pen knife

you were so scary today.

and there's no point telling him to stop when you yourself are laughing about it.

took batch photo today.

people skills?

took this from friendster. think of 20 people you know, write their names and then answer the questions.

1. joel ong
2. li shanghui
3. priscilla goy
4. sarah a rod
5. lui weijian
6. wong yilun
7. edwin zeng
8. lim kaixiong
9. lim raywen
10. low jian liang
11. chan ziteng
12. serene seah
13. desmond sim
14. chocolate man
15. wong teckming
16. wong jianwei
17. vanessa huang
18. yang haojin
19. ben lim
20. gabriel goh

how did you meet 13? fmps

what would you do if you never met 5? hmm... miss out on laughter?

what do you honestly think of 10? nice

have you ever liked no.3? huh don't know

if 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do? omg cry like crazay, like there's no tomorrow

would 2 and 11 make a good couple? not working

do you think 12 is hot? maybe, so long never see le

would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple? hmm maybe

tell me something about 11? he says he is nice

do you know any of 3's family members? nopes

on a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14? 10 of course

what would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you? huh

what language does 19 speak? english and mandarin

who is 8 going out with? err hmmm

would 5 and 18 make a good couple? NO

when was the last time you talked to 6? day of teachers' day 2005 celebrations

what is 18's favourite band? don't know, will find out later

does 4 have any siblings? 2 elder brothers i think

would you ever date 1? huh

would you ever date 7? huh

is 15 single? yes

what is 19's last name? what's last name ar? he's ben lim shi cheng

what is 3's middle name? don't have

what is 10's fantasy? i don't know

would 14 and 19 make a good couple? noooooooo

what school does 16 go to? oh my i actually don't know. i think it's fmss. or acsi?

what school does 1 go to? i don't know he's far away in america now

where does 9 live? farrer

would you make out with 11? noooooooo

are 5 and 6 best friends? i don't know maybe

is 20 older than you? yes, i'm always very young

is 4 the sexiest bitch alive? OHHH maybe

is 15 your ex? no......

do you ever see yourself with 12 and 18? no contact with 12 for very long already, 18 is my classmate

how is 2? practising hard everyday

what do you think of 1 - 20? don't think i will forget them

what do you think of this quiz? quite fun?

ok 18 thinks that all bands suck. sunyanzi is da best! and i agree!

miss, understood again

joint pains le.

found a really long white hair yesterday. recalls willy wonka.

does everything turn into hatred at the end of the day? if it does, then i hate you because i love you. but you hate me because you hate me.

don't feel so good anymore.

so physically, emotionally, mentally tired again.

you make me sick

oh no caught flu today.

today's biology was fun. we saw c. elegans through microscope. so gooey and wormy. and raywen thinks he saw some having sex.

can't believe the kind of things people will do just for money. and can't believe people would give money just to see those kind of things. hate those rich people who have nothing better to do with money. so much money to throw around, donate to charity lah. i think it just shows the kind of heart you have.

hope you bite each other's tongue off. and bleed to death like crazay.

sunrise

must write this down before i forget.

i suddenly had a flashback of watching a sunrise about two years ago while watching 'stairway to heaven'. it was at a rise camp. i remember we woke up early in the morning once and went to macritchie reservoir. and i was sitting on the bench with simeon and i saw the sun rise. i remember saying ' a new day has begun'. and that was how magical the sunrise was. it was so beautiful. bright and full of vigour yet quiet and peaceful. and the birds started chirping.

i know that we did other things at the reservoir. i remember something about a man fishing. but i can't recall much now.

fruity loops

watermelons are hypocrites. they appear so fresh and green on the outside but we don't really know if they are ripe on the inside. watermelons seek to cheat you with their appearances. but they stab you in the back when you least expect it. you must cut open a watermelon before you can tell if it is ripe already.

tomatoes are very sincere and truthful. they don't seek to hide their true self, but show it to you openly. if a tomato is green on the outside, then you know it is not ripe yet. but if it bright red on the outside, then you know it is ripe already. tomatoes don't tell lies. and they won't cheat you, so they never stab you in your back.

bananas are like chinese people who are westernised. they look yellow on the outside, but inside they are just completely white. some chinese nowadays dislike their culture so much and think that the american style is much more hip and cool. so they like to pick up trends from that cultureless place. and they become white inside even though they are still yellow outside.

are you a watermelon or a tomato?

passing of time, the

looking through the photos taken a few days ago. i guess those moments will always stay with me. what would it be like if no one aged? would everyone be able to remember everything?

i'm slowly forgetting you. and i guess i won't need a thousand days. maybe just another hundred days and you will be erased forever. and i hope you will be happy forever. it's already 95 days.

starting on analytical chemistry.

oh my the cut that xinyang drew is so real. and i can't exactly wash it off right now.

does this make cents?

igor stravinsky's firebird is a ballet which tells about a russian prince ivan who unknowingly entered the enchanted garden of the evil king kashchei. he saw a firebird dancing in the garden. her beautiful feathers emitted a golden light that illuminated everything around her. prince ivan captured the firebird. she pleaded him to let her go. in return, she gave him one of her feathers, and said that if he ever needed help, all he had to do was to wave the feather, and she would come to help him. she flew away.

darkness returned. prince ivan then saw a princess entering the enchanted garden, followed by twelve other girls. he hid behind a tree. the girls started playing a game with the golden apples hanging on the trees. they tossed the apples to and fro. the princess missed one of the apples, an it came rolling directly to the prince. he picked up the apple, stepped out and handed it to her. she was shocked by the appearance of the prince. their eyes met with a loving glance. the twelve girls circled around them, and the two of them danced in the centre of the circle. the princess' name was vasilisa.

just then, the magical bells at the gates of the enchanted garden rang. it was sunrise. the girls panicked. 'no! we must go!' princess vasilisa told prince ivan. 'why? what's wrong?' he asked. 'this garden belongs to the evil king kashchei. we are under his spell and cannot go. you must escape before it is too late, or king kashchei will turn you into stone!' she ran off with the twelve girls. prince ivan ran to the gate, but it was locked. he ran to the garden walls and tried to climb.

the gates flew open and monsters flooded into the garden. the monsters were once men, but king kashchei turned them into evil beings. they surrounded prince ivan, grinning and grimacing. the captured him. all of them were dancing triumphantly. suddenly, a hush fell over the garden, and the shadows lengthened menacingly. the monsters drew back. an enormous clap of thunder announced king kashchei's arrival. king kashchei struck prince ivan to the ground. prince ivan began to lose consciousness. just then, princess vasilisa and the twelve girls entered the garden and pleaded with king kashchei to let prince ivan go. king kashchei refused, and was going to deliver the final blow. prince ivan remembered the feather and waved it in the air. the firebird swooped into the garden, illuminating the garden once again.

the firebird flew over the trees. the monsters followed after her glow as if in a trance. she brought them running all around the garden. even king kashchei fell under the spell. round and round she flew, and all the monsters broke into an infernal dance. princess vasilisa and her friends were drawn into the dance. finally they were all too tired and fell to the ground. the firebird circled above all of them and sang a lullaby. everyone sank into a deep sleep. 'sleep. sleep,' she called, 'by all my power i command you to sleep. sleep, brave warriors. sleep, enchanted princesses. sleep, all creatures, and dream of the days before you were imprisoned here.'

prince ivan, still hiding in the shadows, was awestruck. the firebird pointed to a tree and told prince ivan, 'inside there is a golden casket. in the golden casket lies an egg. you must destroy the egg, which contains king kashchei's power. this will free the princesses and all the monsters.' prince ivan walked over to the tree and retrieved the golden casket. he opened it. indeed, an egg lay in the casket. he carried the egg and walked towards the sleeping king kashchei. king kashchei stirred, and opened his eyes. he looked in disbelief at the egg in prince ivan's hands. he rose to his feet, staggering menacingly to words the prince. prince ivan crashed the egg to the ground. the egg shattered into hundreds of peaces. king kashchei sank lifeless to the ground. all sounds ceased. all motion stopped. mist sank into the garden. darkness fell everywhere.

gradually, the mist began to clear. the sky grew pink with the dawn of a new day. the sun appeared. king kashchei's spell was broken. the monsters had become men again. princess vasilisa and her friends were free. everyone cheered prince ivan and princess vasilisa, who were married on this happy day. as the royal procession moved triumphantly towards the palace, everyone celebrated a bright future. but when they thanked prince ivan for breaking the spell, he said, 'do not thank me. thank the firebird.'

high above the clouds, a blaze of light could be seen. a brilliant bird with flashing eyes and fiery wings, giving her blessing to the new king and queen.

careers forum

big event today was careers forum. went for the architecture, theatre, law and advertising one. must say that i was very impressed by the prospects of becoming a lawyer. what 12 month bonus. argh but a lawyer must be very good in english.

the lawyer wasn't really what i thought a lawyer would be like. he wasn't so serious, like all lawyers are in the court.

maybe i'll just go teaching.

picture perfect?

wow today was a photo frenzy! kaixiong brought his camera to take photos for the expressions page. and suddenly everyone who was sleeping in class was shot!

so i guess the photos will capture everything.

intermezzo interrotto

lilting swings jump jump jump squeak queak lilting swings sway sway sway swing sway spins spins spins glides lilting swings jump jump jump

tomato

why are people so interested in their weight? it's just a measure of how much gravity acts on them.

oh my rock climbing so difficult. i must lose weight! and sweaty palms just doesn't help at all.

mr tan today so scary. do you want tissue?

do not deprive the air of oxygen.

you are stupid. you are bad. i hate you.

naïve

ms grace made nylon during chemistry lesson. hmm looked interesting.

wow maths test so 凶.

mr tan thinks that people who read too much cinderella become naïve.

slept immediately when i reached home. had a nightmare although i can't really recall anything. just had that feeling like something was pressing inside me and making me feel very scared. woke up at 1915h.

and so much work to do.

bluesy

wow today was quite quite eventful. first period was assembly on 'leaving a legacy'. and i remember the three e's: equip, empower, exemplify! next was chinese. and mr tan just shocked everyone like crazay because he made us present on our website product. third period was english. we did oral presentation. tried to sell my book 'men are from mars, women are from venus'. fourth period was biology, and wth i don't understand anything on the dna transcription and rna translation. fifth was geography. class was noisy as usual. and last lesson was social studies. got back test paper. yay did quite well.

i don't have the physics reflective writing rubrics.

tiramisu

made an observation about venezia's gelato today. when you buy the gelato, never mix and match tiramisu against any other flavour. it only works well by itself. the tiramisu gelato has the tiramisu flavour, which is nice, but somehow any other flavour will drown it quite soon. couldn't tatse it much after a while. so when you buy venezia's tiramisu, buy it by itself only.

jade rabbit

almost thought there wouldn't be any moon tonight. the sky was so cloudy right up till 1830h. but i guess i made my one last wish: that the clouds would go away. and they did.

oh my the moon tonight is sooo beautiful! and it glows so radiantly. and hangs so low in the sky. it's just so beautiful. was walking home but just kept turning around to look at it. if only you were still here. please come back someday. soon.

took my lift up to 12th floor. looked down my block. saw all the children downstairs with their lanterns. and they lit so many candles along the pathway. so warm and nice. it brings back so many memories from the past.

wouldn't it be romantic to just sit on a park bench and look at the moon tonight? even if you are alone. just make believe that you are there.

and what better way to spend such a romantic night than to watch mr bean on channel 5 and the stupid jokes they make in the movie?

昨天天气真热

不是吗?

yesterday was hsk chinese proficiency test. omg the comprehension section was so stressful. read until don't want to read anymore. just anyhow do.

anyway today's midautumn!

spending my day doing philosophy essay and all the english homework.

at the end of everything

it's still the want for cuddly love

cuddle:
v. cud·dled, cud·dling, cud·dles
v. tr. To fondle in the arms; hug tenderly.
v. intr. To nestle; snuggle.
n. The act of cuddling; a hug or embrace.
adj. cuddle·some or cuddly

an almost-round moon

an almost-round moon hangs in the sky now. hope it'll be very big and round tomorrow. and hope that the sky will be clear.

what does the moon mean to you? does it represent something for you? all i can remember was that the last sms you sent me was about the moon, just before you flew so far away. it was the poem 但愿人长久，千里共婵娟. and then you really flew far away.

the last time i really spent time with you was when we were at orchard. you went bowling at cathay and i just watched. then we went shopping at 77th street. and you bought a chain with some red thing in the centre. can't remember a lot anymore. everything's quite blur now. maybe time really erases everything. you bought famous amos but i didn't eat them. then we went to orchard mrt station. and you left in your train. cried in my train. and the last time i saw you was the day before you left. you were going to astroturf to play soccer. and i was walking to the canteen. kept turning back to get my last glimpse of you. and the very last time i talked to you was in my train to school. i called you in the morning and you were already in the airport, waiting to board the plane.

it's so fast. just five days ago we were shopping at orchard. and today you are leaving. i wish you weren't leaving. i wish there would be a miracle, that if i went to the airport, you would come back out of the gate and say you were not leaving.

add-ons to my wishlist:

i wish that you'll find your happy ending
i wish that you'll find love

so maybe that's what i've been wishing for every night by my window. that one day you'll come back.

midautumn festival

midautumn festival is approaching, and the moon will be very round. hopefully it will be big as well. hopefully there will not be clouds, or i will have to blow them away.

so from today till sunday i'll make my wishlist and make my wishes under the full moon:

i wish that you'll be happy
i wish that you'll do well in your studies
i wish that you'll come back one day
i wish that you'll have many friends
i wish that you'll be safe
i wish that no one will bully you

all i wanted to give you was chocolates

all i wanted to give you was chocolates

all i wanted to give you was chocolates

really.

nice to know

i think i'm hurt again. didn't want to cry. told myself not to cry over you anymore. but your friends keep forcing me too. always pretended to be alright in front of everyone. but i don't think i can anymore.

how long must i wait? 1000 days? it's only 85 days.

no i'm not ok. i'm very tired. because you've fucking hurt me time and again.

so much for my happy ending

yay today so slack. started on vectors for maths. and watched 'an autumn's tale' for chinese. the storyline of the movie was quite clichéd but still so touching. must be a very old show because chow yun fatt looked so young in the movie. and they lived happily ever after.

took back my copper(II) sulphate and chrome alum crystals. they didn't break on the way home phew.

you were everything, everything that i wanted.

avril lavigne's 'my happy ending'

relief rain

don't have the library key in my wallet anymore. so it does feel much lighter than before. things just keep happening to make me feel that the year is coming closer and closer to an end.

got back geography test today. omg so happy that i passed! and mrs ong announced results of the badly done assignment. omg just passed. i think only 5 out of 30 passed. and average mark was 3.5-4/15. but anyway geography is about gone already.

and biology was not bad.

what is the meaning of ignorance and apathy?

i don't know and i don't care.

when can i talk to you like normal again?

maybe that would be your answer.

28/35

no, that's not what i got for chemistry test. but that's what i know someone should get. i got slightly lower than that. anyway, didn't expect to do very well, but didn't expect it to be sooo low. and omg geography is gone.

ate at cafe cartel today. omg the glass had a chip. and putting a straw in a chipped glass is not an excuse! this is so dangerous how can you put this on the table?! what are you people doing?

bad dreams for so long. 只愛一點的話

bang bang

oh my the sky was so black like raywen when it was only 1830. and the storm today was really big. so heavy. and the lightning just kept coming. so did the thunder. bang bang bang! how many people are afraid of it?

so scared. suddenly wanted you so badly.

Lol not bad...

omg higher chinese prelims just finished!

not very easy, but not very hard either. hai

i must get my papparoti

barbecue

wow bbqing is so tiring, even when i didn't do a lot of cooking. anyway did a bit of cooking. yay i made a few satays. omg the beef steak that mr sze made was nice. and barbecued marshmallow is nice too.

spent some time staring blankly at the sea. irritating noisy aeroplanes flying above. hmm singapore airlines is noisier than cathay pacific.

some people had fun playing, while some people had fun working.

chocolate chocolate chocolate
strawberry strawberry strawberry
banana banana banana

illusion never changed into something real

ok so that's a line from natalie imbruglia's 'torn'.

spent half a day at ziteng's house doing nothing grr. then spent another half a day going all the way to paya lebar to buy strings. then spent the third half of the day doing my chinese book review. and spent the last half of the day in front of the computer.

waiting again.

you're a little late. i'm already torn.

do you try to make yourself vomit?

rainy day

it's called 'rainy day'

chemistry

spent almost the whole day doing the chemistry performance task.

omg brian's blast furnace is damn nice!

omg mine is so suck, but never mind.

miss, understood

please remember to do your bio reflective. it is due t4w1 friday.

no matter how unfair he was to me in sending his reply to my message, i didn't reply back. because i figured that he would have hated receiving another message from me. so no matter how much he may have hurt me, i'll just take it. i'll just take anything that he throws at me.

you think i wanted to harrass him is it? i spent half an hour last night going through my phone list to send that message to my classmates, and he replied me with that. and this morning you sent something like that. did you even know that the message i sent him was to tell him about homework? what the fuck are you people doing? and i thought girls were more sensitive.

fairytale

went back to school for chemistry and physics class today. walked past 4J classroom and saw chinese teacher inside. so maybe you were there too.

guess everything will be ok after a long long time.

watched last episode of 'stairway to heaven' today. so touching. so she found her happiness in the end.

sooner than it seems life turns around

it's ok. everything's going to be ok.

don't cry. everything will be ok.

it's ok. don't cry. don't cry.

just go and sleep. everything will be ok tomorrow.

everything will be fine tomorrow.

00.00.13

who the hell is this?

what the hell do you want?

fucking crazy

love

love rhymes with dove!

ok i'm quite out of ideas for an entry. so my new librarian tells me to write about love.

today's the last day of term 3. but there's still lotsa work to do =( got so much homework and there's also higher chinese prelim to study for. sigh

ok so what to say about love?

玻璃鞋

yay this blog finally revolves all around glass shoes. the music you are listening to now (if you can hear it) is 'glass shoe' by sammi cheung.

woke up at 12 i think. spent most of my day at ziteng's house to do maths with him. wow his maid is so pro.

argh so much homework for september holidays. and higher chinese prelims on monday when school reopens =(