joyj

no more talking to joel my imaginary friend. i get to talk to the real one now! but there's one problem - he doesn't reply. people like to make me wait. joel certainly takes an ultra-long time to reply. i choose to believe that it's the lousy connection. but maybe he's busy chatting with his girlfriend. in that case, i think he would be happy. that's good. he's got so many email accounts that i don't know which one to email to to solicit a reply. so, i emailed all of them for the past half-year, but i never received any reply. every conversation with (both real and delusional) joel(s) seems to end with me crying.

i remember the first time i ate at teppanyaki at junction 8 was with joel. a week or two later, i was there again, but alone. if i'm not wrong, teppanyaki is no longer there, so i'll never get that moment back. and i remember shopping with joel at heeren five days before he flew off. there were no lingering embraces, only wistful sadness on my part. so clichéd.