supere

come who remembered my birthday this year?

so busy this week, what with syo and rise rehearsals. so tired already, and there's rise concert tomorrow. and syo concert on saturday. hai friday must sleep in.

does this work?

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

pour l'enchainement

smile please.

3 things

1. joel replied!

2. 'i'm not driving you, just to let you know.'

3. 'hey look that's the pro's pro bro and the gender-confused guy.'

please don't do that, it makes me feel bullied. maybe i can't live in groups.

riddikulus

watched harry potter yesterday. so nice! and hermione is so omg getting prettier. i think harry's acting's not very natural though. ron is still better. and voldemort looks so scary... wormtail's such a piece of shit.

and i dyed my hair today morning. (i will turn it back to black on 6th dec for a day.) for now it's red =)

quote

only when the last bit of oxygen is gone
only when the last ray of sunlight is blocked out
only when the last animal dies
only when the last tree has been burnt
only when the last plot of land turns derelict
only when the last drop of water has been used up

will you find that money cannot be eaten.

nutcracker

last night i cried again.

a string affair

pulling strings just doesn't work. my g keeps breaking. but i've just tried the pirastro permanent g and c and it's so omg!

naturel

photo time!

lights out, lin!

darn how come only ziteng's face is not blurred?

very dim, but that's the best i've got.

timmie!

table 16.

guoren. known him since fmps!

hey i took this superstar aikkwan.

then superstar adwen tried to run away.

but i still caught him!

matchstick

can you still remember the cartoon movie with the character nemo? not 'finding nemo'. there was a movie with a boy named nemo who woke up in a dream, and woke up, and woke up, and woke up, and woke up again in a dream. i had some dream last night, and i woke up, but it was still a dream. and i woke up again, still in a dream, and the third time i woke up, it was still a dream. then the fourth time it happened again i was really awake. it was so real.

finally put up the photos on my wall!

in the dawn of morning there lay the poor little one, with pale cheeks and smiling mouth, leaning against the wall; she had been frozen to death on the last evening of the year; and the new year’s sun rose and shone upon a little corpse! the child still sat, in the stiffness of death, holding the matches in her hand, one bundle of which was burnt. “she tried to warm herself,” said some. no one imagined what beautiful things she had seen, nor into what glory she had entered with her grandmother, on new year’s day.

fisics

goblet of

festivities

yay christmas is coming and orchard road was so beautiful last night when i was there. and the decorations in orchard hotel were also very nice. there was an edible gingerbread house, a big christmas tree, and a spinning snowman!

what's the difference between a snowman and a snowwoman?

365 days a year

happy birthday to all those born on 22nd of november! yes i can finally watch nc-16 movies. and johnny rocker was the first to wish me happy birthday this morning. shanghui didn't even remember. that meanie =( anyway i don't really expect to get much presents anymore.

such a gloomy day today.

voila

graduation dinner! hmm i ran out of colours and did black again. tried to look for something to hang around my neck to break the blackish, but couldn't. so i appeared in black top, black bottom, and black shoes. and ziteng looks like a superstar.

dinner was nice. but the programme was much more fun. there were award ceremonies for things like 'most sotong person', 'most manly person', and 'joker of the year'. ithimam (spelling correctly?) sang a few songs, and he sang the 'mice like big rice' song. kaiyang is buaya of the year! there were hiphop dances. and there was lucky draw. omg there was a printer! hmm but i got a thumbdrive. that's nice.

lonely fear lights up the sky
can't help but wonder why

wish you were there to see how happy i was.

mandrake juice

sister's birthday today. didn't know a lot of people at the house. and didn't eat a lot, but was still full enough. the chocolate cake was nice. and so tired today.

starting on harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban again.

listening to bartok's music for strings, percussion and celesta.

love language

went school to print the greenwave poster. yay it looks so nice. and the printer was sooo cool, although i think ms aisha was getting more and more pissed that i didn't know how to do anything. hmm... seemed to be pushing my limits today, what with not wearing school uniform to use the facilities, and saying that i don't know how to use the giant cutter.

then went plaza singapura with boonping and we went fish & co. wah spent so much and ate so much. had the new york fish and chips. eee they used mozzarella for the cheese. don't really like the texture and taste of it. but the water had lemon. how many mah mah jumped over the wall?!?!

shopping craze? spent a long time in times bookstore staring at the diaries. and the sudoku puzzle books! and then went secret recipe and had choc cheez. omg so sinful. and so stupid too. because it was like walk in, order, eat, pay, and go all in five minutes. then twirled round and round the shopping centre. yamaha has five-stringed electric violin/viola!

went action city and bought the test-tube garden thing. hope it grows fast!

taste style

hmm had dinner at tao's at paradiz centre today. it's so omg la! starters, fruit salad, grilled mushrooms, mushroom soup, pork ribs, iced grape mallow tea and crème brûlée! and i really loved the presentation of the dishes. some soups came in classy bowls, and the fish soup came in a teapot! and the flavoured teas came in little jugs accompanied by little cups. wah so full.

the taxa mystery

ok the cats are acting really weird. i was walking down a slope, and there sat a cat like right in the middle of the road staring at another cat. and the other cat was on a grass patch, staring at yet another cat. and the third cat was at the playground staring at nothing.

accidentally killed a cockroach today (yay!). was dumping some rubbish. closed the dustbin lid on a cockroach that was on its way out of the bin. so it got squashed at the body by the dustbin lid. hmm the half that was sticking out didn't seem to move anymore.

crazay.

congeniality

double case is on the way, but it's so super expensive on the shipping cost.

doesn't really fit in anywhere, does it?

air

watched flightplan (alone) today. the story was so exciting, and jodie foster acted so well. peter sarsgaard is the bad guy again! and the plane is really really big and cool.

when it really hurts, we choose not to face the truth. because it always feels better.

global dimming

omg just watched the documentary on channel newsasia.

global dimming is the phenomenon of less solar energy reaching earth. it was discovered first in studies of light intensity over germany and israel. subsequently, scientists also noticed that evaporation rates decreased over the past decades. these observations did not seem to fit with the fact that earth was facing global warming.

however, contrary to popular belief, temperature is not a major factor affecting rate of evaporation. wind, humidity and more importantly sunlight affect rate of vaporation. it is the energy of the photons hitting the water surface that cause water to evaporate. so, if the rate of evaporation is decreasing, the light intensity must be decreasing as well.

air pollution is the cause of global dimming. this was derived from observations in the maldives. the northern islands of the maldives received dirty air from india, while the southern islands received clean air from the antarctica. scientists noticed that temperatures in the northern islands were cooler than those in the southern. this was because there were more particles of soot and sulphur dioxide present in the northern atmosphere. these particles block the sunlight, but more importantly they cause clouds to become like giant mirrors.

clouds form when water molecules condense around naturally occuring particles. when sufficient water has condensed around the particles, then rain forms. in polluted air, the larger number of particles mean that instead of having few large droplets, there are many small droplets of water. and these many small droplets reflect much more light than the few large droplets, resulting in dimming.

global dimming could have possibly caused famine. but worst still, it affects monsoon systems. it has caused the sahel region to experience drought in the 70s and 80s. during the equinoxes, sunlight hits directly on the equator, forming the tropical rainbelt at the equator. during the solstices, sunlight hits directly on the tropics, shifting the tropical rainbelt either north or south of the equator. however, sahel received no rain during the summer solstice. this indicated that polluted air was preventing the solar energy from reaching the seas.

seemingly, the solution is to reduce pollution. however, scientists have discovered that global dimming is helping to reduce the effects of global warming. if there was no global dimming, we could be facing even more problems. climatologists noticed during the three days after september 11, when flights were grounded, that temperature ranges increased by over 1 degree. and that was a lot for just three days. this was because with no aeroplanes in the air, there were no contrails as well. and this implied that contrails contributed significantly to global dimming.

if removing a small amount of contributor to global dimming could result in such great temperature increase, the implication is that if pollution was removed competely, it could drive global temperatures up like crazay!

currently, pollution is being solved, but nothing is being done to curb greenhouse gases emissions. thats mean we are driving our global temperatures up at a rate double than expected. and if this should happen, the consequences are terrible. when the greenland ice cap melts, sea levels could rise by a few metres. rainforests could also burn and release huge amounts of carbon dioxide. huge underwater methane deposits could be released into the atmosphere.

scientists predict that in one century, temperatures could rise by 10 degrees. is that crazay or crazay? burning of coal, oil and gas causes both global warming and global dimming. seems that we must find alternative energies as soon as possible.

well, if we clean up pollution without doing anything about greenhouse gases emissions, then we could really destroy earth. so why don't we just continue polluting the air to let global dimming counter global warming?

dangerous to know

lyrics for the song you're listening to (if you can hear it):

dangerous to know

hilary duff

i miss you

some secrets need to be kept

some stories should never be told

some reasons shouldn't be understood

they just might turn your blood cold

i miss you

who needs all the answers

who takes all the chances

who said the truth's gonna save you

when the truth could be dangerous

i miss you

[chrous]

like the way i feel

it's alright to steal

what i need from you

do what i have to do

say what i have to say

go where i have to go

and that's dangerous

dangerous to know

i miss you

i was a law unto myself

when you found me out on my own

together, nothing was sacred

together, we were alone

i miss you

who needs all the questions

who lost their direction

who said a lie's gonna break you

when a lie could be dangerous

i miss you

[chorus]

i miss you

ignorance is bliss

you're safe when you resist

there's no safety in a kiss like this

it's dangerous

so kiss me

kiss me

i miss you

[chorus]

i miss you

[chorus]

i miss you

some secrets need to be kept

what are you hiding?

retrenchment

collected the results slip today.

ok i didn't get the job at cafe cartel. i didn't even get to the interview stage. i wasn't qualified enough. hmm but i think i appeared on camera when kym ng ran past with her cupid wings. bryan ng was around too.

finally got the double case ordered! bobelock suspension double case for full-size violin and 16" viola. blue velvet interior. yay!

and err i met with a lot of cats today. like a lot a lot. it's so weird. there were many cats lazing around. and they acted strangely too. and looked like it was going to attack me when i walked up to it to say hello. another kept looking around suspiciously into the drain, and into a plastic bag. and there was one which stared blankly even though i tried to get its attention.

godiva?

zoombinis

omg i miss that game soooo very much. and i can't run it on my xp anymore =(

to the one far away

happy birthday

hope you are happy

movie buff

i'm gonna have to watch:

flightplan
exorcism of emily rose
the wig
just like heaven
oliver twist
harry potter and the goblet of fire!

cracking

i feel really lonely.

9 to 5?

hmm the holiday is passing quite quite fast. it's already 9th november. there are like 21 + 31 days left. shall look for work at cafe cartel for december. if i can't get it i'll try godiva then. then perhaps i'll look for an old folks' home to help in the remaining days of november.

camerata is performing at esplanade recital studio on 30th november. serenades. there's suk, dvořák, elgar, tchaikovsky, volkmann and berkeley!

perhaps

perhaps for someone like you, it's very easy to make people fall for you. but for others, making people fall for them is the hardest thing in the world. so when someone is nice to them, they feel happy, and safe, and warm. you really shouldn't cheat on those feelings.

know knew known

is sadness an emotion or simply a reaction to an external stimulus? just like happiness. without knowing what sadness is, how would anyone know when they felt sad? so we feel sad because we have felt happiness before? so sadness is the exact opposite of happiness. but how did we know what we were feeling was happiness in the first place?

why does a baby cry when it enters the world for the first time? everyone around him is so happy! yet when he grows up, grows old, and finally dies, he smiles in his endless sleep, and everyone around him cries.

how exactly do you feel when you 'feel like crying'?

thanks

just know that there is a group of people writing it, and there's a group of people erasing it.

bloom

hmm the trees downstairs have all those beautiful flowers blooming. there's a tree with pink flowers, and another with white flowers.

crappy degenerative reasons

for all the crappy degenerative reasons i'm writing this entry. it simply doesn't make any sense to me. and that's a crappy degenerative reason. came so close but just slipped away again. just can't grasp the concept. the idea. you. for some unknown reason. and that's really crappy degenerative.

dance

austin: if i asked you to dance, would that count as a question?
sam: but there's no music.
austin: so?


austin: do you believe in love at first sight?
sam: i'll let you know.
austin: i bet i've seen you before.
sam: yes.
austin: how could i have seen you, but not recognise who you are now?
sam: maybe you were looking, but you weren't really seeing. hey, you got one more question left.
austin plucks a flower and presents it to sam.
austin: do you, cinderella, feel that you made the right choice in coming to meet me tonight?
sam: i do. and do you, austin ames, ever want to see me again after tonight?
austin: absolutely.

grace

if God is going to forgive your sins, how much can you sin before God decides that it's too much? are you going to try and push the limit? today's church class was quite mind-boggling.

in religions like buddhism or islam, people have to do good deeds so that God will be pleased. in christianity, people do good deeds because God is gracious to them. cause and effect relationship?

do you do things to earn the person's love, or do you do things because you love the person?

sam, you need to learn to stop being so self-centred and start thinking about others. and others need you to go and clean the tables tonight.

fiona

this will be

an everlasting love

the one i've waited for

the thrill of my lifetime

how to 'forget it'?

i guess you've already flown off. don't know if you've already listened to the voice mail.

blessing in disguise?

today was graduation day. quite saddening. we sang the batch song one last time. feels so weird to have someone put his arm around your back and you put your arm around someone else's. as though everyone's really going to be separated forever.

happy or sad?

then it was a great photo-taking frenzy. i think i almost became a qualified photographer helping eugene and chi hung to snap their photos. i guess photos do capture the moments forever.

so where will you go from here?

went to esplanade after that. hmm visited the new violin shop, frank brothers. saw zhangyi too! then i went häagen-dazs to stimulate the economy. basically, i had two scoops of ice cream and two toppings for $8.50. hmm but it was nice. then i went to the library and listened to the first movement of prokofieff's symphony no.5. saw zhangyi in the library again!

walked along the bay. singapore's waters are really polluted. i mean it's so black and so unclear and there were so many leaves! urgh! so unsightly. can't wait to go some place like hawaii or something where maybe i can see the clear blue waters. sent my very first voice mail.

SCREAM

so i walked along citylink mall. and... godiva is recruiting! saw this advertisement at the glass window of godiva. going to really try to look for work. kfc or häagen-dazs or subway or venezia or starbucks or shihlin? saw iggie and terence too!

ok so i didn't feel very happy today because it was graduation and other things. but there was still ms grace's barbecue and that really changed everything.

there were many many people i didn't know, and there was really good food too! learnt a new recipe for desert. you cut a banana longitudinally in half, stuff in some cadbury chocolates and marshmallows, wrap the whole thing in aluminium foil, and barbecue it. it was so so omg that i had two of it!

ok so i learnt a few names. there was eng how, SC, gary, hilda, melissa, TL, ET, michelle, samuel and the rest i didn't manage to catch. eng how is the sec3 ri guy, melissa's the sexist girl, and gary is the guy who kept putting ice on my back!

argh i can't cycle anymore. tried cycling on gary's bike. but failed like crazay. i mean, the last time i cycled was like a hundred years ago after learning it for just two days. and now i can't cycle anymore =(

we played whacko. hmm felt so helpless that i didn't know all the names. ended up calling melissa, eng how and gary the most. but hey i didn't get whacked at all! then we also played huh-who-what. omg it was so lame but fun! you really have to play it to enjoy it. haha i died because gary put ice on my back again! >.<

ok so the barbecue was really fun. and it really made me smile.

excite

tomorrow's graduation! don't know what to feel. am i supposed to be sad that it's the end, or am i supposed to be happy that i probably won't see you again?

rarity index

there are sixty seconds in one minute, sixty minutes in one hour, and twenty-four hours in a day. but there is only one you in this world. so how rare are you?

yucks just saw the gross and gory scenes of hannibal. pukes!

reach out for the stars

hmm that song just popped up in my head.

today was deepavali and hari raya celebrations. so... happy deepavali and selamat hari raya!

some maths revision?
∩ = intersect!
∪ = union!
⊆ = subset!

for example:
rjc = E.
ri ∪ rjc = boys and girls.
ri ∩ rjc = boys. in fact, ri ⊆ rjc,
and therefore rjc ∩ ri' = girls.
represent the above information in the form of a venn diagram.

for this holiday, i'll try to live as meaningfully as possible. hmm... will start with writing down in my book the meaningful things that i do each day. kind of makes you live with some purpose. i think i'll go and look for work, and i'll also go to an old folks' home to help. haven't really done those before. since there's no homework this holiday (yay!), might as well do something meaningful. YEA!

wakey wakey

hmm woke up at 1100h. sigh...

i can't believe i'm graduating in just three more days. well, at least rjc is just next door. i guess i'll be able to come back everyday to look for the things that i miss. but no, the school is going to be renovated! need to quickly make all the blind memories.

cut hair
matrices worksheet
call synwin/gramercy/music essentials for double case
esplanade
häagen-dazs
look for work
practise violin/viola