no face

sobs gonna be disfigured soon. got a big cut on my face today. so painful and ugly. did you laugh? so suddenly many people in class became nice to me.

watched rage concert today. it was nice but would be better if the audience would just shut up for like even 1 minute. bloody hell don't know who was behind me, kept talking and talking. maybe it's the design of the hall. like my conductor said, esplanade hall's design is such that the sound makes you feel like you are part of the performance, so that when you try to talk to the person beside you it feels like you are disturbing the performance, and so you don't talk. but some halls just don't do that. could hear plastic bags ruffling, and people yakking all the way.

so afraid that there'll be a scar.