slobber

this morning i was extremely tired and lethargic even though i slept for one hour more last night, and still the prospect of physics test loomed ahead. i only got reminded of it yesterday when i met teckming at the lecture theatre where he just finished it. suhui told me she saw the first page and flipped to the second, and decided to flip back instead.

however, the test wasn't quite as hard as i expected. got lucky again? i could remember much of what was taught. in fact, the test woke me up slightly. physics mock spa woke me up completely. the bloody experiment was so confusing i kept taking the wrong readings for three tries.

it's been a day of heavy rain, loud thunder, wet staircase, fogged up windows and winter sun. i had a bar of cadbury chocolate today.

got home and slept for two hours. kept drooling in my sleep.

we haven't met in a long time and i think nothing ever meant anything to you. but thanks for all the best memories. this lack of you has changed so many things it scares me too. sometimes you will hate the thing you see in the mirror, because you know it's not you. but you wouldn't care because nothing meant anything to you.

do you believe in love? i still want to. and i need you so much.