still friends?

surprisingly, i didn't feel anything last night. i thought that something must have been wrong. theoretically, i should have been crying and crying the whole night, but i didn't. i simply didn't. siuchu told me that when that happens, there are two possibilities. one is that i didn't love you from the beginning. the other is that the pain has been etched too deeply.

beejuan met ms law today. i had laksa for lunch, and beejuan was super sour-grape about it. chamber rehearsal was so draining as usual. daniel's a meanie. had dinner at beppu with mummy and sister. bought my grey contacts, and two tubs of ben and jerry's!

it's like the ash and dust that settles after an eruption.