红豆冰

sometimes when you know some things are coming to an end, you just get so emotionally charged.

one night we were doing night driving, we were all looking at the fireflies going in and out of the trees, their lights going on and off too.

i've passed the course, and now i'm licensed to drive the BX. i've touched the oiliest, dirtiest, greasiest, sandiest things ever. but i guess washing the vehicle today - and getting totally soaked under the vehicle - signifies the end of everything. and i did like all the rainbows that formed, and the butterfly that rested on my helmet.

the past few days have been very hot, and in the night it gets quite warm too. maybe that's why the past few nights i've been having very intense dreams, dreams that involve love and separation, murder and missions, death and chances.

every night i look at the stars, which are many, in the sky over the ulu camp. it's so clear that the small (M43, M42) cluster in orion is actually quite visible, but after half an hour the whole constellation disappears.

if i could, i would like to look at the vast expanse of sky that i get to see everyday in the ulu camp, one more time. and then wave goodbye, wave.

沉迷一睡不醒的白晝
寧願一切散失後　至少可內疚
然後是嘆息　是記憶
總算在華麗裡浮　能沉睡到永久

美麗在驟眼間會沒有
變出一千扎鏡花的今後
我相信蜃樓　相信荒謬
從來憧憬的都不永久　總好過沒有

'pseudo' play with 木头人 and tear silently, carefully. there are still a lot of mangoes on the trees back in camp.