debouch
i've convinced myself that what i'm doing is what i want. mr shagimardanov was practising his flute upstairs, so i climbed up the stairs and gave him the box of cookies. i don't know why, but i felt like i just had to, or i would feel guilty forever. to soothe our consciences with small acts of kindness.
i let many people try my cookies. wouldn't say that they were inedible, so i guess they're ok. in fact, the only thing i couldn't get right was the texture. but i didn't manage to give you one of my cookies. i wanted so much to have you try it, but i didn't dare to ask you still. anyway, they're not really that kickass (yet).
i almost cried at dance of the blessed spirits. mr shagimardanov's playing just feels so much like danil's. i still don't understand why i could have hated someone and not stopped until he died. and it feels terrible.
i received an ugly flower today, which i think yiyan picked. but never mind, a flower's still a flower. and you wouldn't be able to understand or appreciate it. there were no viola photos this time. nobody had time for a viola photo this time. i loved the viola power!
i went to ben and jerry's at raffles city with yiyan, beejuan, weiyang and jia en. yiyan and weiyang bought apple crumbles, which were absolutely not nice to eat. the ones in school are much better, seriously. i saw leening and joel (who is somewhat like joel ong) at the city hall mrt later.
i began to miss you a few moments later. and then impact of everything i have done since 9th october 2006 came upon me. i need time to forget all these things that i've done, and then i can finally go to bed without fear of having bad dreams in which i die and tell you my final wishes.
i just need some distractions. when i got home, i did the dishes. and then tomorrow i'm going to iron clothes, sweep and mop the floor, and wash more dirty clothes. everyone has a little dirty laundry.
weicheng told me that not everyone i like must like me back. and yes, i should hate less people. it's finally december; advent calendar is on at neopets now.
i let many people try my cookies. wouldn't say that they were inedible, so i guess they're ok. in fact, the only thing i couldn't get right was the texture. but i didn't manage to give you one of my cookies. i wanted so much to have you try it, but i didn't dare to ask you still. anyway, they're not really that kickass (yet).
i almost cried at dance of the blessed spirits. mr shagimardanov's playing just feels so much like danil's. i still don't understand why i could have hated someone and not stopped until he died. and it feels terrible.
i received an ugly flower today, which i think yiyan picked. but never mind, a flower's still a flower. and you wouldn't be able to understand or appreciate it. there were no viola photos this time. nobody had time for a viola photo this time. i loved the viola power!
i went to ben and jerry's at raffles city with yiyan, beejuan, weiyang and jia en. yiyan and weiyang bought apple crumbles, which were absolutely not nice to eat. the ones in school are much better, seriously. i saw leening and joel (who is somewhat like joel ong) at the city hall mrt later.
i began to miss you a few moments later. and then impact of everything i have done since 9th october 2006 came upon me. i need time to forget all these things that i've done, and then i can finally go to bed without fear of having bad dreams in which i die and tell you my final wishes.
i just need some distractions. when i got home, i did the dishes. and then tomorrow i'm going to iron clothes, sweep and mop the floor, and wash more dirty clothes. everyone has a little dirty laundry.
weicheng told me that not everyone i like must like me back. and yes, i should hate less people. it's finally december; advent calendar is on at neopets now.
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