coffee

i took the singapore maths olympiad round 1 paper today, and after that i felt like i needed to get a refund of my $8. i answered 8 out of 25 questions (guessed 2 of them).

the next problem was getting back home. there were too many people at the bus stop, so shanghui suggested walking to the mrt. oh my mama it was so bloody hot. anyway, after we reached the mrt, the people who took the bus caught up. i think shanghui hates me. he really wanted me to stay at the bus stop and not walk with him to the mrt.

stood beside him on the mrt, and wow he met his friend there too. i guessed he probably didn't get to see the friend everyday, because they really chatted a lot. and shanghui simply ignored my presence. i think it feels even more lonely in a crowd then when i'm alone. he talked to me only to ask which stop the train was at.

i went esplanade to borrow ballet videos. tchaikovsky's 'nutcracker' looked magical. i couldn't find a place to have lunch. walked past gelaré cafe but felt that it was very sad to eat there when i had no one to share the nice food with. i ended up having burger king. soon i'll be fatty king.

dead beat. but it was still super hot in my bedroom i don't know how i could sleep. but maybe that's why i had a bad dream. i dreamt of being bullied by james, who threw something hard at me. i think i cried.

are you the only one in this whole world who doesn't care about me?

eponymous

i made some more memories last night. i remember that i attended fairfield's founder's day on don't-know-which-year as the guard of honour! the guest-of-honour was dr wee kim wee. and the many guards of honour had to stand along the aisle holding candlelights to light up the pathway from the door to his table. that was the first time i felt the hotness of wax i think. we got two cute little teddy bears dressed in fairfield's uniform. they were so cute, but i don't know where they are now. i left early without telling the teacher-in-charge. oops i kind of forgot that we were supposed to report back to the teacher-in-charge.

there was once i was at the glass hotel near havelock road with my family for lunch. that was very long ago. i remember there was a balloon blower giving out balloons to little children. those long tubular balloons that could be bent into different animal shapes. he asked me if i wanted one, but i said 'no'. then he looked disappointed, and my family was laughing because they didn't expect me to say 'no'. so i said 'ok' in the end. he made me a bee balloon. it burst when i walked over a grass patch later. the long grass blade simply sliced it =(

in 2002, there was a house day organised by sec2s for us sec1s. i was in joel's group. the last game of the day was for sec1s to throw water bombs at the sec2s. however, joel threw one at my face and i got so wet! i never got to throw back at him.

sinus

i can't believe ms oois actually gave us gp homework when we have four bloody common tests to study for =( boonping told me about dopamine today. he says that from the time someone falls in love, the brain secretes dopamine for two years. so that means any breakup happens during that time span, the love will take that long to go away.

menuetto-trio-menuetto

when you're feeling extremely stressed/depressed/at the breaking point, try one of these:

eat one tub of ice cream
drink lots of milo/alchohol
bite your furniture
bite your pillow
scream into your pillow
throw everything on your table onto the floor
talk to your pooh bear

shoot

i've spent the past couple of days filtering my copper(II) sulphate and chrome alum. turns out that chrome alum takes a super long time to filter. anyway, now i'll have clean solutions to grow nice crystals again.

i've also done a bit of maths and chemistry homework.

i can't seem to get enough of strawberry cheesecake ice cream. i've got to read a book for gp holiday homework. i'm so not putting down 'da vinci code' until i finish reading it. on top of that, i need to lose weight again. that means i'll exert less gravitional force on the earth since it won't pull me that much anymore either.

likewise, if you slap me, i'll slap you back.

defend

this is probably very forbidden but i must say that 'irresistible poison' by rhysenn is a very nice fanfiction. it's a harry/draco slash and you can find it at http://rhysenn.morethanart.org/ip/

trigonometric

the above graph shows the relationship between love and time. it has a minimum gradient at t=y.

for t > 0,
f(t) > 0

for x > t > y,
f(t) > 0
f'(t) < 0
f"(t) < 0

for t > y,
f(t) > 0
f'(t) < 0
f"(t) > 0

genuflect

i stayed up past 3am last night and nothing strange happened. it's just that when i heard a crack somewhere and looked up at my clock it was indeed 3am. but apart from that, there was nothing else that was weird.

i think some people are too cold. they let go so easily.

aficionado.

love me (not)

clique outing! so fun we started with esplanade. and what a pleasant surprise i bumped into shanghui. hmm myRIad was happening about the same time as the time we reached esplanade, so shanghui must have been the supportive brother watching jinghui perform. oh dear i think i've been rude when talking to shanghui's mum!

we went to the library to look at some arty farty stuff. found some nice books on ballet, and we saw huiqi! i found out that julie andrews was the lady in 'the sound of music'. i love 'my favourite things' so much!

then, we went over to suntec city, but before that we stopped at this shop selling mr p stuff that were so absolutely cute. especially the lamp haha. i finally got to test its switch. food at marche is always so expensive. i can't really believe that i actually had one entire plate of calamari to myself, and now i do feel all that oil inside =(

we walked around suntec city. beejuan paid one dollar for her stitch key chain at the turning machine thing. we went up to the sky garden, where siuchu told us about how her maths teacher got the entire class to help in his proposal with his girlfriend. aww so sweet! there was a playground at the sky garden, and we all tried to monkey bar, but so sad, i couldn't do it. there was a little boy by the name of james, and siuchu fell completely in love with him.

we went to the arcade to play one game of daytona. jia en kept banging me until i got second. and then we were at this toy-catching machine. you know, those kind in which you control the claw to pick up some toys. there was this girl who got the big porcupine in two shots. so lucky! we tried twice but still couldn't =( anyway, siuchu said we used fifty cents to buy some laughter and hope. well, if i had lots of money, i would try to get the toy. get it and give it to you. so you must wait for me.

oh i was just wondering, when you held my hand, was my palm wet? because i must have been either feeling so tense that it was sweating or feeling so comfortable with you that it didn't sweat.

cerebrate

if i doubt whether someone is whom i love or just another replacement, then i probably still love you.

sonata

ri founder's day ceremony was today. i reached school like super early, but raywen was there already. so we were both very early. saw the ccals leaving for bintan on the buses. my spectacles were black today because shanghui suggested that it looked better than the white one. the ceremony was quite boring, and shanghui so clever - got top in form for mep.

anyway, the food at the buffet reception was so nice! naturally, shanghui was eating a lot again. and raywen too! omg both of them so piggy, but never getting fat. and so sweet, i finally got the chance to take shanghui's car to ccab. and i found out that he can burp at will, like beejuan.

it really is a nice gesture. i don't know why, but i felt sad in the evening. maybe i'm really waiting for the day joel comes back.

i do love you.

déchiffreuse

it was another botched attempt.

sangfroid

sleep deprivation makes you look forlorn, like a widow. that's not good, especially when you have pe first thing in the morning. i was reading 'the da vinci code' during pe, and my nice pe teacher goaded me into playing floorball. he said i looked good in red, referring to the sash that he put around me. come to think of it, people involved in politics are so manipulative. ok, so i almost knocked into him during the game.

today was the last day of term 2. i saw you walking past my classroom again. at least you weren't running away. i think i've done well today because i didn't feel anything when i saw you. there's so much work to be done during the holidays and i still have to learn to make tiramisu.

went for lunch with amanda and a few others at food junction. just like the very first week of school this year when part of the class was there. there was much laughter, and like siuchu said, the laughter today was more than the whole week's added together. yes, this week has been hectic. after that siuchu and i still went to secret recipe for cake. omg it was absolutely delicious-sinful-fattening-chocolatey-creamy!

at secret recipe, we talked about life. sounds dumbdumb, but it was quite fundamental. we talked about why people conform to society. we also talked about equality - how everyone is equal, but some are more equal than others.

you polygamous person, i've loved you another day.

p.s. i'm so glad my pimple came only after the concert. but then again, there's ri founder's day ceremony tomorrow =(

hula

i gather that nobody likes to sit beside me. at chemistry lecture today beejuan was sitting on my left and then on my right the entire row was empty. well, beejuan was sitting there only because we always sit together in the group. then, at physics tutorial, i was the only one on the first row. james didn't want to sit in the front row because i was the only one there, so he went to the back.

jinyong asked me to bring his violin to victoria concert hall, and so i did. but i felt that i was just being made use of, because he said something mean later. dumbdumb jinyong couldn't open the dressing room door and was mean to me. ok, i think the whole world was attacking me today. shanghui said something evil about my spectacles. i shall quote lynette from desperate housewives. you are not allowed to raise that again in my face. if you do, i promise you'll unleash demons you never want to see.

but then again, some nice things happened today. siumin wrote a nice note for me, and siuchu bought a pretty pink flower for me! glen held and pretended to kiss my hand when i was standing at the foot of the scary staircase.

requiem concert today was not fantastic, but i'm happy it's over. we can all now rest in peace.

i saw a huge rat on my way home.

pearl

the train stalled for a while this morning. there was that burning acrid smell of ozone again. common test today was shitty, and the invigilator was in some grumpy mood (which i really hated).

tell me that i'm not being too sensitive, because i felt like crying when james was mean to me. i don't understand why, but he just used the f word on me for no reason other than that i was standing in his way.

an ugly face, do you want it?

genesis

i've remembered some things which happened before the start of this blog. just before the italy trip. i was busy doing the cut-and-paste work for bartok's music for strings, percussion and celesta! omg that was a very intense and stressful period. i remember that no matter how many people came down to help, there was way too much work to be done, and we were rushing like crazy. you see, i was the librarian of the ensemble at that time, and mr sze was pushing and pushing for the scores to be done. and omg i think we did it within 2 weeks before i left for italy i think.

i remember being so desperate to complete it, because until the day before i flew off, i still hadn't packed for the trip! and i also remember shanghui helping (and doing faster than me) =) then, after i reached milan i received a call from zhaohan asking about some missing parts! argh so stressful-scary! luckily, i could use the fact that long-distance calls were expensive to excuse myself from librarian work ha!

i borrowed some jacqueline du pré cds today. i think it's sad that she actually got multiple sclerosis. her music is beautiful.

it's bitter, then sweet. more bitter than sweet. listening to 'minami - piano piece of sena' now.

, my shoe @ my space

june

i was sitting alone a lot today. i failed a gp test with 49%, although technically that's an E, not F yet. i've binged today.

boa

omg i can't believe i tried to do the physics tutorial on gravitation. i don't know how to do anything and it's so confusing whether or not to add in the radius of the planet when calculating centripetal force. where is shanghui?

two-time

gadfly suite by shostakovich is a must-hear.

anagram

alas, i voice,
i love you.
really,
i do.

(photo by ho jia en)

incandescent

i've taken to doodling during really boring lessons. not that it's good, i know, because i'll probably fail my gp common test. but no matter how hard i tried, it just didn't turn out like the person i wanted to draw. maybe it's because my heart is not sure of what it really wants. anyway, siuchu asked me: which is harder, to draw a person or to love a person? the answer is clear. letting go is the hardest.

syo rehearsal today was supposed to start at 3.15pm, but i didn't know because shanghui didn't tell me =( i had a milo godzilla from prata cafe. it was really sweet, but not as sweet as you. i was stuck at the bus stop for eons when the buses refused to come. sometimes that can feel really lonely, even though there are many others in the same plight as well.

joel is offline still, even though he said he brought his laptop to university for this term.

rubik

we got back physics test results today. i passed with 28/35 and that's an 80%! yay but shanghui got 29 =( i hope i beat james. oh yes something funny happened in class today when beejuan tried to adjust the fan!

yay went to ikea with jia en and beejuan! we ate at the cafe. daim cake is so nice! and jia en ate like a piggy!

just came back from siuchu's concert. the storyline, as beejuan said, was clichéd, but i still cried. i think i think i cried more than the lead actress. siuchu sang so nicely, second to only the alumni girl!

i was thinking, maybe i didn't love you enough. maybe that's why you left.

oh dear, i stepped on a rat downstairs. it squeaked and squeaked and ran away. my poor sandal!

unnatural

pick up the phone
pickup truck
pick up where we left off
it's abnormal

decadence

you really walked past me today, didn't run away. but i wonder if you actually saw me. it's as though you don't notice me anymore. then if that's the case, i would rather you ran away every time you saw me.

ok james is plain evil. and i feel crappy about making that call two nights ago now. it's so difficult to pretend to be ok in front of everyone, in front of stephanie, james and most importantly ms naidu. how do you take everything as a joke?

i was feeling sad today, so i went to music room to do homework. and it just got worse because i didn't know how to do physics tutorial on circular motion. no matter how hard i tried i just keep getting everything wrong. i ended up crying in front of shanghui because i felt so stupid =( because shanghui can do everything and i can't do anything.

you're happy now, right? as james said, i'm happy.

stab/step in

(imperfect) cadence

just came back from 'da vinci code'! it's so nice, tell you later.

today, glen and shanghui bullied me. glen used the music stand to crush my foot and shanghui laughed =( have you ever been injured before? went to dian xiao er at marina square with my sister and her da vinci race friends. the food there was so nice! nice like crazy it was so sinful!

ok, then we watched our well-earned 'da vinci code' movie. shan't put any spoilers here, but i think the some parts of the movie were very scary.

last night i was really upset and i needed to set things right. i'm so glad that phone call got through, and you didn't actually hang up. yes it did feel much better after that. just like the gp article on relationship advice, to let go of baggages of the past.

you keep it for yourself,
thank you,
take care, bye bye.

i hope you'll be happy. can we be (more than just) friends?

classic

this is my class, 07s06q. the wind was blowing strongly when we took the photo yesterday. hope the formal shot is good, although i think my dumbdumb hair looks fine in this informal shot. i love my spectacles. wonder how long this could last,

fagot

why is it that when i want to see you so badly you're simply not around? i thought tuesday was the common recess day, but i only got to see you a brief while along the corridor after recess. i failed my standing broad jump yet again, but somehow i don't feel sad about it at all. i just miss you a lot. it's been so long since i heard your voice. hello?

i could do with someone to walk back with. i wish i could go back to norway and walk along lake siljan. or go back to italy and walk through the alleys of venice again. i wouldn't mind the hydrogen sulphide stench there.

even a little girl knows how to point and gossip.

delusional

we took class photo today and i hated it. i missed you today, so i binged.

tears

i've got another dumbdumb haircut, and i still love you. if i can't have it, no one else can have it. same for you. shanghui's so negative =(

happy mothers' day.

ferris

for all of life's ups and downs, i dedicate this to you. everyone's so busy now, they're neglecting me. i've got a gp exercise to do, and it's on relationship advice. the physics tutorial on circular motion's still waiting for me to do too. and this coming week there's physics spa (and da vinci code!). next week it's chemistry test and gp common test and founders' day rehearsal and mozart requiem and founders' day ceremony and this and that. after that it's the june holidays! but then again, it's the common tests after june holidays, and there's still project work to do =(

decode

today was the da vinci code race, and i took part in it with weizhen! we were in a team amongst many other teams because my sister was in it too, and her friends were in it! oh but before that, we were at the ben and jerry's shop at the cathay. i finally got to try the strawberry cheescake flavour!

oh yes the race was exciting, just that at tiong bahru mrt station we got so unlucky when we skipped the correct answer in our trial-and-error method! (it was a numerical answer.) the task was to go around many mrt stations in singapore and to solve the puzzles in the da vinci posters around. it included things like counting, adding up numbers and solving anagrams. oh and the best part was we could travel free on the mrt! it was a once-in-a lifetime thing!

hmm weizhen and i came in top 20, so did xueyi and her partner. but there were no special prizes for top 20, only top 3. so bad! coming in top 20 out of 150 teams is so good already ok? but hey we got movie premiere tickets for wednesday, 17th may! oh i wish i won the trip to europe...

we went to kopitiam at plaza singapura for dinner. and gossips haha. ok, so today was a day of free transport. even the shuttle bus back home was free, just that it was super slow and jerky.

the moon tonight is beautiful, and i'm so dead beat now.

A07

DaVinciCode
09/05/06 21:40
Thank you IVAN. Your team code is A07. Kindly save this SMS and report at THE CATHAY (Handy Road) between 1030-1100 hours on 13 May. See you there!
-End-

DaVinciCode
13/05/06 11:06
It is 13 May 2006. You are at THE CATHAY. Today, you will race to uncover the secret codes hidden around this island to win a trip to The Da Vinci Trail.
-End-

77688
13/05/06 14:08
Great! Get to this Station formed by the 'Centre' in Hokkien & 'New' in Malay. How many images of the Sony Microvault Classic can you find in this Station?
-End-

77688
13/05/06 14:19
Correct! Next - This is the furthest Station in the West. Total up all the Fibonacci numbers you can find on 'A15'.
-End-

77688
13/05/06 14:51
Right. This Station in the West in named after an 'Ang Moh' Governor. How many spikes can you count on the Compass Rose?
-End-

77688
13/05/06 15:03
Good Job! Visit this 'East' Station found in the West. Solve the Anagram you find at ground level. Look up for divine inspiration.
-End-

77688
13/05/06 15:13
Great! Go to the Station nearest to the oldest hotel in Singapore. How many different letters of the English alphabet can you find in the cryptex?
-End-

77688
13/05/06 15:31
Bravo! At this one-and-only yellow MRT Station in Singapore, find the word hidden plainly in the cryptex!
-End-

77688
13/05/06 15:50
Where you start is where you end. Where is that?
-End-

77688
13/05/06 15:55
Yes! Rush there quickly before the others do! Your journey is coming to an end.
-End-

noose

i woke up to a sunny-rainy morning. i don't know how that could happen, but the rain was super heavy and yet the sun was shining. so it was a yellow rain. the thunder was very loud, but i went back to sleep.

woke up again at 10:30. today, jia en, beejuan and i helped siuchu move her things from her guardian's house to the hostel. and hey i got into nanyang boarding. then we went to adam road centre! yay finally went there again after glen brought me there so long ago. i had the mutton soup! but apit was closed =(

we went to far east plaza because beejuan was looking for her friend's present. then there was another sissy rain over orchard. i left for my violin lesson. wanted to go ikea for dinner, but everyone was too tired. so i decided to go beppu for curry rice, but the queue there was so long! oh i saw ms hor at the plaza.

it's funny how we give excuses upon excuses for the things we don't want to do. you weren't at home, and after i woke up i didn't feel like trying anymore. i will seek the maximum.

golden

how amazing/amusing it is, that i was to see you so early in the morning. when did you decide to take the train to school at this hour? i was doing what i did best - walking behind you. always walking in your shadows. i don't like the white-hair bitch. i was going to burst into tears.

today's laksa was lousy. i lost to james at maths test =(

let's see. after maths tutorial ended, i was teaching jia en r-formula. then, we went to the canteen, where she had a chicken pie and i bought ice lemon tea after shaun, who was queueing for his class order of 23 ice lemon teas. then, beejuan went to buy her lunch while i did maths integration worksheet. after that we left school, but not before the toilet queens used the toilet. ok, so i think from the time lessons ended till the time i left school, so much delay had occurred.

and yet, i still saw you at the mrt. something must be wrong. it's as though there's some alien entity making sure that no matter what, we had to meet at the mrt. and it rained too. it was that sissy rain again. the kind where heat comes up from the ground while the raindrops are falling, where the raindrops are so big they hurt when they fall on your head. can we walk in the rain together someday? no one would see us.

it was all too much in one day, i really had to cry it out. i love you so much. i think i will go to hell, because heaven has no place for someone like me. dear God, i'm sorry. i will still read the bible, but i'm sorry.

rare

oh yes today's geography test was not bad. to think that i actually used maths lecture to memorise some dates. nevado del ruiz 1985, montserrat 1995-6, paricutin 1943, pelee 1902, san francisco earthquake 1989, mexico city earthquake 1985, indian ocean tsunami 2004. i couldn't help but burst out laughing when i finished my essay plan (which was a few words) and saw that clara had already written one long paragraph.

ms ku was unusually high during rehearsal today. there was mcdonald's delivery for dinner. and we got soggy fries. ruolin tried to convince me that i was bingeing. then, we had the bloody night rehearsal again. sharon mendelssohn was at the rehearsal singing soprano solo. so cool. shanghui was meanie today.

took gareth's car back home again. yay. we passed by mount alvernia hospital. i remembered joel. he was there once, and he called me at my house when he was there, and we talked for so long.

nights are getting shorter now, because it's the summer solstice soon. oh dear, i'm not sorry.

stitch

you were sleeping, and i didn't want to wake you up. a desire to touch your face the way you would to someone you really loved. since you were sleeping, supposedly listening but not responding, i told you everything. i love you so deeply, so deeply that now i don't even know why i still love you. it has become all too hazy.

it's tiramisu.

aries-sagittarius

i dreamt of a crab last night. does that mean some cancer is going to cross the path of a sagittarius one day soon?

i used to think i was scorpio, or rather, my stickers used to say that 22nd november was scorpio. but now, magazines all say that 22nd november is sagittarius. anyway, i think the heavenly bodies were in place today, because i saw you not once, but three times. i saw you at the junction this morning, and what were the chances of that happening, especially when i took an unusually early train? but well done, there was a bitch around you who kept looking back and giggling.

i saw you again at the canteen today. you dropped your food. jia en has this three-second rule, but guys being guys, you simply picked it up. i hope you would die of food poisoning! timon gave me a volunteer tag when i went for chemistry lecture. don't know what it was about. anyway, i was sitting beside shanghui at chemistry lecture. i found it quite fun, but he thinks it was a nightmare, although i didn't do anything. i really didn't do anything ok? maybe the virgo can't stand the sagittarius. oh well, the heavenly bodies choose to synergise anything but virgo and sagittarius.

we left chemistry lecture prematurely to rehearse for the library gig. ben lim the taurus was flirty when i walked past his classroom. omg i really didn't like the library gig at all. i lingered in school for a while, then went off. but, i bumped into suhui and ruolin! we went up to music room to put down our instruments.

we walked past the classrooms along the corridor, and guess what? i looked into one classroom and saw a familiar-looking yellow-orange pencil box. the lights were off, but the fans were on, so i didn't expect anyone to be in the classroom. curiosity, it got me. i went in to see if it really was that pencil box, your pencil box. and voila, it was! what's more, i suddenly realised that you were sleeping there! i ran out. so, the next bitch who reads this will probably tell you to be careful of where you choose to sleep, so that i won't walk in on you sleeping again.

i went with suhui and ruolin on a binge. first was bubble tea, then it was old chang kee, then it was prata! omg and they still ate more than me. so pig! so after like 1.5 hours of bingeing, we went to the mrt, and bumped into jinyong! perhaps leo is also slightly in tune with sagittarius. whatever.

astrology.com says that aries and sagittarius are a match made in heaven. so we now know that we shouldn't trust that website, since it obviously isn't the case. heaven likes to make sport of me by constantly putting you in front of me, then taking you away when i try to reach for you.

expose

i just bought three tubs of häagen-dazs. tiramisu, macadamia brittle and strawberry cheesecake! i'm sorry, but it was an irresistible buy-two-get-one-free offer.

miscellaneous

i saw you today at stall 5. you were so close, and thank goodness you didn't see me. i ran away this time, so you've won again. gp comprehension test was so difficult. i came home immediately after school. i was supposed to have physics olympiad training. but i think as of today, i've officially dropped out of it. maybe it isn't such a good thing to be back home so early. only nine people are online now.

i shan't soon forget.

coral

i'm scared of getting fat!
i'm scared of cockraches!
i'm scared of lightning and thunder!
i'm scared of project work!
i'm scared of you.

legal

sometimes you just have to laugh things off.

nadz hasn't sent stephanie the group project proposal. haha! and therefore i haven't received it from stephanie. lol! siuchu wrote my register number wrongly. lmao! i can't send it to yiyan for printing. =D

oh my crap.

wake up, drunkard

i've been feeling awful these few days. it's not that i feel negative all the time, but that my mood swings from one to another so quickly. it's like some oscillating pendulum. i think my terrible lack of control over my emotions is costing me a lot.

yesterday, i went to watch sso at esplanade. again, i had to walk through citylink mall. and again, i felt that pressure of walking through a large crowd. it really does try to suffocate me. i went to the bay at esplanade. sat there alone, amidst all the other dating couples and friends hanging out. that image looks quite sad, doesn't it? i realised that i couldn't drown myself in water because i knew how to swim.

sso played bernstein's symphony no.2 'the age of anxiety'. how apt. you could feel the frefulness in the music all the while. pain and anger that was ever-present. and finally that resolution - the faith that everything will turn out fine.

i walked over to victoria theatre after the concert. rjc's dancenite had just finished. i was going to look for someone, but then i thought i was probably going to destroy his wonderful evening since he was with his friends, so i left. lingered around the city. no twilight to reminisce with, just ugly lights which blocked out the stars. 'i think you should go home if you're all alone now.' i thought so too.

i cried in my bed until don't-know-when, and woke up at 11am, thereby missing church. enough with the 'haha's. enough with the 'pretend' game. teach me to be normal. you could save many people.

God works in the most wondrous ways.

template

alone at the riverside. rain on me, i don't mind. i think i've become too dependent on you.

freeze frame

i feel horrible now. i woke up at 12 noon and ate half a tub of ben and jerry's. i watched 'finding nemo' and cried. being so hardworking, i tried to do physics tutorial on work, energy and power. surprisingly i managed to do questions 7 and 8, but i still couldn't do question 9.

i'm watching emily rose again. i do believe that demons exist, and i do believe in that sense of being embedded by an alien entity. oh wow a passing shower over tiong bahru.

sso is playing tonight!

p. sherman
42 wallaby way
sydney

rods and cones

it's a colourful world waiting to be discovered.

singer

it's finally friday. i haven't seen you in a long time. you're avoiding/neglecting me. or at least that's what you're making me feel. are you really so busy? i saw a piece of watermelon skin that somehow had a heart-shaped print on it. i'm very clear of what i really want now. i finished my maths assignment already. i think we all need superman. i guess there comes a time when you're sick of me. i shouldn't have cast that vote for you.

but a fool can have his charms. i bet you were at dancenite today ogling at girls. or you are going to dancenite tomorrow to ogle at girls.

wieniawski

chemistry tutorial was fun. we played with molecule models. i'm sorry i binged today. i had laksa, i had cheese fries. you ran past my classroom during physics tutorial and i saw you. i think from next week onwards you should use the corridor on level 6 instead. siuchu dragged me shopping for so long today. my ankles are broken.

queer dream

omg

as beejuan said, i'm going to sleep very well tonight. and she can't be more wrong! i really didn't expect a reply, much less one that wasn't spiked with coldness and venom. but i received one that simply read 'thanks'. now i feel so much better. happy birthday! if only things worked out just as well with pooh.

trollop

today was a meaningless day. i woke up so sleepy today. i slept on the train and some nice rjc guy woke me up at bishan. i had two cans of coffee, but still didn't wake up properly. the students behind were very noisy during physics lecture. then, somehow i was super hungry during the break. pw is so boring. it's so sad i don't know why we have to do it =(

i'm so proud of myself because i actually finished my part of the group project proposal before 9pm. i'm listening to brahms symphony no.2 again. ravel's rapsodie espagnole still has its magic.

eh jonathan koh's pun: if you run onto the road, the drivers will get very horny.
eh ms ooi's pun (not intended, i think): what's important in a dress is the woman wearing it.

rarrr

eat shit, you asshole. go die. go suffer in hell. i hate you. i'll slap you each time i see you. i'll cry after that, so you must live happily.

tamper temper

an awkward situation arose during geography tutorial because there were two empty seats beside me. we got back the human geography test and i failed it. argh. new zealand natural ice cream came to rjc! hokey pokey is so nice, even though it's white (not racist!).

we were walking towards each other at the corridor until you saw me and turned away. or rather, the girl who was with you told you that i was coming. i didn't know what to do. i turned to the side too. but later you still walked past with your head held up high.

if i behave like a magnet it's because you are attractive. i love you a lot.

chamber rehearsal was until 10pm!

there's been an accident downstairs. the skid sound was super loud. the motorcycle could be seen lying on the road, and a helmet a few metres away. but i couldn't see the motorcyclist. i think he could be seriously injured, or even dead by now, judging by the crash. i hope it was you.

x.wyom..

physics lecture test today was manageable. i could complete the entire paper this time, and i do think that i can pass it this time. so, if i fail it again imma bangcrashdie=X the lights at chemistry lecture were so nice. such mood-lighting, such romance. but heck, it was an alkenes lecture (and yiyan, the mr sze, was sitting behind).

i went to gym today, but i had a lot of sugary drinks, so i think i've put back what i lost. you see, it's le châtelier's principle at work. i was at the canteen with siuchu. she taught me the 'see me fly' song in cantonese.

i saw you. shaun saw me seeing you. shaun told you. you looked up (fuck!). i turned away. you disappeared. i felt that loneliness again. wanted to cry but there were no tears. so i took a lonely trip home. i chose white spectacles so that you can see me easily, so that you can run away immediately when you see me.

lethargic now. see me fly. is this another quid pro quo? another coup de grâce?

origin

i dreamt that you died. i was the murderer because i let you die.

celebrate

oh wow i tried chantilly from breadtalk today and it's so nice, but i still think that tiramisu is better. and chocolate fanfare is the bestest! i haven't been watching what i put my mouth, but i've been watching what pops up on my face. oh dear. but i still love laksa.

fann wong has really straight hair in her new serial. desperate housewives is complicating-exciting.

happy labour day!

same

anyone else?