vice principal

i hate the way some people just don't care about how i feel. and zhu en needs to stop being so shamelessly greedy. i think i saw ms patsy chua on the train, but she doesn't teach at fairfield anymore. i remember seeing blue flowers outside central green.

just how many rejections can you face in one day?

dilution factors

i just woke up from a deep sleep.

the weather today has been ridiculous. the mega-big storm in the morning flooded bishan very quickly. i was sharing my puny umbrella with two other people, and that's not very impressing, is it? the rain made my pants and shoes wet. and it was my first time observing horton overland flow, knowing that it is horton overland flow.

it was a hectic morning, from trying to dry everything to finish wrapping up the remaining presents. i think mr sze's and ms koo's presents were the nicest. beejuan drew a really cute doraemon for her art teacher. after that we went to the hall and the first thing we saw was mr tham dancing on stage. and it was not bad too. the council made a really funny video clip of how the super teachers save everyone. i particularly liked the spiderwoman and mr leong ones.

shanghui's physics teacher was carrying this cute boy who kept walking around and pointing everywhere, but no one could understand him. that's sad, isn't it? sonya made so many cupcakes, and they were so nice. peanut butter and banana. i managed to bring back five. on our way out, beejuan mega-slipped down the stairs and i think everyone has some sort of stairsphobia now.

beejuan, siuchu and jia en all went back to their secondary school. so i went next door too. i forgot one thing though, that you were from the same class as me. it was quite difficult to find the teachers amongst such big crowds. then i saw raywen, and tianmun, and zhehan, and adrian, and stuart, and jeremy, and many others. on impulse, i walked over to tianmun, but then i realised that you were there too. and so i didn't follow.

i found haojin and kaixiong, though. we went to find mrs chan, who teaches sec1s now. then mrs chan said that many teachers were not here today. ms grace and ms low were on course, and so was mrs ong =( i saw mrs kua, whom i told chemistry at jc was so difficult. she said she warned us before not to take chemistry. then mr tan came out. we admitted that we haven't touched chinese in a long time and he suggested blogging in mandarin.

then i saw you again. well, this time, neither of us ran away. but i hated the way you just treated me as glass. and a broken one too. boonping was busy with his friends, so i went back alone. honestly, i wanted to join your group to find the teachers. and honestly, i missed you after i left. but you've always made me cry, whether you cared or not.

i was walking in the light drizzle to the mrt, hoping that everything would wash away and fade into nothingness. i was feeling awful on the train home, and i can't believe in miracles anymore. i still love you.

there's still syo later. today's a cold, cold day. but it's ok, a deep sleep makes you forget everything.

why-why not?

i can't decide whether or not to go back to fairfield tomorrow. i still have syo tomorrow, and that's so terrible =( the muah chee i bought just now was nice and sweet. and ba gua is not cheap. i want to watch 'the devil wears prada'.

i asked someone today, 'do you still think that he likes you?'

forum

it's been a gloomy day today. it would have been a short day if not for the s-cube talk. and, the talk was really ridiculous. it's so obvious that everything was scripted to happen in the manner that it did.

was in the art room with yiyan, jia en and beejuan. ah art club is so fun. i also want to do pottery. anyway, while we were there, someone entered the art room. if i were to tell a certain someone about who it was, then that certain someone is sure to be (very) jealous.

my expenses this week are so high. and you walked past me today. at least you didn't run/jump away, but neither did you look at me. my void deck was extremely dark when i reached home.

is the rain ever going to stop?

sui generis

i still saw you at civics even though you tried to hide. beejuan said you looked quite stupid doing that. i did undesirably for the physics test. but once again, the teacher calculated my marks wrongly. i should have gotten 22, not 20. omg yiyan scored 25. tell me whether he mugs or not.

gp is terrible! what do we have to make our point! may i rest my head, please?

pe was quite fun. i was doing gym training, and zhichao was supervising weiyang. and weiyang's so piggy! he finished in like ten minutes and ran off to eat! there was extra maths lesson so we had to stay back. (weiyang had disappeared already.)

i walked past a classroom while going to maths. then i saw you, and i missed you. 1.5 hours of extra maths tutorial is the bomb. siuchu had a camera, which i was playing with. i took a photo of clara's sigma notation which looked like a koala. then, james was angry. i waved at timon and haojin when they walked past my classroom. practised writing chinese names like mine, joel's and clara's.

there wasn't h3 maths today, and there won't be on thursday either.

i was thinking, that if we were together, you would love me a lot.

mini canteen

clara's bad. she keeps taking jia en's bottle to shake. but i like to do that too! today, the bottle went all the way around the classroom during gp lesson. mean as he seems, james never shook the bottle, though. by the way, gp lesson was terrible. and the classroom was too hot.

tiffany turned up today with a super cool hairstyle. it's damn nice! sonya came with some chocolates that were super good too. we brought all the presents that we bought yesterday, and we were wrapping them up! i wrapped ms koo's one quite nicely ok! oh yes, during maths lesson (or at the end of the lesson), the clock on the wall just crashed down for no reason. luckily, no one was standing under it.

i won a chocolate from mr tham by guessing his extension number. it was a 50-50 chance anyway. there was extra physics lesson, but i couldn't concentrate for long anyway. i bumped into ben, alex and davidson on my way to the canteen after school. so, ben claims that he gets A for chemistry.

actually, i saw you queuing at stall 5 today. i was at stall 4, and i felt quite sad. right now, i miss you terribly. a lot has been happening in class lately. at this rate, jia en and siuchu will have dance partners at rjc prom night 2007.

there's a mad rush to find some unknown person.the moon tonight is smiling. say 'miso pretty' in the beejuan way. beejuan's right - it's not a common condition. any queries? any problem?

the constantan wire

ok, firstly only i and weiyang were early. the rest were so late! we were at the aquarium at wisma at first. i couldn't find the pink-tail fish. weiyang kept saying that it had died. and the shark wasn't there anymore. there was a boy that kept shouting 'dory! dory!' at the fish that wasn't a dory.

fish are friends, not food.

when siuchu, jia en and beejuan arrived, they owed weiyang and me ben and jerry's. we started looking for the teachers' day presents. wow some teachers were really difficult to settle. we walked past kalm's, and i suddenly remembered one of priscilla's compositions. she had written about shopping at kalm's. yiyan came when we were at art-friend, which was such a cool shop with all it's woody stuff.

we had dinner at pepper lunch. it was quite a cool concept, to cook our own food. and then we went to borders, where weiyang and i found the best deal ever for 'harry potter and the half-blood prince'. omg boonping was right - i just had to wait for the price to drop before buying it. and guess what? it was selling for $9.95 at borders! then we went to marks and spencer, where yiyan and i bought this super nice chocolate lolly! and weiyang bought that damn-nice viennese swirls.

omg today is 几 fat! we were outside this doll shop at wheelock and we noticed this eerie doll that seemed to follow us with its eyes. there was a time when i thought asterix was the big guy, but actually the big guy was obelix.

i was waiting for the lift, and i could swear i saw someone in a zebra shirt!

doctor

i dreamt of finding magic stones that were so glowy. it was so exciting. i woke up and found project work tasks in my inbox. finished them in one hour yay! and it's shopping for teachers' day presents later!

rumba

i'm up so late because i just finished my part of the bibliography for writte report. i just found the recording for jamaican rumba from leening's blog! jonathan drew a very cute/ugly pig (or some pig derivative) on my jamaican rumba score haha.

probability = 2

bumped into adriel on my way to syo. and he had a friend with him. shanghui's new haircut is quite funny. i've got viola posture problems. ibert flute concerto is so difficult. oh my handphone dropped like half a level when i was walking down the stairs. it was so embarrassing and i had to move through so many barriers before i could get to my handphone. luckily i'm slim =) nothing was wrong with my handphone and thus i conclude that nokia is unbreakable.

i've got glitter on my feet now.

sarabande

i was kicking a small stone on my way while walking into school. it was quite fun. i was pissed at having to wait for so long after pe. managed to get the fish at stall 6 while beejuan didn't. and weiyang got it too ha.

chemistry practical was quite fun. but it was smelly. we did distinguishing tests for cyclohexene, ethanal, propanone and ethanol. i didn't do the iodoform and bromine water test. but i did the tollens' test and it was so nice to get the silver mirror! i didn't get to smell iodoform so i don't know what mr tham was talking about.

i remembered mrs kua showing us the tollens' test in sec3. we were all staring at the round-bottomed flask that she was shaking and shaking. the mixture was black, and we just kept staring until we suddenly realised that we were looking at our own reflection.

i was angry today and i missed you. i didn't get to see you. funny how you always walk past me when i least expect it. holberg suite was one of the first things i played with rise.

paraphrase 'marriage'

i went to a place where i shouldn't have been last night. and then i chickened out of the thing. slept not-so-well, and got scalded by cheese (can you believe it?) this morning.

chemistry test today was so irritating. i think during the promotional examinations i should just skip the mcqs. it's really not worth the time trying to solve them. i feel so bad for not helping amanda cut the queue during recess, then she had to queue on her own later. but i really don't like people when they cut my queue.

physics mock spa today was so crappy. the experimental set-up was so complicating i was going to cry. and then the plotting of the graph was even more confusing. but i managed to point out enough sources of error and suggestions for improvement. and because the experiment involved marbles, it was very funny when mr sze asked us at the end of the lesson to 'check if you still have two marbles'.

there was a teacher who entered the lift, and then the lift refused to move anymore, so james had to come out of the lift so that everyone else could use it haha. evaluation of material has been submitted, and i'm so relieved that it's over. now it's just the written report left.

h3 maths today was quite easy. and lianghan bullied me =( shanghui said 'too bad.' shanghui's mum bought dinner and it's such a nice gesture. syo rehearsal today was quite boring. i don't like weber, but i like glazunov!

why do you keep walking past me this week? i don't want it anymore. i hate you. i was on the train home today when i realised that i don't know how to do anything but play 'puzzle'. i can't be super smart like clara in chemistry, geography and maths, like tiffany in physics, like james in gp, or like shanghui in h3 maths. i can only play 'puzzle' and try to beat my high scores.

i wish everything was normal, but i don't want to pretend that nothing ever happened. and i don't think you have to pa-ra-phrase something like 'marriage'.

atonement

evaluation of material was such a nightmare yesterday. i realised that i misread my article and had to re-do the entire thing! then somehow when i needed to find the author of the article i stumbled upon another, and the new article was very similar to my first one. i think my first one was cut out from the new one, and it's by the same writer. omg how lucky was that? but anyway i spent 3.5 hours doing it. kelly and shanghui so nice, they helped me check my document.

geography debate today was quite easy haha, because mr lee was tired/sleepy (and everyone else was)! the debate was so sedated that the two guys beside me were drawing siuchu. maths today seemed to be very short. i finished the required questions way early. then there were two bonus questions, and i did the first one wrongly so i had to re-do it, and so i didn't have time to do the second bonus question.

attended the gp talk today by neil humphreys and he is so so so funny! although once in a while he (almost) swears, i like the way he engages the audience to listen to him. and his stories just kept making everyone laugh!

last chamber rehearsal before the break for revision. shanghui pseudo-scolded me =( and he can play capteh. he said that it was quite easy to play, after i told him that i couldn't play it. i accidentally 'cleared text' twice today. so irritating. i saw my primary school chinese teacher at tiong bahru plaza when i went for dinner! but i didn't wave to her, and she didn't recognise me. and she has two children now!

is it the seventh month again? i'm scared of ghosts and i need you to protect me from them. everyone's against me today. we walked past each other twice. and you just walked past. i don't like you. and i miss you.

tete-a-tete

omg my alarm clock didn't ring this morning. i checked it later, it was set at 7am! today was quite a bad day. i saw you everywhere i went. wrote like crazay during geography test. and siu chu's pen ink stinks. my stomach hurt during chemistry lecture, and it was such a distraction.

omg it's second day that ms ooi isn't here. project work's evaluation of material is due soon. i saw you again at the canteen.

you're good at being bad, and bad at being good.

过去式

i've finally won sonya's palmtop at solitaire! beejuan brought her africa photos! omg the place looks so nice, but there weren't any lions =( and i/we think she has a new-found boyfriend (beejuan says 'bullshit!')! the gp comprehension test today was so crappy. i thought it was quite fun at first, but after not being able to complete it after two hours i was starting to get tired of it.

beejuan was doing her physics paper haha. she dragged to me wheelock to shop at marks and spencer for biscuits. oh dear i'm going to eat all the rich foods again =( incidentally, i dreamt of bingeing last night.

three nights ago i dreamt that people were taking me away, and i was going to cry.

i saw you at your classroom today. mr tham was forcing us to consider singapore's security today during civics lesson. and i'm quite happy today because i solved my pigeonhole problem and i managed to talk to someone.

salvage

i've major-slept today. finally finished reading my notes on hydroxy compounds. did some geography homework and watched 'exorcism of emily rose'. i read about chimeras in an outdated copy of 'time' magazine.

pensieve

i saw priscilla on tv yesterday! haha our budding journalist. maybe she'll be our future anchorwoman on channel newsasia! anyway, then i told kaiherng and carmen about it. and we started making lots of memories about fairfield!

we remembered the aladdin maths game, the carmen sandiego english game, the maths blaster game and the ugly pms (primary maths syllabus) game. the old fairfield before renovation had the pp rooms where we did buddy-reading, and where the p1 and p2 classes will gather every morning/afternoon while the prefects would patrol around. then i remembered how yeenseen would always win me in every test just by that bit. so irritating!

esmeralda

menu du jour: you!

glazunov today was so embarrassing! mr tan tried to make the violas change finger positions to avoid the A string, and i kept playing wrongly =( hmph everyone was laughing. i like 'dance of the blessed spirits'. we almost got one hour off because mr tan thought rehearsal ended at 4.30pm, but shanghui told him that it was supposed to be 5.30pm despite everyone's coughs and ahems.

cretinously cute.

mahjong

today's pe was shit again. i ate so much during the break and i think i put back a lot of fat. then the lift was pissing us off by stopping at level 1M and going up twice, when we were all waiting at level 1. i saw you walking down the stairs, but i don't think i felt anything, so that's good.

climbed the bloody seven levels. weiyang says that 18th august should be declared 'menses day' because it seemed that everyone was having menses today. weiyang had some funny jokes. how do you get cyclohexanone? from cyclone! sonya had some cool hairstyle. it was like braided on one side and then the whole thing bunned up. mr sze's so nice, he bought us chocolates from england! i should have taken the blue one!

joined the maths remedial class today, so that (hopefully) the environment would be conducive enough to help me finish the tutorial on summation. oh my goodness the class was how noisy! but anyway i still finished my tutorial in two hours. i don't like mathematical induction so much now.

i've realised just how obnoxious some people can get. people who simply think that they're never wrong. and he's such an ass!

i saw some spectacular clouds today. they happened to be at the edge of the suns rays so the silver lining was extremely clear. i'm so sad that i didn't have a good camera to take that picture. but it was very beautiful.

copyright. copy is right.

invitation

i tried the chemistry crossword of the day. i managed to get one answer out of mr tham. 2,4-dinitrophenylhydrazine is also called 'brady's reagent'. but i couldn't complete two questions so i decided not to submit it since everyone else would have submitted completed and correct ones. clara knew the answers but she wouldn't tell me!

beejuan gave us bracelets from africa! and today i tried the muah chee in school. yishi and weiyang bought the malt candy (which was very hard to eat) and dragon beard candy (so long never eat!).

huixing shot me with a vernier caliper. i was going mad at physics practical because it was so irritatingly difficult. then clara was going mad at swapnil because of project work. then 'who died?' received our draft of the written report and it was good! yay so much less work to do (for now).

we learnt the pigeonhole principle in h3 maths today. it's such a cute name for something so simplistic. but it was difficult to apply the principle. which came first? the pigeon or the pigeonhole?

lianghan bullied me today, while raywen and shanghui just stood there laughing. i think shanghui intended to continue laughing until i fell down the stairs. i've just found out that carbon-1 on the benzene is named 'ipso', and the -sh functional group is called 'thiol'. omg i was so close to guessing the last two answers to the chemistry crossword of the day. i managed to guess until 'thio-' and 'ipso' was one of my choices.

my heart melted once today.

beyond

beejuan's back! and with biscuits and chocolate! got a cute key chain from clara today. we learnt mathematical induction. it's so fun. i'm going to take the early train every morning from now on. ms ku said that the violin 2s need to use my spectacles.

he gave her a tart,
she should return a fart,
and then they'll never part
(by kelly and me haha)

saponify

this is another 'la valse'. but i think this player has very funny facial expressions.

v = r(omega)

slept quite little last night. my mum's ill and we had to send her to the hospital. the feeling of not knowing what to do does unsettle me a lot. i'm going to be a part-time cinderella now, having to do housework and laundry.

on my nerves. i scored way below high-score at 'puzzle' this morning on the train. starting to get stressed. today's physics test was still do-able. i'm having a good feeling about promotional examinations. skipped one h3 maths lecture to go home and do laundry. i almost got trapped in a lift just now.

joel has flown off for three years now. are you coming back at all?

i haven't been staring too much. i need you now, please.

penchant

one of my doodles during gp.

fatuous

i saw you at the lift today. walked away to take the stairs, but my classmates didn't. i don't know if walking away was the right thing, because either way i shouldn't have felt anything. i felt terrible. i was trying very hard to remember how to get to paragon by walking through wisma quickly. i was almost lost on my way back. the bus that i wait for always comes very promptly. are you the trombonist?

i've been doodling during gp lessons.

wi(n)dow

i cried a lot last night. woke up early today for violin lesson. had my first hotcakes in a very long time. my violin teacher says that ravel's sonata for violin and piano is nice. when i reached home, i went to sleep again.

had a terrible nightmare. i was running in a multi-storey carpark for some reason. then, a policeman found me and took me out. i came out and walked off crying. wanted to throw myself in front of a bus, but ended up crying by the road. some people came and tried to kill me. ran away. ran into a church.

it's amazing, i'm studying for promotional examinations without actually intending to. you see, even zhehan calls me to ask about physics. and i managed to recite the equation for velocity of an object performing simple harmonic motion.

went to ikea with my auntie. omg spent so much on food again. ikea was crowded like some madhouse. it was the last three days of the annual clearance sale. there was a lady carrying a carpet who would step on you (accidentally), hit you with the carpet (accidentally), and then run off. i've taken the first step to make sure 11th april 2007 happens, and that is to buy strings and take free paper from ikea.

'cakes' and 'baker' are derived from the same key-presses on the handphone.

youtube = useful

this is some ravel to intrigue you.

playground

my joints are aching from yesterday's shit.

i thought i had lost my mechanical pencil forever. but i found it again, after two weeks. anyway, it wasn't mine - i picked it up a long time ago. it's as though everything that you lose can be found again, just as it is. syo ended slightly early today because mr lim was going to attend the wedding of this alumni trumpeter by the name of isaac. the bride's an alumni violist.

it's a crimson sky today. i fear the day someone tells me you're getting married too.

walk with me

cinderella had it easy. if she didn't have her fairy godmother, she wouldn't get her glass shoes. belle had it easy. if her father didn't wnder into the enchanted castle, she wouldn't have met the beast. snow white had it easy. if she didn't have a wicked queen, she wouldn't have bitten the poisoned apple.

i do miss you.

plonk

there are eleven days left for evaluation of material. i dreamt of you last night, but i can't remember exactly what it was about.

first lesson of the day was pe. it was back to shit. but today i ran very fast. don't know why, just felt like it. amanda said i was running like there was no tomorrow, or something along that line. consider it my punishment for eating too much over the national day holidays.

mr tham woke james up during chemistry tutorial with a very silent 'boo.' it was so funny. james was mean today. i can't/don't know what do anything about it. like stephanie said, i'll lose to him. i was so angry today because i spent two hours trying to solve question 5 of maths assignment. it wasn't easy considering the fact that jia en, yiyan and weiyang were so noisy on my left, and james and stephanie were equally distracting in front of me. even my buccal cavity has an ulcer now.

the chemistry jokes pasted around the school are really quite lame. and some teachers have a dry sense of humour. i was talking with raywen today. haven't done that in a long time. we did one part of a physics question together. so yay, i've started revising for physics promotional examinations. i bought a chocolate fudge ice cream for him. see, i'm so nice.

was at the library with siuchu doing some project work (which sucks). james was at another corner with his group doing project work too. i just don't understand why we must do this project work. omg siuchu was in the lift today and she was standing very close to this certain someone because the lift was very crowded.

there was a mad rush to university cultural centre for the rise concert. i was on the taxi with ruolin, zhaohan and nicolson. we were gossiping haha. anyway i accidentally said something to shanghui today. i still can't talk to someone who told me to go away. anyway, it was a bad concert experience. the ri people sitting around me were so damn noisy. mr sze's conducting is still as good as ever. wangxiang sits like zhaohan does. yuze's bass solo in pulcinella suite was so cute. villa-lobos was interesting. but the orchestra couldn't agree on intonation.

i had to go back by myself. i was almost lost and i got scared. luckily, i walked in the right direction and my intuition brought me to the right bus stop where i could take bus 33. the moon tonight is so mystical. it's got this yellowish hue that makes it look so gentle. so, i was back on 33, taking that same old route i used to take five years ago, from fairfield. actually, the bus ride was quite a lonely one.

the bus passed by fairfield. i remember going to the back of aldersgate to do homework everyday, until one day a worker brought us into the church to use it to do homework. the children at the childcare service always said the same prayer before eating. it went 'dear God, thank you for the food, and bless the hands that prepared them.' the bus then passed by that creepy-looking house at warwick road. it's called 'normanton estate' i think. later, many ikea workers got on. this was my first time seeing ikea workers knock off.

i also remembered that that year we had sars, mrs nara was telling the class to take care of ourselves by eating the right foods. she suggested garlic, and timon burst out laughing saying that it caused release of gas. mrs nara said that it was the point - to release the toxins by farting!

i wish i was in a car. but then again, stephanie suggested that i be less clingy. i think the back view of a couple is quite sweet. i had a late-night mcdonald's binge after coming back from the concert.

replay

i like listening to my recording of ravel's la valse. my sister doesn't like it when the orchestra gets too loud. she makes me turn the volume down when it's too loud. so, i can't hear it anymore when the orchestra goes to pianissimo. she can't understand that the music must have its fortes and fortissimos and sforzandos and pianos and pianissimos. it must have its cymbal clashes and piercing brasses and dissonant chords and gentle oboe solos and sinister double bass pizzicatos.

phish

this is the 600th entry. i'm trying to clear the clutter in my inbox, and i realised that ms ooi is very good at flooding it with gp articles. i learnt that 'tgif' stands for 'thank goodness it's friday'. evaluation of material is due very soon and i don't have an article yet. i remember someone who eats onion rings at burger king using a straw because he hasn't washed his hands.

rise concert is tomorrow. i can't wait to see the programme booklet. tgif tomorrow!

development

last night stephanie helped me realise that i actually like some people more than i like myself. this morning i got woken up super early by siuchu at 11am. it was supposed to be project work meeting at 12.30pm. then there was some mix-up. so, siuchu came at 11am and woke me up. urgh.

nadz and stephanie came later, but yiyan never appeared. i think that was another mix-up. i also think that i've been a terrible host. i was compiling some more surveys and i found the copy that james did. his handwriting is just so nice that it's unmistakable. and i found clara's too. the sardonic but helpful responses were uniquely clara.

today's yishi's birthday. it's also national day. year after year, i think i'm losing my interest in watching the parade. in fact, i was out having dinner (the 几 fat indonesian grill again) with mummy and daddy during the parade. i even missed the starting of the fireworks on tv when i came back. yes, we are a nation strong and free. we are also a democratic society with people like boon liwen and his (bitch) classmates.

this post came in very late because i spent 45 minutes writing an email for my project work group members. i'm so satisfied with that email. it was so colourful and specific that i'm very sure everyone knows exactly what to do. i miss my orientation group. i miss you too.

i've been told that i was clingy to some people. i should stop being clingy.

geometrically arithmetic

my recalcitrant fingers don't want to play chopin's waltz anymore. sonya implied that i'm not fat when she said it was amazing that i'm not obese given how much i like chocolate. yay! if you're broke and have no money for food, you're in for a treat! everyone seems to be leaving food along the roads for the ghosts, but then i think you're allowed to eat it too!

an online inkblot test tells me that my unconcious mind is most driven by reserve. it says that i like to be in control, and that i may seem mysterious or enigmatic to others. cautious about truly expressing myself, even those who have known me for a long time may find it hard to get close to me. (as though anyone would want to.)

oprah winfrey says that you are not your past. you are the possibilities of your future.

watch these!

this is probably some infringement of copyright, but since someone has uploaded it on youtube, then why not watch du pré play elgar?

duet waltz

i've told you not to tell me to go away again, but you've done it anyway. i dreamt that joel came back without letting me know. and it wasn't the didn't-let-me-know-because-it's-a-surprise kind of thing, but simply because he didn't remember me. he didn't recognise me when he saw me.

today was national day celebration. weiyang brought some really yummy chocolates! and then there was nothing much other than that. there was kaiyang's band, which was so good! shanghui was on stage too. sonya fell for kaiyang's singing. and then there was mr siva's band. siuchu brought her chess set. i wanted to play, but james took it away to play first. but i still got to play later. mr tham brought us ice cream, like those tubs that i binge from sometimes.

i would love to play with you.

i just came back from a very stressful chamber rehearsal. it's certainly not one of those things i would sign up for, however effective it is in getting to perfection. oh well, when tempers run high, it's easy to lose your head. but i cannot be part of a group driven primarily by the need to outdo the rival.

i see red everywhere. it's like an army, but it's just the national day celebrations. i wanted to take a photo of an adorable cat standing on two legs today. then, i remembered that i used to run towards cats and birds to scare them away.

sinusoidal

i was sitting alone in the parade square this morning. it was quite nice. i enjoy doing that every morning, because the feeling's so uniquely peaceful, until people start to come in. this morning i imagined your arms around me, and you were blowing gently and playfully into my ear. just the two of us.

geography lessons are always fun with mr lee around - we watched 'the ring' for fun. haha paul was scared! you should read his entry on being a man at http://nonsenseinmyhead.blogspot.com. we had the gp essay test today. i wrote the exact same thing as i did in last year's common test 2. we got back our results slip for the common tests. i'm so happy that my percentile for my four core subjects are so high (95.4%, 90.6%, 97.0%, 81.0%!), but my gp was at 19.2%. i'm sure shanghui's are all like at least 95%.

attended the chemistry week round one quiz. the paper was quite interesting, and quite quite challenging. but it really has helped me revise some semester one work. so yay i've started on revision for promotional examinations. beejuan's in africa now. that's like so fun! i hope she gets some photos of lions.

feel an urge to bake something nice for tomorrow, but there's no time. and, season finale of desperate housewives is on soon!

someone once told me that i wasn't stupid. i just needed to be less undecided. (and decide on the right things.) well, heck the 'right things' part, because no one knows what's right. i miss you, and i don't care what others say.

vavoom

titrate A against B, B for burette. i'm so glad i've finished going through the notes on halogenoalkanes. now it's on to hydroxy compounds. i'm afraid of telling jokes that no one finds funny. can't be like toffa. i saw someone with a bandaged finger looking at stocks. haha he fry股票fry到手指. i'm watching 'journey to the centre of the earth' on central now.

i feel so smart. but you aren't attracted to my intelligence.

material

i put up the national flag today. it's the first time i've done it in my entire life. yay. national day's coming soon, and i'll be doing project work on that day. syo's not playing la valse. instead, we're playing bolero =( honestly, i don't like the way you're invalidating my feelings.

sough

is shanghui going to be the new concertmaster? i think he can dance the rumba. something's wrong with the sun today. it tried to burn everything around me. and then there was some unusual activity going on in the sky. any direction i looked, the sky was different. there were some clouds that glowed orange due to the setting sun, then there was some blue sky, and then there were some isolated dark clouds moving around. i think i saw ghosts too.

pourquoi

i just had indonesian grill for lunch. quoting my cousin, that's like '几 fat'! i've been up the whole morning doing some project work tasks. and then i also have chemistry and h3 maths tutorials. there's syo later. i need some willy wonka chocolates.

are you real? no, you're not. you're

abuse

my sister's back from australia. now i have a new pair of shoes and a bag. i also have lots of goodies (and no nougats)! there're so many that you'll think she went for grocery shopping in australia! and i think the packaging of the chips and chocolates are so beautiful!

i had a terrible dream last night. i dreamt that you burnt to death and i could do nothing but cry. there were many people dying and i was crying even more. then apparently, you didn't die, and i was sitting shyly beside you.

chemistry spa was another nightmare. i did everything so perfectly until the end, when i realised that i overweighed the iron(II) sulphate crystals! i fixed everything back after some quick thinking. so smart!

i remembered the word 'xenophobia'. sonya helped me in that memory. it came from the pets coursebook in primary school. there was a cartoon rabbit that said 'psst! you don't have to learn that word!'

boonping called me 'bitch' so many times today. i was at j8 shopping for food with sonya haha. then, i was on the train alone. discovered that i just had to play a game of 'puzzle' and the train ride would be over before i knew it.

i saw you. i missed you.

progressive regressive digressive

i'm so glad that i managed to sleep at 10pm last night. it's the first time i've done it this year. what an amazing achievement! chemistry tutorial today was quite fun. it was a relief teacher, who let us pick register numbers to answer questions. *james picked me*

it's interesting to look at the contact list on people's handphone. it kind of hints to you what that person thinks about someone else. for example, siuchu puts a picture of a heart beside weiyang's name. and, she labels james as 'miao miao'.

today was mr lim's birthday! oh and shanghui was telling me that he wanted to play in the next rise concert, that he needed some ensemble re-training. then i was thinking and i realised that i missed rise rehearsals too. i think it's masochistic to even miss doing some library work.

seven stages

listen: you may not speak to me, but my ears can hear you. today was the rowdiest of the literature week activities. i'm so sad that i so completely missed the costume parade =( i'm never going to get that moment back. there was some nice food around, but i think i've been cheated of $1. i saw boyle performing later.

i've been stressed lately. today's j2 farewell for chamber was supposed to start at 3pm, but i thought it was 2.30pm. on top of that, i was frantically trying to find the place when i didn't even realise that it was only 2pm. this is when i start to go mad. we watched sue and dawn's video, which was quite funny. then, they played captain's ball (with gross items) while i sat on the watermelon steps and took photos. shanghui kept throwing a metal chain on me.

it was a lonely walk to the mrt, and then a lonely ride back home. i'm scared to death about dying. have to do something to stop myself from sleeping. after the geography term paper fiasco, i should probably get some sleep, but there's project work and promotional examinations now.

i got to touch your hand ever so slightly again. it's the thrill of the rare contact that brings such excitement!

in tandem

my spectacles had tear stains yesterday.

today i was feeling dreadful. that j2 was at it again. it was a tiring day, what with gp. i was falling asleep during chemistry lecture. and then during pe, james kicked a ball right into my stomach. it hurt a lot, but i don't think he even knew. i was in the gym with zhichao. his training is like some man. no wonder he's of brain-gender -40. now we know that beejuan's and zhichao's brain gender scores are not anomalous.

i had my first fruit juice in rjc. honeydew with nata de coco! the lecturer at h3 maths ended (five minutes) early. i waved goodbye to a certain someone, and received one in return! surprisingly, it brightened up my day, even though it was ending soon. and until now, i'm still quite happy. seriously! it was a nice twist to the day, but my stomach still hurts.

i had a feeling of absolute harmony. my spirit must have been moving in tandem with those that have come out to play. (oh and this year there are two seventh lunar months.) i saw a lonely pine tree along bishan road. it waved at me and i waved back. there was accordion music playing in breadtalk, so much like france.

i was having my pasta when i suddenly remembered how i first got to know the f word. huizhen had taught me that word in primary school. she said the word was 'i see you see i see you'. go figure that out. haha i didn't get it at first, and then when she wrote it down on paper i actually said the word out. (and pronounced it correctly the first time!) 'shush!' she had exclaimed.

i had the chocolate mousse at pastamania. i was angry at this couple for having blocked my way on the escalotor and making me miss the train. however, the next train was quite empty, so it was ok. you must have some feelings. i hope you'll die, and take your love philosophies together with you.

i just realised that my shoe @ my space is more than a year old now. i missed its first birthday =( there's a mother-big moth in my room and it doesn't want to fly away. i don't understand why they're so light-seeking. i'm going to spoil my eyes because i've switched off the lights in my room to try to make it go away, so i'm typing this in the dark. come to think of it, my monitor is so darn bright.

i'm still happy from the goodbye waves.