as good as new

sometimes, it's just so hard to remember someone/something. it's there, you now it, but you just can't grasp it clearly. it's as though you've been concussed and you've lost that memory. so bit by bit, using whatever help you can get, you try to piece it back together. some parts become clear, but others remain hazy.

i've been engaging in a little memory-collection of my own. i was surprised that this morning i remembered quite clearly the things i wanted to recall. except one part that was still hazy. but once in a while that memory goes away. it's like trying to catch fire, until it burns you up.

at this point i am reminded of the carpenters song. all my best memories come back clearly to me, some can even make me cry.

unblock.

joel was online again today. then i realised i didn't feel like talking anyway.