snap

omg i can't believe i've ended my chinese life. after 10 long years of taking chinese as a subject, i finally can forget about it for some time. hmm today's paper 2 was so difficult. an A2 will be nice, but a B3/4 is expected.

the comprehension was very insightful. we should live at this very moment! not for the future. hmm i should live for myself, not my studies. yay!

i guess i can forget you soon enough.

erised

for the love of chinese, we must study hard for tomorrow's papers!

truth and beauty

cinderella: thank you, this has been the most wonderful night. but i've got to go.
prince charming: what? a curfew?
cinderella: something like that.
cinderella runs off.
prince charming: where are you going?
cinderella: i'm late.
prince charming: for?
cinderella: reality.

just what do you want? why do you try so hard for everything? what's yours will eventually be yours. what's not meant to be yours will never be, no matter how hard you try.

but at least i did try before.

i think i've been running around too much. aimlessly sometimes. i should sit down one of these days. but for now, it's back to studying for chinese.

owl

oh my i slept from 8pm to 12am. wide awake now! *yawn* it's so late, but the hamster cages are simply bustling with activity. hamsters running around, hamsters running on the spinning wheel, hamsters still trying to climb out of the cage.

are hamsters nocturnal?

sometimes i really wonder what we're doing here. are we like hamsters running about aimlessly? or trying to escape, but in vain? or running on the spinning wheel thinking that eventually we can run out of the cage through some time passage? maybe they don't even know that they are in a cage. but then again maybe they do have a purpose in doing those things.

Ha i knew it.U muz hav been 2 busy wif ur workload n stuff 2 even tink abt it rite?But sumtimes i tink we muz pause 4 while 2 reevaluate our aims n purpose in life

fmps classmate

a flower duet

so exhausted today.

can't wait to dye my hair after 4th nov. hmm what colour should i do? shocking red or shocking pink? apple green? blonde? sky blue?

higher chinese 'O' levels is in 2 days! hope it'll be easy peasy.

天气很冷，路上的乞丐都唇亡齿寒。

when you return

you've finally come back. why did you leave 2 years ago? why did you go for so long? don't leave again. please?

as if it doesn't really matter

today was a sad day. are you ill?

1.
you didn't appear for chinese lesson again.

2.
wanted to play during pe lesson. but i thought maybe i would spoil the fun, so i sat at one side and watched the game.

3.
can you blow into my ear?

4.
you were having great sex.

5.
A: are you going to eat? let's go and eat! let's go and eat! let's go to mcdonald's and eat.
B: nono i'm not going to eat. suddenly don't feel like eating.

6.
binged.

how i wish this was just a nightmare, so that i could wake up one day and everything would be ok.

it's ok, it's just a few more days.

next door

the thunder at bukit timah is too loud. too loud. the rain at bukit timah is too heavy. too heavy.

too scary. too scary.

we crashed-course through matrices today. it's so difficult. especially the multiplication of matrices. inverse matrices is fun.

tomorrow's friday.

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russian night
3rd dec 2005
1930h
victoria concert hall

programme:
glinka russlan and ludmilla overture
glazunov violin concerto in a minor op.82
tchaikovsky symphony no.2 in c minor 'little russian'
see ian ike, violin
lim soon lee, conductor

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bimbo

last few results were out. maths and social studies! yay it's finally over.

had lots of free time after recess. mrs chan was telling us about H3 maths for jc1. hmm would really love to take it, but that means i have to reshuffle my units. i've maxed out all 12 right now.

yay i finally won my first game of connect4. against adrian haha!!

pastamania!

9 days left.

omfg! the only way to win in ri is to cheat!

favian

love and cream

second episode of tiramisu! i think it makes eating become like some big lifestyle thing. like my social studies teacher says, breadtalk isn't just selling bread. it's selling a lifestyle. kind of makes bread-eating some high-class thing.

got back physics, english, chemistry, geography and biology papers today. i was so relieved when i saw my geography paper! tomorrow is social studies and maths paper yay!

class photos were out.

taking geography next year! so excited about the syllabus having plate tectonics again! recalls geraldine chong's lessons in sec1.

daffodil

yay prefect elections! the emcees were funny, and some nominees were really gross.

next was waterpolo carnival. didn't go into the pool. just watched. saw one of jeremy's fantastic throws. right across the whole pool. 4D made it to semi finals again, but lost to 4J. but i must say that they were all so xiong. both 4D and 4J. (recalls zhehan's middle finger)

then we had programme in the hall. it was a ballet thing. omg the dancers were so graceful and so glass-shoe.

after lunch was chinese class. so there were only 10 students who turned up. haha we sat in a row like the panel of judges in america's next top model! and mr tan walked in. spent the lesson going through a test paper and we checked our marks yay!

ok i've finally chosen my subject combination. don't know anyone else who's doing this combination, so don't really know if i will get it. i'm going to do maths, chemistry, physics and geography at H2, and biology at H1.

hilarious quotable quotes in our expressions page.

do you guys take geoooorgraphy?

mrs genevieve matthews

ribet ribet

no not good. it's waterpolo tomorrow.

there are 10 kinds of people - those who can read binary, and those who cannot.

exclusive inclusion

hate your clique.

if it was programmed to love, then theoretically it would also be able to hate.

quotable quotes

'fairytales don't come true. but dreams do.'

'it's not who you are inside, but what you do that defines you.'

'waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. useless and disappointing.'

'never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.'

'fairytales are more than just about princes and princesses. they are about fulfilling your dreams, and standing up for what you believe.'

'and i don't care what people say about me anymore. because i believe in myself, and i believe everything is going to be ok.'

'to overcome fear, you must become fear.'

from some movies.

two weeks of purpose

two weeks left for school. gonna/gotta spend it meaningful-ly. apart from clearing out my locker and the blu-tack flower that's inside, i'm also going to have to finish clearing my copper(II) sulphate and chrome alum solutions in chemistry laboratory 2. then i'm going to make more blind memories of the school. i'm going to, for once, walk through the garden where the gardener plants those beautiful orchids. and look at every single one of the flowers.

maybe i'll borrow a vcd too, and use the library's resource room (is that what it's even called?) to watch the vcd. and i'll sit in gryphon's lair before it gets torn down. perhaps i'll read those frames that are hung everywhere in the admin blocks.

listening to corrine may's 'save me'.

but i'll have to study for higher chinese 'O' levels first.

your eyes

you've got a dazzle in your eyes. they shine so brightly.

the only times i see them are those rare few times i bump into you. but they never fail to twinkle like the stars above.

drinks for $1

today was rjc's open house and matriculation day. fortunately we didn't have to hand in the subject combination forms on the spot. there's time until tuesday.

after that was interclass soccer. didn't really sit and watch it. couldn't. i went to help the 4F group to sell drinks. One dollar one dollar, hello one dollar~

and you looked happy again.

the heart asks pleasure first.

matriculate

to admit or be admitted into a group, especially a college or university.

ok tomorrow's matriculation day. don't know what to pick. maybe i'll be:

an environmentalist and tie myself to a tree in the amazon
an accountant
a violist/violinist
a teacher
a psychologist
a lawyer

argh what subjects to take?

twinkle twinkle

how much weight have i put on?

big day

yay finished common tests today. today's physics paper was so difficult but never mind it's over!
ok today's activities were so fun. spent a long time with linus walking aimlessly around j8 at first. not really aimlessly, we were waiting for shops to open. waiting for the food places and golden village to open. bought tickets for 'skeleton key', then we looked for lunch. linus ate at mcdonald's first. then we went swensen's (yay!). i had breaded chicken menieure (is that how it's spelt/how do you pronounce that?!).

then we bumped into the bishan paedophile at the toilet! ahhhhh so close! and urgh look at the way he smiles =S

ok then we went to watch 'skeleton key'. ah met boonping and benny and sat beside them. no actually we took their seats at first because we didn't want to sit beside people we didn't know. hmm the movie plot is quite smart, but it was so scary and crappy. and the next movie i must watch is 'flightplan'!

after the movie we went back swensen's again. this time it was linus' turn to eat. bumped into jianliang. guess they just finished their history/literature papers. i had a yogen fruz. feel so cheated. it was so little for $4. then raywen and a whole group also appeared with ms low. oh it was leck hung's birthday.

and finally the climax of the day, possibly my life until now, was swensen's earthquake! omg the portion was sooooo big. when the waiter put it on my table i was like stunned. i thought i could settle it myself but i didn't know the scoops were sooooo big! it oh-so extremely sinful. ok so i settled 6 out of 8 scoops and linus did 2. and we played with the dry ice they gave by putting it in the water. it bubbled bubbled bubbled. so cute! ok so at the end of it i was really bloated with ice cream. like just pure ice cream.

today's spending:
mcdonald's $4
breaded chicken menieure $12.60++
skeleton key $7
yogen fruz $4++
earthquake $16.80++

not doing that again in a year.

you looked happy today. i guess it's because i wasn't there too. but that's ok, because you are happy. and that's enough for me. as long as you are happy.

snowman

when you throw a yoyo, it flies out of your hand, but soon enough it returns to you. when i hold a plastic bag, i think it's your hand.

maths test today was so easy! but so many mistakes again.

ahh tiramisu first episode! so nice! tomorrow i'll be watching skeleton key, then i guess i'll go shopping alone, again.

broadway

when i can no longer see you, i don't want you to love me out of sympathy.

maybe you have a glass shoe

argh chemistry test is so very demoralising. but never mind it's just 2 more days.

geography paper also so xiong. my god.

eh?

don't feel sad that it's over. be happy that it happened.

yea right. that just doesn't apply for common tests.

love me for who i am

trying my best to forget you.

chain rule: keep constant, bring down power, copy back, reduce power by one, differentiate inside

product rule: keep the second one differentiate the first one, plus, keep the first one differentiate the second one

quotient rule: keep the bottom differentiate the top, minus, keep the top differentiate the bottom, whole thing divide by the bottom square

spent half the day with ziteng figuring out just what the difference between a chromosome and chromatid is. like does a normal cell have chromosomes or chromatids? then studied geography also.

world trade has two main concepts:
1. countries form unions to remove tariffs. so they reduce the price of goods they trade, and this increases customers.
2. countries in unions set up trade barriers to protect union goods against cheaper goods from LDCs, LDCs in turn find it harder and harder to sell their products into the world market.

heavy rain today. and there's no rainbow.

quality time

woke up so early on a saturday (0730h). raywen pig woke up much later. spent half my day at raywen pig's house studying chemistry. hmm actually it was a quarter of the day in the reading room. ahh the 4 walls! like some jail cell, a really conducive environment for studying. then after a gruelling 3.5 hours, went up to his house. and raywen pig slept for so long while i played on the piano. then we went for lunch at empress place food centre. we had ivan's porridge. really, that's the stall name. and raywen pig had char kway teow too. omg i had this cadbury 'boost' chocolate bar from the 7-eleven store. went back to his house. raywen pig lazed around even more, then we went out again. he went church while i went home. but raywen pig was still very sleepy.

chemical energetics + reaction kinetics
sulphur + ammonia
electrolysis + electric cell
organic chemistry + polymer chemistry

apply systems: input, process, output
apply scale: local, regional, global
apply change: short term, middle term, long term
apply models: rostow, clark, dependency
categorise: positive, negative
box up: economic, social, political, environmental
types of economic activity: primary, secondary, tertiary
apply equilibrium: solutions, evaluate

it actually kinda makes my day

avril lavigne's 'i don't give a damn'

whee

somehow i don't feel very stressed. just feel like whacking all the papers and ending the year with a bang!

last academic day

ok, so tomorrow will mark the start of the common tests.

had a pillow fight today. ahh malcolm took both the pillows and kept hitting me! i think i'll miss timon's pillow.

made a blind memory today as well. it takes 68 steps from senior block to the spiral staircase, and 16 round pillars from staff room 1 to the prefects' room window. the spiral staircase at admin block have 23 steps from level 1 to level 2, while the gryphon's lair staircase has 12 steps, followed by the semicircle turn about the big red tube, and then another 12 steps.

just in case i go blind.

self denial

you taught me:
hope
dream
love
gratitude

heaven:
no pain
no hurt
no separation

lasts

today was the last pe lesson in my four years in ri. i couldn't get up the rock wall, but never mind, we got into the sponge pool. and i got onto the trampoline. today was also the last biology lesson. and today was the last geography lesson.

it kind of hurts to have so many lasts coming at one go. all within one day.

and yesterday was last english and physics lesson. aiyo i think i will miss them so much. english lessons are quite quite interesting, and physics lessons are the most fun! i think everyone will miss ms huang so much. and mrs ong too.

oh my! 'evil symptoms' actually won a merit prize.

i'm going to make a memory, do you want to follow me?

degenerative

ahh the hamster ate one of her babies yesterday. all that's left is a body with 3 legs =( maybe she's too tired of giving birth.

chameleons can change their skin colour to camouflage in their environment. wonder how they do that. how does the chameleon detect the colour(s) of the surroundings and change to the specific colour(s)? hmm even the mascot for our singapore green plan is a chameleon.

interestingly, some people can change their colours like a chameleon. 见风使舵. that's what we call it in mandarin. but i guess that'll be nice, because you can look like a rainbow! are you a chameleon? i would like to be one, so i can look very colourful!

the last week

so this really is the last last last week of the year. and then after the common tests everything will be over. i guess everything is going to be ok. right?

it's been 109 days.

if it's any consolation for you, i'll die eventually.

confession

i woke up at 1230h today

like some sleep-inducing thing

spin
spin
spin

photonics II

yay today physics advanced so fun!

hmph spent the whole day at ziteng's house doing work. supposed to give tuition but always no money. never mind, must not be so materialistic right?

and my sister thinks that the hamster is pregnant again >.< until now, we have 2+4+5 hamsters. hmm maybe she'll give birth to 6 this time!

downloaded gershwin's prelude no.1. hmm next piece to try.

mudpie

yucks coffee bean's mudpie is really bad!!!!!! it's so sticky and so urgh. makes you feel like you're full after one or two bites. so much unlike the sheraton towers mudpie, or the nydc mudpies.

whack whack whack

common tests next week. and then the year will come to an end. study? maybe not, i haven't had enough shopping yet.

wah didn't do that badly for chinese prelims!

and he's not stupid. you are.

instruction manual

took train with kaixiong and ziteng today. we came up with a list of ways to kill yourself:

starve yourself
eat yourself
lie in front of an aeroplane
pop your head into an aeroplane engine turbine, because you will get lots of people to accompany you down
put your finger into a blender and let it move down slowly
put a blender on top of your head and let it move down slowly

you ogre.

thank you for believing that it was not me.

big bullies

rock climbing yesterday. so hard to climb, especially with sweaty palms and feet. slipped when i was quite high. much to your disappointment, i didn't die.

didn't do too badly for maths test.

just like a food chain.

holding hands.

consider this my two weeks notice

giving myself 24 hours, till 0000h october 6, thursday.

and that's not fair

just saw raywen's tagboard. fine, so i only know how to cry. i only know how to let you bully me and not do anything about it. so what am i supposed to do this time? when will you stop bullying me?

just what do you want me to do? you don't want me to call you. you don't want me to sms you. you don't want me to talk to you. what else do you not want me to do? so you can make all your requests, you can make me not do all those things, but i can't ask you to stop bullying me? or is it that i'm not allowed to ask you to stop bullying me, because that's how the game play is? everything is by your rules? you set your rules and bully me, and i'm not allowed to do anything about it?

fine, i accept it. i'll take everything. because it was my fault anyway.

and brian you can stop laughing. you know it yourself. you may start a convo later with a 'when did i laugh?' but you know it deep inside yourself. all this time you have been laughing. go ahead, join in the laughter. i think i'll be better off alone. you don't have to come and comfort me after i get bullied. and you also don't have to tell people to stop bullying me. because apparently when people bully me, you are there laughing along with them. or maybe you wouldn't even start a convo.

conscious writing

what's the point of calling someone stupid when he wouldn't understand it? what's the point of lying to yourself when you know that you are lying?

saw the cathode ray oscilloscope today.

another message from the friendster bulletin:

to the people who have like 400+ friends, are you serious? nobody in this universe has that many friends... you're stupid.

if people are ugly, stop saying you're jealous of their beauty. don't ever post pictures and say "omg im so ugly". because if you were, you wouldn't post them.

no little 6 year old with bloody eyeballs is going to come through your window and kill you.

your crush isn't going to call you, email you, or tell you he loves you.

who really gives a rat's ass if you have very few friends and not enough testimonials.

little 6th and 7th graders who have friendster and looking like sluts, go somewhere else because nobody wants you here.

i say you go and pass this on, maybe it will finally get through people's brains, IF THEY HAVE ONE.

if you have decided to read this, you are a true friendster friend. it serves to eliminate people who are desperately trying to add "friends" like it's a popularity contest in high school.

common tests are coming. hope that you will do well. hope that i haven't made you stressed all this time. as for me, i'll take my time to forget you, since time heals everything. i love you.

all of the memories so close to me just fade away

avril lavigne's 'my happy ending'

time will heal everything

that's what you told me. that's what you always told me. you knew very well it was not true. but that's what you always told me.

liar.

send me a sign

pooka!

watched random cds of 'stairway to heaven' again. my god so sad she went blind. and she cried so hard.

photonics

had physics advanced class today on photonics. oh my so cheem. haha ms huang didn't have any answers to the questions in the worksheet.

took her car to queenstown haha. so funny she really drove adnaan out of school. like literally out. just directly at the gate!

once upon a december

played hexic so many times today. and my high score is 132 845 now! today i got 2 black pearls! yay!

watched anastasia today. so totally love the songs in the show.

happy children's day!