abulia

i started reading the phantom of the opera. i got the book in 2001, but at that time i was so young that i never understood/finished reading the book. so now i'm back on it.

on monday i sat on a helicopter yay! -.- given the choice, i would rather not be in that exercise. i mean, the rain on that day kept coming on the wrong times, such that the exercise was not cancelled, and we had to run and splash in mud =(

i have moved into the new bunks, and the people there are amused that i like the fruit bars from the combat rations. so anyway, they gave me fourteen fruit bars in total. i am also going to bring my own milo sachets to camp, because i discovered the comfort of making an instant drink using the hot water from the water cooler.

i have also learnt to tear featherlite, after too many tries.

my weekend has been cut short this time, because of guard duty. zomg mindless/brainless standing around for two hours at one go. while doing duty, i was watching the stars and lightning. occasionally the sky would be illuminated, and you would see the extensive cloud cover there actually is. i also watched a star grow fainter until it disappeared.

while sleeping during the break, i had a dream. i dreamt of being out in the cold on a christmas eve night. i cooked a hot bowl of soup that made a little boy happy. and i woke up crying. don't know why.

during the second shift, it began to rain; i looked at the pavement become dotted with rain drops, until it was completely wet. the straight road ahead turned blurry, like 雨蒙蒙 would have described it. when the sky finally brightened in the morning, it revealed a very gloomy and cold sky.

sometimes i really think again and again about why i am in such a place, such a situation. but yes, let's wait for the christmas after the next; by then i'll be back in the home baking.

on other news, the PSC application was unsuccessful.