小天使

had the super long psychometric assessment thing in the afternoon. but the patterns test was quite fun, except that i couldn't do a few at the back. and then the hall was so freaking cold. i didn't complete the maths test, back shanghui was left with only one question! they gave us a brownie for break time.

waited under the new ri block for jeffrey to pass me the violin. it started raining. and then i gave him the super nice cookies i baked yesterday. we were talking about lots of things, like how his brother's name was supposed to be 'jerry' but became 'jason' instead. then jeffrey was throwing some pebbles. i tried, but i couldn't catch it back each time. oh no very poor psychomotor =( then he taught me to throw it straight up, and i really caught it back! he tried juggling the pebbles, and they almost dropped on me.

on the way to s11 for dinner, jeffrey was telling me about lee kuan yew and singapore's merger and separation with malaysia. but i would probably forget by tomorrow. we shared a chicken rice like the last time. omg so economical, because students get free rice, and just have to add more meat for $1.

went for the hwa chong concert and saw genesis! ended up sitting between ruolin and shanghui; felt like some light bulb. ruolin rewarded me for that with some sunflower juice on my trousers. and she couldn't bear to do it to shanghui's t-shirt because it was too nice. or rather, because it was shanghui.

last round was super nice! but i think tchaikovsky serenade was the best, because it brought back lots of memories. i remember hearing joel first play the semitonal parts in the waltz and finale. i really like the waltz! and the last part of the elegie, with all the clashing of triplets in the bass line and semiquavers in the violins. rise played it before, and the first few times at figure C in the first movement i was always afraid of playing wrongly and getting scolded by mr sze. and then rise played it for the teri murai masterclass. we weren't supposed to play the fourth movement, but then mr murai insisted that we play it! omg it was such a screw-up.

if i could, i would fly to america now and find joel.

i walked home from victoria. i risked the tiniest chance, and lost. today is about chances and hope. hope is an underrated thing. there is nothing after death, after finality, after the end of the dance. nothing, perhaps, except hope. hope. that is all there is to everything else.

陪我去走
自昨日盪韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
全也是你兩手 無聲卻在背後
能贏盡多少豐收
遍踏地球 難及這份愛直到永久
從前伴著盪韆鞦
到那積雪漸厚 到我有點成就
全也是你雙手 默默在我身後
能贏盡多少豐收
遍踏地球 難及在你身邊更富有

i will never bake cookies for money.