christmas is coming

the end of the year is coming yet again.

made panettone for christmas! and this was a recipe that used a sourdough starter. so i spawned it out of my nigella sourdough.
starter and yolks going into the first dough. then with lots of butter, and left overnight to ferment.
more yolks go into the first dough. and then sugar, and then a lot more butter, and then honey. amazingly, the weird order of these ingredients going in still yielded a strong dough. intially, it kept sticking to my hands, though it was really strong and stretchy. but i tried slathering butter on my hands, and managed to handle the dough perfectly!
the dough was so silky and satiny. i used some vanilla paste in the sweet glaze, so it looked really pretty, dotted with vanilla seeds.
and into the oven. the recipe says panettone tends to collapse on itself after coming out of the oven. so the solution is to skewer the molds and then hang the breads upside down as they cool. these turned out so soft and fluffy, i think because they are rich in yolks, like challah; and rich in butter, like brioche.

and a painting project, from start to end:

is there something wrong if initially when you watch a show, you cry, but when you rewatch it you don't feel anything anymore.