不太知道

this morning a friendly mother came to me and asked me how i managed to get to school on time taking the same train as her, because she thought i was from ri. i crossed ms koo's path while crossing the road, but she was concentrating so hard on driving that i don't think she noticed me.

did a little qualitative analysis during chemistry practical. there was no pe because of the fire drill. went out with yihui, yishi, beejuan and jia en to mcdonald's for ice cream because it was such a hot day, then i went back to school.

sometimes i think the only thing i'm best at is waiting. i was reading yishi's chinese book, throwing and catching pebbles the way jeffrey taught me, listening to bagpipes from the boys' brigade, watching car after car go by, making the ixoras bloom, watching as the shadows grew longer and longer until there were no more shadows because everything was already in the shadows, and stupidly but truly believing that you would turn up.

it was quite cold sitting in the night wind. i heard a stray violin sound coming from the boarding blocks. and there were stars tonight. no, i will not stop loving so easily because i'm not like my sister.

因为爱你,失去了自尊。因为爱你,任由你欺负。因为爱你,随你来践踏。