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yay went donut factory with seibu and weiyang today. we started queuing at 10.15am and we were fourth! but a couple in front of us gave up quite early and so we became third. omg i only managed to do the chemistry practical during that time. then clara came to queue too. this time i wasn't listening to music from that cd shop, because we were all so far ahead in the queue yay! we bought 24+24+24+12=84 donuts! so sad, we tried calling some class people to come during lunchtime and share donuts, but none of them could come =( don't know why, but the queue today took three hours.

went to school eventually to give jeffrey some donuts, and james was in school too. seibu, weiyang and i ended up doing homework in front of the bayley boarding block with jeffrey. then seibu started photo-whoring everyone, including jeffrey who kissed in front of the camera. so cheeky. omg i couldn't do the complex number tutorial! so difficult, die already.

then it started raining. we were all going to the mrt when stupid weiyang took my umbrella and made me use the broken umbrella with jeffrey =( i realised that i ate five donuts today. one spicy cheese, two double chocolates, one glazed, one peanut dark chocolate.

i found a codestone on neopets today. my next mood swing is scheduled to happen in 29735 seconds. but love is selfish. but right now i can't differentiate between like and love.

hocus pocus

it was a sunny morning and pe was better, but it turned glomoy again afterwards. chemistry practical was quite fun for some reason, even though i was super tired today. went to the library after school to print out the remaining postcards for postsecret. xiaoxue was there to help too, and omg she was cutting so fast. the bloody printer was so slow and kept cheating my money and time.

gordon's gp lesson today was on more war and terrorism. criteria for just war. but i don't like war, so all wars are not justified. i'm going to buy donuts tomorrow morning! omg i miss eating the donuts. last night when jeffrey and i walked past the shop after the concert we could still smell the donuts!

gordon took the train with me today yay, and we were talking about money investment. now i'm seeing myself to be a millionaire by 25. stocks, bonds, precious metals. when i got home i saw a quarter-chicken in the oven, and when i started eating then i realised that i haven't actually had proper dinners the entire week.

two words: perspicacious, perspicuous
two words: chocolate milk.

1228D

i slept only four hours =( slept on the train too. the sun came out early. milankovitch cycle? whoa there was almost an attire check for us.

it rained today and was really windy, so windy that a notice board fell on me as i walked past. yay i've finally handed in the form to drop h3 maths. no more stress. physics practical was quite fun. i finished early and was looking at all the dangling rulers around the room and listening to the rain outside. a miracle happened for the fourth time this year.

we walked past today. you noticed but probably didn't care. it doesn't matter; we just walked past.

the h3 maths test was quite difficult. the air outside was cool after the rain. went to do some work for art week. i was pasting papers on envelopes. omg so repetitive.

brought my camera to school today and took some funny shots, but the battery ran out and so i couldn't take the shots that mattered.

went to watch syo concert with jeffrey. but everything was in a mess and he had to go here and there, and time was running out. i had mud on my pants because of the rain. omg so pissed. and i shouted at a driver who so irritated me. in the end, we took a taxi to get to victoria concert hall (and it was more than $10). no wonder i'm going to lose all my money this year.

the seats sucked. couldn't hear much. but maybe that's because i'm used to the loud sounds when i played on stage. it's so different to be now watching them play. i liked the tzigane, and then i got reminded that i don't have my tzigane scores anymore. omg for some reason jeffrey was dozing off during ravel and was awake during beethoven, while i was awake during ravel and dozing off during beethoven.

we went on a hunt for cheap chocolate after the concert, but there was none.

omg i survived this day; deserve a heart-shaped cookie, like totally.

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wow i'm finally done with washing up and packing all the utensils. finished baking at 1.20am and now i'm dead beat. i've been doing things that i never used to do. but they all mean something to me.

because 'needs' and 'offer' are dervied from the same key-press on the handphone.

lesson one

got back our geography results. even though ms law went through the answers and made it look as though we could never pass the paper, i still did better than i expected. so, yay. the weather turned slightly gloomy, but not sad.

we celebrated ms ku's birthday before chamber. omg i felt so tired today. after chamber i met jeffrey and we went for art club together. they were making parachutes to drop eggs without breaking them. omg so fun. jeffrey kept stealing oreos, and he took all the uncracked eggs and tried to cook them for us! oh mr chia gets sick when he thinks about eating raw eggs.

yay had my first violin lesson with jeffrey. omg it just reminds me of how i started when i first learnt it too. i probably didn't make any audible sound from the instrument at all. and yes, the bow used to feel very heavy. i also used to keep hitting two strings when i tried to play one.

we had dinner at s11. no, actually i didn't buy food from s11. i went to get the tutu kueh from j8 for jeffrey to try. omg so long never eat it already!

rushed home to bake for the syo violists tomorrow for the concert. actually, i started baking at 10.15pm, and so this post was made everytime i had spare time to come out of the kitchen.

you know you like him when you keep looking back to see him after the two of you have walked separate ways.

w; double you

i told myself that if it happened ten times then i would tell you. now i've had the same nightmare of you for ten times.

pe was much better with mr leong. oh this week is going to be so busy. i don't think i'll be able to sleep before midnight for the next few days. here's the plan: i'm going to drop h3 so that i don't have to take the $150 examination, but i'll still go and listen to the lectures and learn the stuff.

you walked past me in the canteen today, and i smsed you about six hours later in a moment of desperation. but you ignored it anyway. omg i just realised that i stay in school for so long just for lessons.

light drizzles. almost everyone's pissed today. i think the stress is just getting on. gordon's said some mean things (not to me) which i don't think he can take back anymore. i don't think the videos suck, whether or not i've seen them yet.

why didn't you want the octopus i spent hours making (for you)?

jeffrey and i went to the bishan library quite late because i had to get postsecret by tonight. i was searching the wrong section and jeffrey found the correct one. i spotted the book immediately. omg it was so pretty. on the train home i was reading the book and making myself feel touched.

i'm dropping this. it's too hard.

i'm glad that i'm not in syo (for this week, at least); don't have to work till night for the entire week.

not dear; not stress

it was a stormy morning, so i took the bus from j8 to school. met haojin and ben.

don't like school; don't want the term to start again. mr tham gave us the booklet for the 'A' levels and it appears that h3 maths is going to cost me $150. i must drop it, and drop it quick! went to kbox with seibu and weiyang today. omg there was an mtv for 大悲咒. i think the best song was 'endless story'. we sang it four times! eee it cost like $14 in the end.

i had kfc for dinner.

snow is a magical blanket. it hides what's ugly and makes everything beautiful.

shrine

i ate at the same restaurant for lunch and dinner today. physically broke a fragment of my growing wisdom tooth when i kept touching an unusually sharp part of it. omg is there going to be anything wrong with my teeth?

若命运叫我只懂喜歡你

900th entry; colorgenics

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.

Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve - so soften up a little, be flexible.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature. Perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm

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the oddest thing happened last night. it seems that i'd found a kindergarten classmate after twelve years! omg it's freaky how genesis can remember that i danced with her for the performance on the graduation day. and how she can remember mummy so well. eee so weird. all i know is i'd dug out my old photos and i was looking at my dance partner who looked like her! oh yes the eyebrows were very thick haha!

i was also flipping through my oldest photos and i saw my baby photos! and how much slimmer i was when i was much younger! oh mummy looked less thin last time. i also saw the photos at the registry of marriage and photos of the wedding, all before i was born!

and then i was finally looking at the photos of the first funeral i attended. i was the only one striking poses in the photos. everyone else looked quite solemn.

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quiksilver turns into silver quickly.

yay went shopping with aminah, siuchu, beejuan and jia en. we were at far east plaza for a while, and we went to some hong kong-style cafe where i had milk tea that was quite nice. we also went to the duty free shopping galleria to see all the high-end brands.

we met clara at wheelock and dinner was at fish & co. omg i ordered a whole line fish and it was really an entire fish. omg eat until can die. then we went over to shaw house and walked through the toy section in isetan. haha so fun, i've a new habit now: to slip my hand in between soft toys. it's such a warm feeling. we looked at all the toddlers' toys. some were so kiddishly dumb!

oh yes we found feathers, and jia en totally hates them, doesn't she?

i know someone who displays his anger by pouting and smiling alternately. he also thinks that the world is perfect.

mangosteen

omg i had such a late dinner after going through half of theory of music grade 1 with jeffrey. gordon, jeffrey and i ate at ya kun kaya toast. then gordon brought us to the bishan playground, where he put us onto a spinning wheel and spun us. omg i was how giddy la, and jeffrey still wanted to go again. eee i puked my dinner out after that.

yes we are all 'free peoples' of a 'free world' now; haven't been so happy for a while.

a bicycle came by.

mango

ok i'm still in school now and i wrote this on jeffrey's laptop. so cool, i also want one!

physics test today was not as hard as i expected it to be, so it should be quite good. some of them were playing game of life before learning journey. haha so funny, everything about money and fertility. then the class went for learning journey to the singapore art museum. omg wong keen's works were all so weird, but chen wen hsi's ones look nice.

lunch was mr tham's treat at thai express at raffles city. omg donut queue so long. yay took a taxi back with some of them to come back to school and see jeffrey's filming, which brought me here on his laptop haha.

想得太遠

torque

it was a sunny morning! omg so bloody hot. i was in the library with clara and karmun, and i made many of the chinese new year decorations with the white paper on which i was practising chemical equations. so cute and so fun!

omg the chemistry paper was so long and difficult. the mcqs were how hard la. but the rest were quite ok; i could do most of them. i did the kinetics one wrongly, but i hope i got marks for writing the units of k haha. i did the elucidation question according to the remedial teacher's method, so i think i got very high for that one!

the sundae at mcdonald's was nice. i've got a neck pain now and i don't know if it was my sleeping position. it was a gloomy evening, but no one was feeling blue. in fact it feels as if everything's getting lighter, like in a sunrise.

enjoy this beautiful day.

1:37

i planned to wake up at nine by sleeping at ten last night, but a bad dream woke me up at six this morning and i couldn't go back to sleep. played solitaire on the computer and won twenty games or something at one go. games 28017 and 1775 are very easy to play.

had long john silver's for breakfast. interestingly, they didn't charge extra for changing the drink to milo. it was rush hour on the train so it was quite packed.

went to school early and then got bugged by zhehan on the phone asking last-minute maths. gordon came at 11am when he asked me to go at 10am. sigh waited so long, but i practised a bit of karmun's integration tutorial. for the next common tests, i should go sit in the j1 lectures for revision during the free times.

omg the maths paper was difficult, but i tried my best and completed everything and, as usual, checked until i couldn't find any mistake. so, if i lose any marks this time, it'll probably be something i couldn't avoid. omg gordon predicted a conics question. sigh that one took me three tries before i managed to draw the correct graph for the hyperbola. argh wasted so much of my time. i'm so sad that there was only one question each on permutations and combinations, and complex numbers. so many questions on vectors, and all not easy at all. upon re-doing one of the vectors questions after the test, i think i've already found one mistake =(

sat in my classroom for a long time, until like near eight. once in a while i went up to my locker and saw the evening sky. the dark clouds looked nice but there was lightning. took back a stack of old scores to use as rough paper. flipped through them and saw things like britten, bruch, mendelssohn and bartok. omg all so nice. all the concerts with rise.

no i wasn't cleaning my classroom, but i'm going to in a few more days.

it was our longest call ever i guess. sometimes it feels like i'm trapped in between heaven and hell.

勉強幸福

it drizzled in the morning. there were policemen on the train. i was in a state of unfeel. walked to the wrong ri gate. no, actually it was a correct gate, just that it wasn't open. bad gateway. it made me walk for about half the perimeter of the campus to reach the gate that was open.

i was studying in the library for one last time with clara, and seibu came too. the geography paper was really difficult like crap, so the economics students can laugh now. oh dear i think i'll get really shitty marks this time, but at least i spotted one right question on primate cities, so that question should be fine. the data response questions were so difficult.

i keep walking the wrong roads today.

i've found happiness already. problem is, happiness won't love me back. no, actually i don't understand what it means when you're uncomfortable.

postsecret has some touching ones this week.

闪一边去

it was rainy in the morning. thank goodness i made it to shelter in time. i was watching the rain come and go. it was weird. the rain seemed to come for a few seconds, and then suddenly stop. but elsewhere, like five metres away, it was still pouring. then the rain would disappear altogether, and i could hear it moving away. then, it would come again, as though rainclouds were being blown over the area.

i stood under shelter and waited forever.

the school library opened at 8am, and i studied urban geography all at one shot for three hours. karmun was at the next table studying for economics. oh poor economics people. i wandered around to the music room and saw annong, shirong, wendy and ruolin. all mugging for economics.

studied everything i could study for geography. but i got so tired all of a sudden.

i helped an uncle on the train today. he said he had a stroke recently and needed a seat, so i got him one. but the way he asked me to help him was so intimidating.

octopi in the air. did you catch one?

omega

oh i ended up reading about trigonometric functions and lissajous curves yesterday instead of studying geography. the lissajous curves are so interesting. it's about complex harmonic motion, which is why circles are a special case of lissajous curves. circles are a result of simple harmonic motions in two perpendicular planes, set at a phase difference of 90 degrees.

http://www.phy.hk/wiki/englishhtm/Lissajous.htm

i slept so early last night at like 10pm, but i woke up at 6am this morning because i was very thirsty. and then it was damn hot and difficult to go back to sleep again =( it's like racing against time to fall asleep before the sun rose.

there's some haze today and i'm so tired. i still haven't told my violin teacher about the examination results yikes. i was on the train and there was a baby too. for some reason, he would cry for one second and then immediately stop. and somehow, when you stuff a pacifier into his mouth he could also stop crying immediately.

during my siesta i dreamt of a volleyball smashing into my face =(

today i was frantically searching up and down, overturning all my pots and pans, for a green pen. because i was very sure that i was holding on to it in the kitchen the last time i saw it. turns out, i slipped it into my pocket when i was going to wash the dishes.

i remember a robbery incident many, many years ago. mummy held on to me very tightly as we watched a robber try to pull a necklace of a woman in front of us. there was nothing mummy could do i guess; she was just trying to protect me.

it's monday tomorrow. there would be fireworks at tivoli gardens every night at exactly 2345h.

繁體

i can't believe it's the end of the holiday week already. i feel so unmotivated to study for geography.

kirchoff's law for current: the algebraic sum of all currents at a junction is zero. thats mean the sum of the currents entering the junction equals the sum of currents leaving the junction.

kirchoff's law for potential difference: the algebraic sum of all electromotive forces equals the algebraic sum of all potential differences in a closed loop.

i remember ms huang teaching us about kirchoff's laws. 幻想我有這份頑強的漂亮。

auspicious

nothing, this is simply the 888th post on glass-shoe.

i finished my chemistry revision papers. but i've yet to start on geography, which ironically will be the first paper i take.

心甘命抵

i dreamt of eating twelve donuts at one go. four of them were double chocolates, and there were some weird ones like cream donuts.

salut

i slept so much today and now i'm too awake to go back to sleep. i've revised my chemistry mechanisms and equations for tollens', fehling's and iodoform tests. i've also started on the chemistry revision papers. but i have yet to start studying for geography.

general mood: damn.

因為一時的忍不住

got hurt again.

gordon asked me to watch the sketch show on youtube last night, which was really funny. it made me sleep better too. today i woke up at 12pm. i think i saw yeowhui and yeowsheng at burger king today. they were the twins in my primary 1 and 2 class.

ignore.

ensemblet

chamber was so early today. i could finally get most of the quavers in verdi.

lunch was at food junction. i had pepper lunch express, which was a rip-off. then amanda, shirong, jonathan and i went to bishan library where we did maths. and then at one shot (four hours), i finished the integration and permutations and combinations revision worksheet. it was super cold in the library, and then jonathan took out his army food! ok it wasn't very nice, but amanda said it was ok.

dinner was 板面 at s11. it's been such a long since i had it. and the weather was quite good for 板面. but the soup seems to be thinner now.

citizens can contribute by hoping for a better age.

suburbia

yay i went shopping today. went to ikea to get some spools, and then walked over to queensway shopping centre trying to find some cheap bags. but that place was so messy that i gave up after a while. took a bus down to city hall and it suddenly rained.

finally bought myself a pencil box from billabong at raffles city! and i was eyeing a bag, but i shall wait for the price to drop. soup spoon was rather quiet. and the queue at donut factory was still super long even at 5.45pm (though i could smell the donuts from the far end of the queue).

went up to look at das erzgebirge-haus.

walked back home from city hall again. it was quite a cool evening, but then the sky turned menacingly gloomy over chinatown. you wouldn't even know if it was getting dark because it was late or because of the storm clouds.

when the rain finally came, it poured. poured to the extent such that horton overland flow was generated very quickly, but that's probably because the land is concrete.

what's it like in kedah?

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omg the physics revision paper is so difficult.

i+j+k <3

i just finished ten questions on vectors in 162 minutes, which is quite slow, because i don't believe i have done 108 marks worth of questions. i will need to work faster on the other questions during the common test. but then again, the other topics are integration, permutations and combinations, and complex numbers, which are quite time-consuming too =(

i love maths. i love maths. i love maths.

hoping that you'll love me back someday. 擁有位置.

chamber, chances

i'm lost today.

jeffrey and i were at raffles city on friday. and just on the next day, there was a murder there.

some time

i bought these on 28th february 2007, which was a very happy day. oh, the glazed donut looks so pretty.

tigger and pooh

i woke up so early today to go for the nus open house. omg they gave so many pamphlets and booklets (and lots of usable stationery). yishi and i koped a helium balloon each. i went to collect my atcl results. turns out that i didn't pass it, and the examination was really expensive. it's the examination for which shanghui said was impossible to fail. we went to cineleisure to watch letters from iwo jima.

but before that yishi and i untied out helium balloons to do the quacky voice thing! yishi's was super funny! 死 seibu cartoon network! the movie was better than flags of our fathers. it was much easier to follow, but there were much more gory things that happened, like the soldier whose hand got blasted off, and his arm was gushing with blood =(

but i merely smsed you in a moment of weakness.

dinner was some japanese noodle thing. i tried pop doh too. bought the milky fashion donut that was quite interesting. it wasn't like a bread, but like a cake.

fact: a rainbow can only be seen in the morning and late afternoon.

separation, reparation

yes it's the last day of term, but what happened in school wasn't important. (but i jogged six rounds for pe.)

here's the plan. at 12.30pm, jeffrey leaves school and uses the map i drew him to get to donut factory while i go for maths make-up lesson. then at 1.20pm when the lesson finishes, i rush to donut factory so that jeffrey can rush back to school to donate blood while i queue in his place. then he'll rush back to donut factory after donating his blood and we'll buy 24+24=48 donuts!

well the plan was quite perfect, but not well-executed. firstly, ms koo ended ten minutes late! then jeffrey was whining in his sms about the queue 'moving very slowly' and being 'damn hungry and thirsty'. grr i was running everywhere to get everything. oh but i bought the godiva chocolixir again. then i realised that the map i drew for jeffrey (from memory) was quite accurate. omg chocolixir was so nice, and jeffrey liked it too!

had chippy's for lunch. probably put back all the weight that i had lost during pe lesson. then jeffrey left to donate blood in school. so, the queuing began and everything interesting happened. i was listening to the music from that cd shop once again. i also saw adrian pang walk past and a customer who brought a chair to sit while queuing. i actually made conversation with many people in the queue; once in a while i had to let some of them go before me because jeffrey took so long to come back.

basically, many of them knew me as the dumb rjc student who let everyone cut my queue. then one guy scared me by saying that jeffrey already pangsehed me, that he wouldn't come back anymore. hmph, and he said that the day before when he came, they didn't sell him what he wanted because production stopped when they ran out of dough. omg action was required. jeffrey was just on his way back because there was even a bloody queue at the blood donation. (no pun intended.)

ok, so i had to make friends with a lady in the queue, whom i let her cut my queue at first. turns out she was only buying 18 donuts, so i got her to help me buy 6 donuts, thereby increasing my buying limit! then, i bought 12 for myself and 12 for jeffrey. the wait for certain flavours was quite long, but jeffrey never came in time =( i requested that they let me wait at the shop for jeffrey to come and see if the flavours i picked were what he wanted. at first, one of them let me. then later, another said that i paid already and couldn't change the flavours anymore. so basically they got me out of the queue =(

in all, the 30 donuts took three hours (jeffrey contributed one, i contributed two). but one has to consider that technically, two people would have been queuing for those donuts, and so effectively, queuing time for those 30 donuts was six hours. so, each donut was worth twelve minutes.

omg jeffrey looked so white when he came back, as though they drew a lot of blood from him. and he was wearing a bandage with lots of cute smiley faces on it. he said they used a very big needle and poked quite deep into the vein. gordon would have flinched! we walked to das erzgebirge-haus upstairs to look at the handicrafts. oh my some of the new stuff there were so exquisite!

on the way back to school from bishan mrt, stephanie saw me with the donuts! omg what bad timing! reached back school at about 6pm. gordon was waiting all the while for his two donuts. grr. got a donut each for tamie and paul, but paul looked so expressionless when he ate it =( oh yes jeffrey was trying to scare needle-phobic gordon with the stories of his blood donation and succeeded. i shared one glazed and one double chocolate donut with jeffrey. omg so nice la. imma queue there more often.

gordon's gp lesson today was on the different denominations of christianity, fallacies, egregious solecisms, and pronunciations. we kept drilling jeffrey on pronouncing 'th' properly. then we ended near 9pm. of course, it was super dark outside again. dinner was at pastamania, and i shared my free carbonara with jeffrey. for some strange reason, he loved eating the grated parmesan cheese by itself, and he kept eating it!

sigh i spent like $31 today. not good - bad.

kaixiong happened to be on the same train as me on the way home. walked with him to the road crossing, where i used to walk about two years ago. oh can't wait for raywen to move over to twin regency. hope there could be mahjong sessions!

sometimes, you could eat so many donuts that even your fart smells of donuts.

anachronism 1

omg it's finally the end of the term. i have decided this year to write down what my best achievements of each week are. and only the things that matter to me.

eason chan's concert (week 1)! omg although the pay was meagre, it was such a fun experience, and it allowed me to take out my viola after a two months. it exposed me to more cantonese music. no achievements for weeks 2 and 3. i worked hard for mural (week 4), willingly let myself be bullied by gordon to do everything meant for short people. spring cleaning the classroom and operation homeworks in week 5. oh yes i love cleaning. week 6 was the bomb. i baked peanut butter cookies for chamber (although some of them came out tasting eggy), queued for my first time at donut factory, worked till really late nights for mural, baked with siuchu for sheena, and survived the four tests during the week! on valentines' day (week 7) i received lots of chocolates and shared them with someone nice. nothing big for week 8; it was chinese new year. in week 9 i queued for donuts after running out of school on wednesday, cleaned the classroom again because it was the end of the month, and began gp lessons with gordon and jeffrey. in week 10 i did quite well for a chemistry test for which i did not study much, and continued with gp lessons under gordon.

chances

there was a mad rush to do the physics tutorial today because i realised that mr sze was quite far ahead.

i was very tired at h3 maths lecture again, and the lecturer just went on and on. i still saw you everywhere in school today, from the canteen to the lecture.

met jeffrey who was going to do filming work, and gordon took a very long time to appear. we went to library to get some cute pictures printed out. he was in half-uniform, and so to save him from whoever was the new librarian, i had to lend him my jacket so that he could wear it over his t-shirt haha.

turns out, there wasn't any filming. gordon gave his gp lesson on american presidents, 911, afghan war, iraq war, diaspora, and exodus. and he went on forever until like 8pm, by which time jeffrey and i were hungry until pain like menstruation.

dinner was at mcdonald's, where gordon continued his lesson on the great depression, north korea, alliteration, euphemism, misnomer, oxymoron, and irony. but then my stomach was still in pain after eating.

some lessons learnt today: gordon has needle-phobia, while jeffrey's afraid of the dark!

fish or chicken?

i like using my new collection of pens. they write so nicely.

human geography lesson was fun, because there was nothing to do. mr lee showed us his optical thing. gp common test wasn't so difficult because i was writing with my nice pens. but i'm tired today, and there was chamber after the test still. it was quite short, though. but i saw you again, and i really don't want to anymore. why do you keep laughing?

jeffrey walked me to the mrt today. on the way we were talking about j1s having nothing to do. then we were talking about gordon's gp lessons. and then he showed me his physics paper with all the careless mistakes. i definitely got happier after seeing jeffrey.

thank goodness friday's coming again.

i was walking to victoria theatre to watch the shuqun musical. it reminded me of walking to victoria concert hall for syo concerts. and victoria theatre reminded me of the time i played in the tosca production. the musical was quite childish, but very funny at some points.

question? answer. why? because

lucky

i ate a hell lot today. i had nasi lemak for breakfast, malay food for recess, and crystal jade for dinner. i also had ben and jerry's after that.

indefatigable

last night i thought i finally found enough courage to call you. but then i put down the phone after a few rings; just wasn't ready still. then on my last try you picked up and that was the first time i heard your voice in a few months, but i put down again because i didn't want to get rejected again. but i really missed you and it hurt so much that i cried and cried. i was so tired.

you said before that if i didn't bug you anymore then you would treat me better. but you simply took advantage of my silence and it's been four months since we talked.

last night i dreamt of killing mummy. then i was trying to use the knife to cut her face, but it was like wax and there was no blood. then she opened her eyes and made me cut her finger. after i cut her finger, she started coming after me.

this morning our first lesson was on a level 7 classroom, and on our way down i saw you again. i didn't really know what to do anymore. in the past i should have just jumped up to you and said 'boo!' but nowadays we just shun away from each other, don't we?

there was an earthquake over sumatra today, but i didn't feel any tremors, although sonya said they woke her up in the library. chemistry test wasn't that difficult, just a few weird questions.

i had been feeling quite weird the entire day, as though my mind couldn't decide what to feel, but pe lesson changed everything. because james said something bad again. i just don't understand everything. but i didn't have to play in the same group as him. in any case, i didn't play. i went to do three pull-ups, and many standing broad jumps. but they all sucked so i sat on the jumping mat and cried.

went to the art room to see the silk screen printing for a while. but mr chia didn't let me stay. strayed around for a while and then went for h3 maths. i really dreaded it today because i was extremely tired. just kept falling asleep. i was sweeping eraser dust from my writing tablet, and then suddenly i swiped my eraser onto the ground. the shock finally woke me up. it felt as though going for h3 was like going for air-con.

the silk screen printing workshop wasn't done yet by the time i finished h3 maths. nope, no gordon to walk me back to the mrt. (anyway, he owes me one walk.) but then i still cried while walking back to the mrt. it started raining on me. and then i cried on the train. then i bought a bun and was crying while i ate it. it just kept coming to me again and again.

if we don't do anything then i might just suffer a breakdown. but you don't mind, do you? i might not be strong enough to go back to chamber. today it's mummy's birthday. tomorrow it's gp common test.

because 'select' and 'reject' are derived from the same key-presses on the handphone. for the first time in a long while i feel like dying. the truth is, i wanted to jump down last night.

but tomorrow will be better, right?

習慣失戀

burst

this morning when i woke up i was thinking about the cip work that i used to believe i could get my class to do. indeed, the temporary classroom we got was on the seventh floor. back to where we had maths and physics tutorial every friday last year.

i saw you repeatedly today. first you walked past the seventh floor classroom. then you left your bag near me in the canteen, although you probably didn't know. then i saw you again in the library. and for a while you were sitting alone, but it was just impossible for me to walk over. then i caught one last glimpse of you when i looked up outside the library.

the lonely heart-shaped balloon is no more.

physics spa A was so unexpectedly difficult, and i think i might have made some very fundamental errors. but now that it's over, we can finally move on with grace. and so i did. i went to revise differentiation with gordon. oh jeffrey sang us his general formula song. gordon didn't walk me back to the mrt today.

i also want a laptop.

心淡

balloon

oh just talk to me. the syf pieces are too hard. i need to talk to joel.

postsecret

webpage

this morning i dreamt that i was going to be late for syo. woke up knowing that it was a dream - i knew i wasn't going to be late. but that meant that i temporarily forgot that i didn't have to go for syo anymore.

do j1s really have nothing to do? were we like that last year? i mean, i see them playing everywhere. and lizheng's always reading extra things, while jeffrey can do so many things for so many ccas. and siuchu says that on the bus every morning, the j1s are wide awake while all the j2s are sleeping.

posted my first post on the art blog.
i saw a real chicken downstairs today. my classroom is going to be switched for some injured person. and it's interesting to see my class protest the change.

francophile

omg we were late for assembly because we didn't hear the first bell. and we ran all the way down to the assembly ground, where i'm sure everyone was staring at us running. oh haha alex was hiding in a corner! but he managed to not get booked by pretending to look like he was with us i think.

i was told a girl died during her pe yesterday. maybe that's why the pe teacher was so nice to let me not play soccer given my abysmal skill. and so i ran (four) rounds until i was happy.

oh yay today was celebration for weiyang's birthday. he kept asking us to do an mtv for him. there was a cake, of which we each ate a lot. omg so fattening. then siuchu, beejuan and i went to hide away to complete weiyang's porno present drawn by tamie. omg every teacher saw it already la. die.

i went library and met jeffrey who was mugging about (omg!) art. fulfilled my duties to art club by using my ezlink card to help him borrow the book. and lizheng was there mugging quantum mechanics or some universe big bang uncertainty thing.

eh someone said my ezlink card photo was cute today.

did some music survey today. it was so funny. i was sitting opposite annong and was writing many names on her paper so she had to keep erasing them.

went to library again to do chemical equilibria tutorial and ended up circling every question =( then gordon called me to go and do his maths assignment for him. argh can't believe he took more than one hour for a seven-mark question. then jeffrey came again, and suddenly gordon was giving up a history/gp lesson.

it went on for so long that i eventually pulled a table over so that jeffrey and i could sit and listen to gordon talk about the cold war, berlin wall, US and singapore government, power checks/imbalances, and the internal security act. oh gordon was giving us the NATO alphabet thing, and when he couldn't remember the word for 'f', i said it was 'the f word', but jeffrey said the f word. ok, so everything i learnt today was interesting, but i don't think i would still remember it by tomorrow.

gordon didn't walk me to the mrt today. ate at pastamania for dinner.

i decided to walk home from city hall again. i actually like doing that, especially when i walk past neil road. the shops there look really nice. and the air tonight was cool. after walking past the mortuary enough times, i wouldn't be afraid of dying anymore.

no! this post is full of colloquialisms.

16號愛人

anglophile

it's turned very cold today. and the rain lasted the entire day until late afternoon. bumped into annong on the way to the bus terminal because we both didn't want to walk in the rain haha. but i'm so sleepy today. i had one double chocolate donut for breakfast yay. must leave it for the last too.

there were many incidents today where i saw you laughing.

the lonely heart-shaped balloon in the canteen has been traversing around the ceiling for the past few days. maybe one day someone will jump up and bring it down. i feel like dropping h3 maths. it felt like i hadn't gone home to eat and sleep for years.

i met gordon and jeffrey and we revised physics! and gordon walked me back to the mrt (only after i promised him two donuts from donut factory). and jeffrey kept trying to help gordon to bargain for more. so bad, they both allied to bully me together =(

but i just want to make you happy.