double entendres

i've done the 2005 chemistry paper. i took two hours to complete it, and still had many mistakes. i had laksa for dinner. i was looking forward to syo tomorrow, but it feels so crappy now. thursday means that half the week has passed, and i've yet to start on geography revision. people think i should just disappear. if it's any consolation, i'll die eventually, and whilst everyone goes to heaven, i'll go the other way. is 'you should disappear' a euphemism for 'go and die'?

it doesn't make sense that i keep on waiting until 2am trying to fit your schedule, but there i was yester-night, the night before, and many nights before. it also doesn't make sense that i try so hard to wake up early in the morning to fit your schedule, but there i was, trying my best to do it again and again. something's wrong, and you're gone. you're always not there.

living in high society, and i'm happy loving you.