puff graph - 最後一課

something's wrong. i haven't cried in a long time. but something triggered it last night. then i was crying forever and talking to my imaginary friend. i don't know, maybe it's because i wanted to be back in chamber playing suk. but i can't. it was just a moment of weakness, and it had to go away the next day.

this morning i had trouble tying my shoelaces. and i kept dying at 'puzzle'. siuchu said my eyes were puffy. but i was tired. and then there was an attire check for which my fringe failed, but i really don't see why. i got my haircut over the weekend just so it adhered to the guidelines given by the school.

mr tham said that he warned us the week before, and if we did something about our hair then we wouldn't have failed. and then i just got so angry. i don't know, but i started shouting at him. and as james commented, i started crying. i really hate the way james treats me. i simply don't understand it. i would like to be given some credit for dying here trying so hard to fit , and not to be ill-treated. maybe it was just another moment of weakness.

could something be wrong? because i've never shouted at a teacher the way i did today. i feel so stressed, as though i'm about to break down. everything was fine, and then suddenly i was becoming someone so full of hate.

walked over with a few others to the ri canteen for lunch, but the mixed rice stall went out of food already. yes, everything that happened today was bad. but we met ms low and her cheerfulness was slightly infectious.

i had a tiramisu from crystal jade, and i just need some alcohol now. i feel like baking some cookies, but i'm incapable of loving. and cookies need love, just like all things do. and i don't know what type of cookies to make (for you).