so near yet so far

it isn't working. i'm still hopelessly drawn to you. i could be doing maths tutorial with paul and hadi and mark, having a lonely lunch, sitting with a friend, sitting at the chamber ensemble booth, but i'll still keep looking at you if you are around. and it fucking hurts because nothing has changed at all.

do you know how hard it is to hold back my tears when i'm eating alone and looking at you from far, far away?

i'm in hopeless pain and helpless despair.