then, i went to gramercy to try, but no they didn't carry that brand of strings.

so pissing! shanghui says that i should always have at least one spare set of strings. i say! shops should always have stock of their strings!

saw jerik and yaozhen at popular. oh i was so tempted to buy the chocolixir at godiva when i walked past the shop at citylink mall. a harbinger of things that have yet to come.

bien tranquille

had the j1 batchtalk by rayner today. i bumped into ruolin at the mrt. omg ultimate-ness, she had hair spray! my hair was really bad today, but i didn't use her hair spray. we sat with shanghui at the canteen. ok, so now i know how mean shanghui is to ruolin and she knows how mean he is to me!

as joy said, shanghui is an alpha-male haha! he's so super insensitive/numb to any feeling or emotion. oh yes, apparently i remembered wrongly. mr lim didn't say that shanghui was 'cold on the outside, hot on the inside'. shanghui told me it was supposed to be 'cold on the outside, warm on the inside'.

does it take something extremely traumatising to get someone to cry? yes, once in a while, everyone cries. some cry when they're hungry. others cry when they've once again lost something so dear to them.

i saw you again today, but something's different from yesterday. i felt sad this time. i would love to have some chocolate now.