Thursday, November 02, 2006

90(18,49)

i walked out of my house this morning and there was this really rich and dense smell of sesame, and it was really fragrant. met yiyan for breakfast at mcdonald's at j8. omg in a haste i chose a table that was right beside the bishan paedophile's. haha kinwai and hadi joined us. hmm the bishan paedophile is this unemployed man who has nothing better to do than to sit around all the fast-food restaurants in j8 looking at young boys all day. lazy yiyan had two knives and didn't want to go and get a fork, so he ate the hotcakes with two knives. i'm sure jia en would have found that amusing. oops.

pw group meeting early in the morning. i saw shanghui walk past my classroom. sonya brought fudge, which lured me up to level 6, where her group was practising. oh today's soya bean milk was super nice. our presentation today was ok, but i can't stop smiling. i got a chance to enter the staff room today. dinner was at food republic with aminah, siuchu, beejuan and the couple. i had the prata! and the honeydew sago at wisma's food republic is so much more voluminous compared to the one at vivocity's food republic.

was going to be late for syo. i took a taxi, and had to bloody pay a $2 surcharge. wow getting round singapore isn't so cheap anymore. or maybe the value of the singapore dollar has dropped ha. consider it my punishment then, i had to pay $7.90 in total to the driver.

i've been distracted today. i took out my violin instead of my viola at syo. and then i missed one bus when i was going home because i was staring into space for a while. you see, it was because zhaohan asked me why i left chamber. i realised that i couldn't give a satisfactory answer which could convince myself too. but i think i'm happy that i made that choice.

the problem doesn't lie with anyone. it lies with myself. because i always walk back myself. i just don't fit in this world. maybe i don't even fit in my world. i engaged in a late-night binge. it was hazelnut praline cheesecake from coffee bean.

you know something? shanghui is my friend, but sometimes i wish i was his friend. i'm going to start hating the world before the world starts hating me. and suddenly you're standing there watching the person who looks exactly like you turn into a raving monster.

last year, i was making some blind memories. i was walking around some parts of the school building at ri and writing the number of steps to get around the place. i think those are no longer handy, now that much of the school has been demolished/renovated. but hey, i've written down the physical size of the school buildings as they were in 2005.

in the chamber rehearsals leading up to open house i was feeling really sad. yes, i do have feelings, unlike some other people. by then, i had already made my decision and submitted the letter to mrs yeo. so, open house was really my last day. and i decided to clean the chamber room for the first and last time.

i've tipped the balance and everything's falling off too fast. i'm just about to submit a letter to mrs wong. and, the male version of the 'bitch' is the 'dog'.

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