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i was truly afraid of falling asleep last night, and i was glad that i woke up this morning. it confirmed my existence. today wasn't really a happy day. beejuan copied my vectors notes, boyle copied beejuan's vectors notes, james copied boyle's vectors notes.
there wasn't physics, so pw got pushed forward. the class went for lunch outing, but i didn't go. it doesn't matter, i didn't really want to go anyway. at least james would have had fun. my left eye kept twitching throughout the day, and i think it was a bad sign. yes, ruolin tricked me, so that in the end, i chose to go to ccab by myself. i had to skip dinner.
today was danil's remembrance service. i didn't actually think that i would cry, but i did. it was the second funeral i'd been to, and so had adriel. i feel like a terrible person. you see, some part of me hated danil because he was mean. but i cried today because i found that i couldn't hate him anymore. in fact, the terrible part was that if he hadn't died, i might not have let go of the hate.
and suddenly, death isn't so scary anymore.
we all face parting at some points of our lives. sometimes, we say 'goodbye' to those we'll see someday again. sometimes, we say 'goodbye' to the people who leave us forever. yes, we all face parting in our lives. the pain that comes from eternal separation is immense. some of us ease that pain by crying. some blame others for their pain. then there are those who simply try to ignore the hurt and move on. and some of us pray for serenity.
close your head and bow your eyes.
you once corrected my pronunciation of 'infidelity'. now i'm doing all i can to avoid you, but i've been walking everywhere alone for such a long time that i think i deserve some better treatment from you.
there wasn't physics, so pw got pushed forward. the class went for lunch outing, but i didn't go. it doesn't matter, i didn't really want to go anyway. at least james would have had fun. my left eye kept twitching throughout the day, and i think it was a bad sign. yes, ruolin tricked me, so that in the end, i chose to go to ccab by myself. i had to skip dinner.
today was danil's remembrance service. i didn't actually think that i would cry, but i did. it was the second funeral i'd been to, and so had adriel. i feel like a terrible person. you see, some part of me hated danil because he was mean. but i cried today because i found that i couldn't hate him anymore. in fact, the terrible part was that if he hadn't died, i might not have let go of the hate.
and suddenly, death isn't so scary anymore.
we all face parting at some points of our lives. sometimes, we say 'goodbye' to those we'll see someday again. sometimes, we say 'goodbye' to the people who leave us forever. yes, we all face parting in our lives. the pain that comes from eternal separation is immense. some of us ease that pain by crying. some blame others for their pain. then there are those who simply try to ignore the hurt and move on. and some of us pray for serenity.
close your head and bow your eyes.
you once corrected my pronunciation of 'infidelity'. now i'm doing all i can to avoid you, but i've been walking everywhere alone for such a long time that i think i deserve some better treatment from you.
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