solar flares

today i visited 姑姑 with my bounty of food. on the phone, melanie the baby was wailing like the diva. then when i reached the place she was quiet like an angel.

the role of the baby: sleep, cry, feed, poo.

i'm thinking of what i should do between december 2009 and july 2010. today i was talking with sonya online, and then i said that right now i don't feel the desperation to study overseas, or even study anymore. and she said that that's because i am in army, idiot.

i have accepted the NUS offer, but now the UK offers still tempt me. and imperial has just changed my offer to unconditional. but my finances are in a mess. oh what should i do? i want to study overseas but i don't want to.