bloom and trampled

another farewell at the airport. this time i'm 61.1kg. a predominantly male farewell is quite different from a female one. there are no hugs, no tears, almost like no feelings. i think, when there's no true emotion involved, everything will be fine. the point is, when you've never done - or felt - something before, it scares you. then from fear comes a different many emotions. sometimes, we just have to acquiesce; give in. another easier way is to just ignore the emotion.

i've finished irresistible poison for the fourth time.