decadence

you really walked past me today, didn't run away. but i wonder if you actually saw me. it's as though you don't notice me anymore. then if that's the case, i would rather you ran away every time you saw me.

ok james is plain evil. and i feel crappy about making that call two nights ago now. it's so difficult to pretend to be ok in front of everyone, in front of stephanie, james and most importantly ms naidu. how do you take everything as a joke?

i was feeling sad today, so i went to music room to do homework. and it just got worse because i didn't know how to do physics tutorial on circular motion. no matter how hard i tried i just keep getting everything wrong. i ended up crying in front of shanghui because i felt so stupid =( because shanghui can do everything and i can't do anything.

you're happy now, right? as james said, i'm happy.

stab/step in