sucks

i've been in a terrible mood today. it just sucks. elgar sounded horrible because i was such a bad mood. i've been rude to grandma. i've got grades that spell 'A BABE'. and i feel so weak for having cried over you again.

desperate housewives was so sad.

maybe she tries hard to fix other people's messy lives. but what about her own? who's going to fix her messy life? maybe's she's thinking about a boy she met and felt an affinity with. she would rather imagine herself relating herself to an absent person than build relationships with the people around her. she's devising her stratagems. yes, she's fond of stratagems. but she's cowardly, that's why you can't capture her face. it's time she took a real risk.